Awhile since I've written
Awhile since I've thought
So much has happened
So much has not
I've gotten married
I've met the one
All my problems are solved
All my tears are done
But here I am laying
Just like I used to before
Thinking about life
Wanting just a little more
Even when it is perfect
I must still ponder
The state of me
Me and all my wonder
No matter what we share
I am still just me
Writing poetry in the night
Just like it used to be
That's the more I want
That is the more I miss
Just some time with me
Less time with Mrs.
So it has been awhile
But I am still here
Laying next to him
But making myself clear
Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 11:32 PM UTC
I swallowed my pride and said
"Go home tonight"
I swallowed my dignity and said
"I'll pack you some snacks"
I swallowed my anger and said
"Text me if you need anything"
I should have realized
He had someone who was already telling him to come home
He had someone who would have food waiting
He had someone to text if he needed anything
I wish I spit.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 9:33 PM UTC
I didn't realize I had stopped taking pictures of myself
Maybe because he already knew what I looked like
Maybe because I had forgotten
I didn't realize I had stopped listening to music
Maybe because I had found all the songs about him
Maybe because I had nothing to sing about
I didn't realize I had stopped imaging my future
Maybe because it was already set in stone
Maybe because it was not mine
I didn't realize I had stopped writing poetry
Maybe because one can only write so many love poems
Maybe because I no longer liked to think about my feelings
I didn't realize I had stopped journaling
Maybe because he was there to share and remember with
Maybe because I wasn't doing anything worth writing down
I didn't realize I had stopped working out
Maybe because he loved me no matter how I looked
Maybe because I had lost the motivation
I didn't realize I had stopped reading
Maybe because I didn't need to escape anymore
Maybe because I never had a moment to myself
I didn't realize I had stopped sleeping in my own bed
Maybe because I was sleeping with someone I loved
Maybe because I couldn't stand sleeping alone
I didn't realize I had lost myself
Maybe because I was too busy taking care of us
Maybe because I had stopped.
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 8:05 PM UTC
He called me his girlfriend
In the midst of casual conversation
I waited for the stutter
Or the correction
At least the clarification that usually follows
But he just went on
He went on to talk about simple things
I forgot all about it
Until we hung up
I instantly tried to rationalize
To say, he just misspoke
It didn't mean anything
He just was talking
But that was a lie
It meant everything
Hope was given with that word
But I know it was a mistake
I am not his girlfriend
He just misspoke
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 5:51 PM UTC
There might be those that try to climb it
Take hold of it's sides and say they've grasped it
Sit on it's peak and believe they've conquered it
But they really never can
All anyone can really claim is that they stood at its base and took it in
That they just knew of it's everlasting and immense presence and lived in its wake
Accepted it as it stands
So concrete
So massive
So impossibly surmountable
The mountain of my love
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 10:51 PM UTC
Sometimes I get this ache
In the pit of my stomach
But deeper somehow
It pulls me down to it
Like a scrunching up carpet
Folding in what I am
Getting stronger and deeper each pull
It'll reach my throat
I'll feel like I need to *****
You are a part of me
Festered in that pit deeper than my gut
The part of me only you can touch
But it pulls me night and night again
When you are not there
It pulls and I let it consume me
I just let it ****
No amount of your clothes helps
Only you wrapped around me will
That is when I know that I miss you
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 10:39 PM UTC
My laughter
Your jokes
My smile
Your eyes
My fight
Your reason
My freedom
Your soul
The most perfect sound in the world
Would be the sound of little feet
Made by little yous with tiny bits of me
Miraculously running throughout my life
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 7:40 AM UTC
I'll reason love, waste love, hope love
your face promises mistakes
and when never sounds better
its not worth the fix
Fighting let me go, games let me go, your arms let me go
I tried truly to believe, to catch me falling
but time ran fast and we fell apart
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 7:29 AM UTC
laying here drowning
I find a lifeboat
I let my mind be carried
away from worry
away from doubt
all there is are the waves
the rises and falls
I lull towards serenity
I lull towards peace
this is the musics gift
and I am grateful
Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
I left my heart
In a little corner of your ceiling
Right above your bed
I left my heart
In permanent marker
Right where you could see it
I left my heart
In the safest place I could find
Right where you always return
I left my heart
In absolute happiness
Right with you
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 10:08 AM UTC