where did i go
in the mirror
eyes vacant
hair thin
lips ruby raw
spring on the rise
sun rays warmer each day
i’ll find me again
Feb 19, 2025
Feb 19, 2025 at 8:59 PM UTC
You looked at me constantly
I couldn’t figure out why
To this day I don’t know for sure why
But, I’m certain you weren’t seeing me.
If you saw me
You’d know
I’m someone who survives by being alone
You’d know
my face is the same one that needs to look in reflective surfaces
just to be sure every aspect is perfect
And you’d know a piece of me is never coming back
I wonder who you saw
and who you thought was looking back at you?
Oct 10, 2020
Oct 10, 2020 at 10:49 PM UTC
There's nothing but silence on your end
I thought that's what I wanted
silence
silence
silence
but, now I'm wishing it wasn't coming from
you
Jun 9, 2019
Jun 9, 2019 at 12:45 AM UTC
I finally figured it out
*
I don't let any man
get too close,
take a part of me,
love me
*
because if I did
I'd finally be accepting,
your empty spot in my life,
needs to be replaced
*
and even with this realization
I'm still scared,
I'm never going to find the strength,
to let go of your vacant hold over me
Jun 7, 2019
Jun 7, 2019 at 1:01 AM UTC
whisper your sweet words
so no one can hear them, but us
hide your gentle touches
so no one can yearn to feel them, but us
....because I'm selfish,
I only want you to myself
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 11:01 PM UTC
No one will be mine
and I'm no ones
I like it like that, I do
Once you let someone be yours
all they do in the end
is make demands of you
So I'll be my own
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 2:58 PM UTC
Endless thoughts,
anxiety obsessed with me,
dark clouds,
sadness taunting me
These are the things
I'm still learning to escape
May 22, 2019
May 22, 2019 at 12:37 AM UTC
my soul,
so quick to scurry
as you pass me by,
still yearns for you late at night
I didn't believe your grandest
smile
could pull me back in
but here I am... right back to your side,
held so tight
oh my soul, where did you lose your fight?
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 6:34 PM UTC
in a tiny moment, so insignificant in time
he looked up to the sky,
as if he saw someone looking down at him
and I was in awe
because he did that to...
just.. like.. me..
I wondered how much our pain was the same
May 17, 2019
May 17, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
when did I let normal become
fake smiles
oversized sweaters
sunglasses to hide my eyes
I've become an actress
the kind who can't distinguish
where the stage ends
and the real world begins
how do I unmask the pain
shed all these layers
laugh genuinely
become just me again
May 4, 2019
May 4, 2019 at 2:40 AM UTC