ariel-ellis - Hello Poetry

It’s all just a game This is something I now know Power over another Is this a game of telephone? You sent your message down the wire Knowing that you were a liar But my mind was too young & naïve And the words that I received Were jumbled And like a football being fumbled You we’re careless with my heart I was slowly falling apart But all you cared about was the score But life is meant for so much more So I forfeited, I left the game And to you, I'm just a name.

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Nov 11, 2011

Nov 11, 2011 at 7:48 PM UTC

The Game

It’s all just a game This is something I now know Power over another Is this a game of telephone? You sent your message down the wire Knowing that you were a liar But my mind was too young & naïve And the words that I received Were jumbled And like a football being fumbled You we’re careless with my heart I was slowly falling apart But all you cared about was the score But life is meant for so much more So I forfeited, I left the game And to you, I'm just a name.

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You told me to take a chance So I took it You told me to trust you So I did You told me you loved me So I believed you You told me you were sober But you weren’t You told me you were tired But you lied You told me we’d hang out And we didn’t You told me you’d change And you didn’t I told myself I was disappointed But forgave you You lied multiple times But I still gave in I let you take advantage of me But I don’t know why You don’t understand And I'm done I thought you were different But you’re not

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May 1, 2011

May 1, 2011 at 12:22 AM UTC

what happened

You told me to take a chance So I took it You told me to trust you So I did You told me you loved me So I believed you You told me you were sober But you weren’t You told me you were tired But you lied You told me we’d hang out And we didn’t You told me you’d change And you didn’t I told myself I was disappointed But forgave you You lied multiple times But I still gave in I let you take advantage of me But I don’t know why You don’t understand And I'm done I thought you were different But you’re not

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to feel as if no one understands you is the loneliest feeling of all. you wait for a sign of reassurance of comfort there's nothing. complete emptiness your mind rushes with countless thoughts nothing makes sense what's wrong? they ask. you wish you could answer but you can't you wish you knew what was wrong but you don't life's misery has piled one by one making your shoulders a little heavier with each added weight life has brought you down you're fearful that nothing will bring you up you look around for any sign of happiness of hope of guidance there are none you take a deep breath it seems your breathing is the only thing you have control over you close your eyes and continue to breath dreading whatever is to come

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Feb 4, 2011

Feb 4, 2011 at 8:32 PM UTC

Untitled

to feel as if no one understands you is the loneliest feeling of all. you wait for a sign of reassurance of comfort there's nothing. complete emptiness your mind rushes with countless thoughts nothing makes sense what's wrong? they ask. you wish you could answer but you can't you wish you knew what was wrong but you don't life's misery has piled one by one making your shoulders a little heavier with each added weight life has brought you down you're fearful that nothing will bring you up you look around for any sign of happiness of hope of guidance there are none you take a deep breath it seems your breathing is the only thing you have control over you close your eyes and continue to breath dreading whatever is to come

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I think the part that gets me the most is knowing that I will never feel that way about someone again. I will never experience that rush, that kind of joy, the ever-satisfying comfort that surrounds. Will I ever be truly happy? How can I? Especially when I know what it COULD feel like, And I know that it doesn’t. Those feelings are gone, And will never be felt, Ever. Again. The way I felt about you. That kind of feeling. That kind of love. Compassion. Obsession. Devotion. Yearning. That was true. Goodbye to true love.

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Jan 26, 2011

Jan 26, 2011 at 6:40 PM UTC

Goodbye

I think the part that gets me the most is knowing that I will never feel that way about someone again. I will never experience that rush, that kind of joy, the ever-satisfying comfort that surrounds. Will I ever be truly happy? How can I? Especially when I know what it COULD feel like, And I know that it doesn’t. Those feelings are gone, And will never be felt, Ever. Again. The way I felt about you. That kind of feeling. That kind of love. Compassion. Obsession. Devotion. Yearning. That was true. Goodbye to true love.

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Maybe it's different, maybe this time he'll change? “Go ahead, keep telling yourself that. You know it’s not true.” Maybe one day he’ll feel the same way? “Why do you give yourself false hope?” It’s like we spend all of our time waiting for a boy who will never change. “But if you know this then why do you give in again and again?” It's hard learning that someone will never change. “You need to stand your ground.” The way he satisfies my lonely urges… “Build a wall, separate from him.” I’ve built a wall, strategically of things that he’s good at so he could break it down. I’m still the same vulnerable girl when he comes around. It’s like I lose control of everything… My brain doesn’t function and my body only moves in ways that he’d like it to. “He treats you like nothing and you know this.” It’s hard realizing that your feelings for someone will never be mutual. They only want you when they can’t have you. “You know he’s no good for you.”

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Jan 9, 2011

Jan 9, 2011 at 10:41 AM UTC

conversations in my head

Maybe it's different, maybe this time he'll change? “Go ahead, keep telling yourself that. You know it’s not true.” Maybe one day he’ll feel the same way? “Why do you give yourself false hope?” It’s like we spend all of our time waiting for a boy who will never change. “But if you know this then why do you give in again and again?” It's hard learning that someone will never change. “You need to stand your ground.” The way he satisfies my lonely urges… “Build a wall, separate from him.” I’ve built a wall, strategically of things that he’s good at so he could break it down. I’m still the same vulnerable girl when he comes around. It’s like I lose control of everything… My brain doesn’t function and my body only moves in ways that he’d like it to. “He treats you like nothing and you know this.” It’s hard realizing that your feelings for someone will never be mutual. They only want you when they can’t have you. “You know he’s no good for you.”

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You’ve been here before The similarities are frightening You’re scared You stand on the edge Icy waters below You’ve jumped before, a past summer This time experience holds you back Remembering the outcome from before Is it worth it? Down below a voice shouts, “Take a chance.” Without thinking, you jump You fall slowly, deeper, further, down, down, down To the point of no return SPLASH Your body descends into the cold water Your heart is pierced You rise to the surface searching for warmth Nothing, no one, is there Left all alone like last time Your heart is frozen Your body lifeless Until suddenly something grabs you And pulls you to the shore A voice whispers “I’m different.”

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Jan 6, 2011

Jan 6, 2011 at 11:31 PM UTC

Take a Chance

You’ve been here before The similarities are frightening You’re scared You stand on the edge Icy waters below You’ve jumped before, a past summer This time experience holds you back Remembering the outcome from before Is it worth it? Down below a voice shouts, “Take a chance.” Without thinking, you jump You fall slowly, deeper, further, down, down, down To the point of no return SPLASH Your body descends into the cold water Your heart is pierced You rise to the surface searching for warmth Nothing, no one, is there Left all alone like last time Your heart is frozen Your body lifeless Until suddenly something grabs you And pulls you to the shore A voice whispers “I’m different.”

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someone who used to take up all your time now only takes up a slot in your photo album you pass on the street and you both pretend not to care someone who used to fill your mind is now just a distant memory and we'll pass each other in our new lives but neither of us will admit- that we secretly wonder what could have been I know your smell, that old familiar smell. The expressions you'd make and their meanings. I can feel the soft touch of your fingertips. These are all things that I will never forget. When our relationship ended, my love for you didn't.

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Dec 29, 2010

Dec 29, 2010 at 11:07 PM UTC

broken

someone who used to take up all your time now only takes up a slot in your photo album you pass on the street and you both pretend not to care someone who used to fill your mind is now just a distant memory and we'll pass each other in our new lives but neither of us will admit- that we secretly wonder what could have been I know your smell, that old familiar smell. The expressions you'd make and their meanings. I can feel the soft touch of your fingertips. These are all things that I will never forget. When our relationship ended, my love for you didn't.

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when you feel you have no one it's a dark and cold place there's nothing to keep you warm no familiar face you're surrounded by people but you've never felt so alone searching for something, anything, to make you feel at home when you've lost all your hope what is left to believe in no one understands or knows that you're not breathin' people stare but they can't see the pain in your eyes they don't hear the voice inside of you that constantly cries

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Dec 20, 2010

Dec 20, 2010 at 1:20 AM UTC

No one

when you feel you have no one it's a dark and cold place there's nothing to keep you warm no familiar face you're surrounded by people but you've never felt so alone searching for something, anything, to make you feel at home when you've lost all your hope what is left to believe in no one understands or knows that you're not breathin' people stare but they can't see the pain in your eyes they don't hear the voice inside of you that constantly cries

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I used to get nervous around you My heart would skip a beat My palms would sweat An uncontrollable shaking of my feet Your laugh would ring in my ears I would get lost in your stare When you kissed me time would stop With you, I had no cares You used to say you’d love me forever And I would surely agree But what changed between us What brought along this misery The spot where you should be Is empty but that emptiness follows me I look at my hand Your fingers aren’t interlaced But when I close my eyes I can still see your face My heart is filled with love Love that’s only for you But my brain was selfish And told me I had to choose Confusion filled my mind I didn't know what to do I guess I was bored And wanted to try something new But now that I’ve grown, I've realized That your love, is the only love I’ve ever known

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Dec 13, 2010

Dec 13, 2010 at 3:21 PM UTC

Long Lost Love

I used to get nervous around you My heart would skip a beat My palms would sweat An uncontrollable shaking of my feet Your laugh would ring in my ears I would get lost in your stare When you kissed me time would stop With you, I had no cares You used to say you’d love me forever And I would surely agree But what changed between us What brought along this misery The spot where you should be Is empty but that emptiness follows me I look at my hand Your fingers aren’t interlaced But when I close my eyes I can still see your face My heart is filled with love Love that’s only for you But my brain was selfish And told me I had to choose Confusion filled my mind I didn't know what to do I guess I was bored And wanted to try something new But now that I’ve grown, I've realized That your love, is the only love I’ve ever known

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He’s different He’s older He’s very smart He fills the space Within your empty heart You’re different You’re perfect You’ve stolen his heart Life is so hard When you’re miles apart They’re together They’re perfect They’re never apart Their feelings are stronger Than they were at the start BUT Something happens Something unexpected Something not so smart Now you’re confused and Spending more time apart You’re broken You’re stupid You’re falling apart Because all you’ve been fed Were lies from the start He’s selfish He’s deceitful It's been an act from the start Just a man who took advantage Of your young foolish heart.

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Nov 25, 2010

Nov 25, 2010 at 10:20 PM UTC

Not Who You Thought

He’s different He’s older He’s very smart He fills the space Within your empty heart You’re different You’re perfect You’ve stolen his heart Life is so hard When you’re miles apart They’re together They’re perfect They’re never apart Their feelings are stronger Than they were at the start BUT Something happens Something unexpected Something not so smart Now you’re confused and Spending more time apart You’re broken You’re stupid You’re falling apart Because all you’ve been fed Were lies from the start He’s selfish He’s deceitful It's been an act from the start Just a man who took advantage Of your young foolish heart.

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