screams.
oh the screams!
lurking in a place that I can't see.
tell me what you want!
I can feel you, but you are not visible to my naked eye.
cruel, oh you!
vallate acid creeps into my mouth
rip me apart, just do it already!
but instead you stay hidden, buried in time
I don't want to dig!
I must uncover you, slowly, piece by piece
You cut me!
The pieces tear my skin upon touch,
but my soul will not settle until the screams are gone.
Nov 26, 2020
Nov 26, 2020 at 8:52 PM UTC
the voices in my head
are screaming
the voices have no sound
but they have a physical power
a presence
that can't be ignored
I try not to listen
I tune them out
but they overcome me
and they become too strong
so I cave in
I do what they tell me
I destroy myself to please the noise
oh how silly am I
Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 10:14 AM UTC
you can find me hiding
underneath the oak tree
further than the eye can see
thinking about how I'm not ready
how this can't be real
how there couldn't possibly be a you and me
yet here we are
and the memories resurface
of your arms wrapped tightly around my ribs
of your hand enlaced with my tiny fingers
I can't lie and say my thoughts are pure
Because many times I think things might not be right
That I’m not ready for this
my brain tells me I can’t ever love someone
that they could never love me in return
but then I move past all of the noise
and the memories resurface
of you sharing your bacon because you know its my favorite
of you carrying me when my legs have given out
Suddenly I am at peace
I reassure myself that this is right
and I know the thoughts will return
but for now, you can find me hiding under the oak tree
further than the eye can see
Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 10:11 AM UTC
tell me again that I'm pretty
I like that
it rolls off your tongue
while the moon lights the sky
at the very moment the waves of sound meet my ears
at the very moment the waves of sound meet my ears
while the moon lights the sky
it rolls off your tongue
I like that
tell me again that I'm pretty
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 11:30 AM UTC
I feel like I'm stuck
but I've been conditioned to like it
to like the feeling of never being able to rest
never being able to let the wheel stop
so I run
I keep running
hoping silently that my legs won't give out beneath me
even though I know they will
im just not sure when
when I will become tired with the constructs
the grind of everyday life
the wheel that won't stop turning
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 4:27 PM UTC
they drift in and out
those that at once I thought I never could live with out
come and go?
Maybe so
just tell me how I know
will they stay forever
in my heart? in my soul?
Never
So teach me how
to let them pass now
before I become attached
to something I know will never last
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 4:05 PM UTC
I keep staring at the water
wondering when the time will be
when all these thoughts
become too much
and I finally
decide
I keep staring at the water
wondering when the time will be
when I finally give up on these foolish hopes
these silly dreams
I keep staring at the water
wondering when I will feel its chill
breathe deep
and go
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 9:15 AM UTC
I'm not sure how to tell you,
that I'm still an untainted ocean.
For I have watched the birds come and go
And I can speak for years about the rain and the wind
I can tell you the patterns of the sky and the stars
I can pretend like many have sailed through my waters before
I bet you think they have
With my water so wide and the eroded banks along the shore
The vague, mysterious stories I tell
About the waves that cross my body
However, it is all fantasy
For my ocean is untainted and no one has sailed here before
Because every time someone tries to step on the tiny pebbles
on the furthest coast
I cause a storm
I destroy their chances
So I may remain untainted
an untainted ocean
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 7:29 PM UTC
call me naive
just say it already
tell me I'm foolish for picking bouquets of dandelions
that I'm silly when I find your face in the depths of the sky
Acknowledge that I'm innocent when I pull away from your kiss
But don't take away what is mine
Because I fought for so long to get these guileless thoughts out of my head
to only want to be young instead
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 7:20 PM UTC
Maybe years from now
we'll live out the scene we created today
looking face to face
and never
ever
having to say goodbye
your eyes meet mine
and we gaze
stare for hours
as you look into my heart
and I look into yours
and we see the contents of each other's souls
buried without viewing for so many years
but we didn't create that scene
it was just me
and im not sure if you knew
or know now
even though I tried to tell you
I tried to show you subtly
but you didn't care to look
and now you are gone
and the reel will never be played
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 8:47 AM UTC