there is a dark emptiness within.
slowly growing as the time passes.
some days it shrinks away,
others it expands and nearly consumes all.
there is a desperate need to fill that void:
inhale the nicotine
release the darkness within that smoke.
swallow the fire,
that numbs the mind.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 12:42 AM UTC
the gardener ventured
across the country
till he found
the perfect plot
young, unsown
fertile
and ready to be
used
he did as any gardener
would do
he planted his seed
knowing
his flower would grow
he planted his seed
and waited
he watered the ground
and waited
a young sprout
broke through the soil
and the gardener beamed
his flower was growing
and it grew
and it grew
he watered his flower
and gave her food
he thought she needed
and he plucked away
what she didn't
his flower was small
and delicate
he needed to protect her
protect her from others
she was his flower
and his alone
if she grew astray
he pulled her back
into her place
and all she was
was just his flower
and his alone
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 7:54 PM UTC
Quite often I find myself wondering,
Questioning my existence
Is all the pain and drama worth it?
Every hurtful word,
Every tear,
Every cut,
Every bruise,
Every cigarette,
Every bottle,
Every anything,
Is anything worth it?
Sep 21, 2015
Sep 21, 2015 at 12:23 PM UTC
Fear her
She may be small
She may be young
But she is a force to be reckoned with
If she let's you in
Do not hurt her
You'll understand why you should
Fear her
She may be small
She may be young
But she knows how to cause pain
Not physical pain
But the worst kind of pain
Emotional pain
Hurt her and she'll make you miserable
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 6:39 PM UTC
Save me
I'm falling
Farther and farther
Down the rabbit hole
I can't get out
Help me
I'm begging
My hand reaches out
Grasping the air
Hoping to find a hand
Rescue me
I trapped in this hole
I cannot break out
Not alone
Only you can save me now
Dec 11, 2014
Dec 11, 2014 at 6:31 PM UTC
You're perfect
But not good enough for me
I love you
But not enough to be your man
You're beautiful
But not pretty enough for me
You're funny
Because of your stupidity
You're cute
Because you don't know the truth
You're my best friend
Because you're just my play thing
I'm here for you
But not for long
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 9:33 PM UTC
I thought you cared
I thought you liked me
I was wrong
You never liked me
I was just your sympathy case
To make yourself feel good
You complimented me
Constantly throughout the day
You built me up
Never planning in telling the truth
That you had no real feelings for me
Now I desperately search
For anything sharp
To help bleed you out of me
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:30 AM UTC
There is no escape
No matter how far I run
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
No matter where I hide
I cannot escape
There is no escape
I can't hide from my past
The ghosts come back to haunt me
Just when I think I'm free
They come and pull me back again
I cannot escape
There is no escape
I am bound to who I was
I am held down by chains
I am held down by my regrets
I am held down by all my mistakes
I cannot escape
I can never be free
For I am bound
Never to open up
Never to rule trust
Never to truly love
Because I can never escape
I cannot escape from myself
Aug 13, 2014
Aug 13, 2014 at 7:37 PM UTC
Have you ever like somebody so much that it hurt?
You want them so badly, but you know you can't have them?
You know they don't want you like that,
Yet you still hope everyday that they'll change their mind
Although you know you can't no matter what you say or do
So you settle
You settle to be whatever they'll let you be
A friend
A best friend
A sibling
Friends with benefits
Whatever you can be
You're so desperate to be close to them
It's sad to see yourself like this
And it hurts when you see them more interested in someone else
And then you wonder
Did you ever mean anything to then at all?
Then you realize
You don't
And never will
Jul 6, 2014
Jul 6, 2014 at 7:26 PM UTC
To Love Is To Destroy
To Be Loved Is To Be The One Destroyed
Love Destroys
It breaks
It weakens
It softens
Love Destroys
Jul 1, 2014
Jul 1, 2014 at 4:31 AM UTC