Listing along aimlessly,
Trying to find a direction,
Heart hurting, not helping
in knowing where to go.
Words from all sides,
Steering me one way or another,
But I end up driving drunk,
An erratic mess on the road.
Swerving to avoid the obstacles,
But I know I'm going to crash,
When and where lies a mystery,
But it'll ******* hurt.
I keep on truckin' alone,
Unable to bear the responsibility,
Of taking down others with me,
Even though I know that's what'll happen.
No one comes out alive,
In the road that is my mind,
It's a dangerous, winding road,
One best traversed with care.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 8:08 PM UTC
Paper stars and hearts,
Decisions made by day,
Prolonging the depart,
Searching for a way.
Still following the path,
My fate laid for me,
Living through the past,
Unlocking with the key.
The long desired course,
The truth comes to pass,
Nothing could be worse,
If you let it last.
The light shines ahead,
The darkness left behind,
Many tears will shed,
Of many different kinds.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 8:05 PM UTC
Circles and circles,
Tightly wound,
Trapped enslavement,
Tightly bound.
Stoke the fire,
Pave the way,
Hiding passion,
Run away
Cold and empty,
Heart of pain,
Crying inward,
Tear stained.
Embracing cold,
Pillows held,
Marks of wear,
****** bed
Sweet remorse,
Under masks,
Bitter hearts,
Daunting tasks
Pairs of eyes,
Crossroad track,
Sorrow-made,
Glittered cracks.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 7:48 PM UTC
These thoughts I'm starting to think,
And again, I'm beginning to sink,
Into that self-destructive place,
Every moment my mind starts to race.
There hasn't been a moment's peace,
Where my head has been at ease,
Destructive, socially inept,
Feeling like there's nothing left.
Trapped again in a dark void,
Trying my best to avoid,
Stumbling, nowhere to go,
Pushing emotion far below
Making attempts to share,
Doing what I can to know they care,
It's just that, no matter what I do,
I'll always feel I have me, not you.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 7:46 PM UTC
So much to hide,
Hurt inside,
So much to show,
Nowhere to go.
Knowledge none,
Mind on the run,
Flowing down,
Always a frown.
Full of shame,
Nothing to gain,
Hold in pain,
Try to refrain.
Hear the call,
Can't stop the fall,
Losing pace,
Feel disgraced.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 7:43 PM UTC
I never felt so bad,
This hurt and pain I feel,
It makes me everyday
want to leave this world.
This feeling of being crushed
under the weight of sorrow,
The ongoing destitution
The mental destruction.
Homeless, unwanted,
Heartless beings.
Searching for a place
to find my heart's solace.
****** to search
to find my potential.
Carried off in isolation --
My heart is alone.
Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 7:41 PM UTC
Fate has brought me to place unknown,
I follow wherever the wind has blown,
twirling about like a leaf in the air,
wandering so free, without a care.
Cornered by thoughts that torture me,
wondering how they could have come to be,
life's horrors, the pains, and the such,
driving me crazy, for it is too much
I reach the hill, up to the top,
at the peak is where I stop,
over the horizon for miles I see,
is everything the way it should be?
Paranoia consumes my thoughts,
dries up my spirit as if in a drought,
I scream to the sky, no one can hear
the pain, the suffering, the outburst of fear
Hopes, dreams, consumed within,
I watch as the bright light grows dim.
Myself and the darkness have both become one,
by the end of the day -- transformation done.
Lightning strikes, thunder roars.
Light can exist no more.
Children of the night come out to play.
Welcome, those who have gone astray.
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 8:51 PM UTC
Walk for thought,
actions fought,
don't know what,
I should ought
...to do.
Lives at stake,
got to make,
no mistakes,
all heartaches
....are through.
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 8:48 PM UTC
Lonely and alone,
cold like a stone,
coarse like the sand
rubbing across your hand.
I don't know why
I feel what I feel,
one minute I cry
and my heart's about to peel.
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 8:47 PM UTC
Devil, demon,
in my heartache,
wakened dream,
wakened nightmare.
Lost I wander,
alone again,
craving love,
craving beauty.
May 31, 2012
May 31, 2012 at 8:46 PM UTC