i miss waking up next to you
the sun beaming on your face
as i stare at your radiant skin
the colour of caramelized brown sugar
the kind you eat off candy apples
in the summertime at amusement parks
while the lights from rides illuminate the night
the same way your presence ignites my heart
i am stuck in daydreams of you
and although the world is on halt
i feel an immense amount of chaos in my world
because you are not here with me
in my presence
and the thought of you makes me feel
and finally understand things
that were once incomprehensible to me
i’ve never been good at science
but with you it’s like i understand the concept
of gravitational pulls
because although we are so far apart
i feel so insanely close to you but...
maybe i’m just stuck in the universe
that i found in your eyes
Oct 2, 2020
Oct 2, 2020 at 2:59 PM UTC
You are a piece of me
And as much as sometimes
I feel that I need to be my individual self
I find that it’s hard to think of living my life without you
As much of an independent woman
People have perceived me to be
And as much as I’ve made myself believe so too
A piece of you lives in me
And I hate that the thought of being without you
Makes me feel incomplete
Because if one day
The universe decides to separate us
Or tear us apart
And I fall..
The way I fell in love with you
Except this time
I fall into a pit of depression
A feeling that knows me oh so well
A feeling that constantly lingers around me
Like my favourite perfume
I fear that I may end up losing both of us
And I know that pain loves company
And maybe I don’t want to think about losing you
Because I’ve grown up to be pain
And you are my sweet, sweet misery
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 12:48 PM UTC
Nothing hurts more
In this very moment
Than the thought of losing you
And though I want to give you
The reassurance you don’t think you need
The twisting and turning of my gut
The rush that my anxiety is experiencing
Refuses to let me tell you
And it hurts most
To know that
You
You were the closest thing to love
I have felt
In a really long time
You are the closest thing to love
That I remember feeling
Before I touched the deep
deep
Pits of depression
A feeling... that is slowly trying to familiarize herself with my soul once again
A cut tie that is trying to find the strength to mend its old habits back together
And I fear meeting her once again
Because I might be on the verge of losing you
But I cannot let myself lose me ever again
May 3, 2019
May 3, 2019 at 11:47 AM UTC
I’ve fallen in love with the taste of you
And the way you love to taste me too
I’m in love with the mystery you portray
And the passion you exert
With the affirmations you speak
And the love that we make
Being with you is like being inside while the rain is pouring down
The way you bring me feelings of comfort, relaxation, and an overload of emotions
And though most wish the rain would just stop
I admire the process
Because I know something beautiful is ready to unfold
My dear, we have never been perfect
And although I hate rollercoasters
I’m willing to go through ups and downs with you
Because I know this ride is worth it
And in case the universe decides we weren’t meant to be
A piece of you will live in me
Because you have brought me light and love
At a time where I spent most of my days in oceans that I created with my own pain and tears
And for that I am forever thankful.
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 10:51 PM UTC
our love was like the moon
beautiful and bright
mysterious
some nights you saw it
and it followed you home
other nights you went on a search
to find it
oh, how beautiful and simplistic
and i talk to the moon
hoping that you hear me
because our love was like the moon
sometimes so bold and beautiful
and sometimes..
so hard to find.
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 3:19 PM UTC
It's not fair that I am constantly giving out love to people who don't know how to treat me and who don't appreciate the way that I surrender my pride. It's not fair that while I cry in silence you get to live your life in peace because you do not care nearly half as much as I do when it comes to losing each other like is that fair?
It's not fair.
Do you realize that I put my heart on my sleeve for you?
You must not realize because you always want to cut your sleeves off on hot summer days even when you know how expensive that shirt was to begin with. You don't give a **** about the sleeves that I rest my heart on and you neglect my salty tears cause you are always in search of something sweeter
while still stringing me along.
Cut the ******* string since you're so strong and keep that perfect posture of yours because when you walk away from me I sure as hell better not see you turning back. I sure as hell better not hear that sorry-ass "I miss you" after months of me training myself to just keep swimming. There's plenty of fish in the sea sweetheart but never forget that the same fish you throw back willingly are the same ones that others pray their whole lives to catch.
a
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 4:13 PM UTC
Thank god I am happy
But I will never forget the words of the heartbroken version of me
The strength of those feelings I carried..
You would think I was a body builder, but for emotional tendencies
And to the person that inspired this wanna-be poetic side of me
Thank you.
Thank you for breaking my heart
And don't worry, I forgive you
I appreciate you for making me fall in love with sunsets
For it's taught me that endings can be beautiful, not just tragic
I appreciate you introducing me to the moon
For we've learned to become best friends
And we indulge in great conversations at night, when the voices are asleep
Most of all, I appreciate you for loving me
Because I now know never to settle
Because I now know how much I should be loving my own self
Something I have struggled with for many years..
Thank you for being my guardian angel
My first love
And my distant soulmate
a
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 11:24 AM UTC
I am in love with a person i no longer know
It has been three years since we last had a conversation
And not even a real one at that
And we encounter each other sometimes in the mornings
Standing less than a metre away from each other
Still keeping up the 'stranger' charade
I'm still in love with a person whom I haven't spoken to in the amount of years it took me to realize i was depressed
It's crazy to think that a person so distant could have this sort of impact on you
And I still love you
And I still love you...
Some nights.... most nights....
Stars seem brighter than they usually are and I find the moon and I have similar conversations
I'm unsure as to when i will get over you because
If i can be even more in love with you than i ever was
After 3 years of your absence
After hundreds of days, thousands of hours of not getting to spend my favourite days with you or share my new stories with you
Something has to be wrong....
I wish I could just take a peak into the future sometimes just to know if I wasted all my time waiting for something that was never bound to happen
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 10:55 AM UTC
if I sent you a book of all the poems I wrote about you
if I added all the love letters I wrote to you
would the memories come back to you?
or would you spend your days trying to remember my name?
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 10:53 AM UTC
this is to all the lost kids
who **** time at a pizza place
or a library
just to stay away from home
this is to all the lost kids
who plug in their earphones
to drown the noise of everyone else
to prevent them from ever hurting again
this is to all the lost kids
who pray every night
hoping that tomorrow will be a better day
knowing that it won't be
this is to all the lost kids
who result to drugs
because they think
it'll numb the pain
this is to all the kids
who wish they were someone else
who wish they had another life
because they hate who they are
this is to all the kids
because I was one of them
because I did all of these things
and I know how it feels
this is to all the kids
a
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 10:46 AM UTC