solar systems.
we are just one of the many in the universe.
but in the mess of planets and stars,
i found you.
Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 10:00 AM UTC
love me in words and phrases
until you can no longer sing
mercy mercy mercy
i crave your love
mercy baby
Sep 27, 2015
Sep 27, 2015 at 3:22 AM UTC
baby lie with me
with your hand
beneath my back
your gentle fingertips tracing
the outline of my ribs on my
bare chest
i've got my hand on
your chest
i can feel each
heartbeat,
your heart fluttering gently like
a caged butterfly
the sun melts
slowly
like watercolour behind the hills
and we continue
to lie
there
just the two of
us
there was no
tomorrow
only the
moment
of the
night
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 3:38 AM UTC
you were my second skin
the familiar warmth
the comforting caress
the soft sound that rang like bluebells in my ears
and now you're gone
a void of cold, bitter air
the comfort no longer lingers
your song no longer sings
all that's left is a sliver of your touch
a slight warmth encapsulated by a cold frost
it still warms my chest
i'll be okay
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC
fill my lungs with smoke
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget you.
i cant
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the smoke will wash away your scent.
spices and vanilla
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget how you tasted.
coffee and bagels
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the fires i start will burn a hole in my memory so i can forget the colour of your eyes, or how they gleamed like sapphires.
i still see the sapphires
And the truth is,
i cannot forget you,
Or how you smelled like spices and vanilla,
Or how every morning when i kissed you and you’d taste like the bagels and coffee that you had,
Or how your eyes are the centre of my universe, and how they glimmer like distant stars a million light years away.
These cigarettes are not enough,
they do not intoxicate me as much as my thoughts of you do.
And even if i tried to drown myself in the deepest oceans,
or if i tried to throw myself off the highest buildings,
i will never, never, be able to forget you.
fill my lungs with smoke
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 10:01 AM UTC
your bones,
they protrude
at awkward angles,
where the veins meet your muscles.
the thick grey lines,
cast on your ivory skin,
like waves on the violent ocean surface,
the shadows from your bones.
from your collar bones,
to your ribcage,
to your hips,
to your thighs,
and to your ankles.
the lack in the amount of flesh,
the lack in the amount of muscle mass.
to me they were perfect.
your bones,
they were just
beautiful.
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 12:31 PM UTC
the ocean
it’s calling me.
its sweet longing,
tugs at the echoes of the beach.
the water is the greatest illusion,
seemingly blue and seamless,
it washes up,
clear as crystal.
the water stretches for miles
like millions of diamonds
floating on the transparent linen
blurred by the glint of the sun.
sailboats glide past
creating the only dents
in the flawless sheet of foam
haunting the blue ink.
swish
my eyes close
and i lean back
and i let the arms of the waves
catch me
the tides pull me down
until my head is no longer above the surface
and i do not struggle
but say my farewell to the sunlight.
swish
the sounds are fading
and my vision is receding
i try not to fight
and i let my body lie limp
the world will never know i am gone.
the sky will never spill a tear.
insignificant
insignificant
when you hear the echoes of the ocean
or see the million diamonds lined up along the shore
i hope you think of me
and i hope you know,
i am free
swish
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 11:41 AM UTC
I yearn for a sombre eternity.
I yearn to be the diamond of your universe.
But i have been forgotten,
like shooting stars of the 1800s
I believe we had something,
a glowing spark that hung from fragile dynamite wires, threatening to detonate into a full blown love affair.
Day by day, your interest faltered, sending me into depths of sadness.
And i’d cry, every night, for i now knew, that our love was a dying flame, the kind that you see at the end of almost finished candle wicks.
And so my eyes bled, they bled sorrow and pain, and they made the spark on the dynamite wire die out. And there was smoke, and for a while, i was lost.
And the dynamite never blew up, and the love that could have been, never was. And here i stand, broken and bruised, just hoping you would find me again, and reignite the spark.
Because in all truth,
I really, really, really wonder what it would be like to be with you.
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 11:33 AM UTC
I am plummeting.
Faster than the speed of light.
That even time slows down.
I am plummeting.
Falling from the the clouds.
Into the deepest depths of the ocean.
I am plummeting.
Like an angel with wilted wings.
All innocence is lost.
I am plummeting.
Headfirst.
And i do not struggle.
I am plummeting.
A dying light.
I no longer shine.
I am plummeting.
My lungs are tired.
My screams shall not be heard.
My tears shall be the diamonds,
they glisten and radiate my sorrow.
The angels are crying too.
Because they know,
They cannot save me.
I am plummeting.
Catch me.
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 6:17 AM UTC
The sadness
Was a black pool
Of a haunting tragedy.
The sadness
Is a suicide
Of a lonely man.
The sadness
Is the gripping of bed sheets
And the clenching of teeth through crying eyes.
The sadness
Are the lonely nights alone
And the agony of vulnerability.
The sadness
Is a contagious disease
A promise of eternal melancholy.
The sadness
Are the sleepless nights
Of empty wishing on dead stars
The sadness
It was an overwhelming emotion
Like a cannibal
Tearing my flesh off my bones
A delicacy of the highest honor.
The sadness
Was a jump from a skyscraper
A slit on the wrist
An overdose off pills.
A merciless dance of death.
Jun 21, 2014
Jun 21, 2014 at 6:12 AM UTC