Silence is the loudest sound of them all.
The deafening emptiness, the stir in my mind.
I am alone. I am alone.
I am alone.
Silence with you was different
Than silence alone.
Because silence with you
Still had you in it.
Silence alone
Makes me wonder
If silence with you
Is better than silence from you.
Or if my quiet, but raging mind,
Is better than my heart in your quiet,
but raging hands.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 11:12 PM UTC
"It gets better" they tell you
Maybe they are right.
As I sway among a blurry haze
Of friends and guitar riffs
Arms around his neck
It feels like this "better" they always told me about.
But why don't they warn you
About the nights that feel like high school
And heartbreak and
Disappointment
That just because he looks and feels
A lot more like a man
Doesn't mean that he is one
That the same songs that cleared your mind
On a long quiet road at 7:00 am
Years ago
Would be what comforted you
In a lonely, tear soaked bed
Tonight.
Maybe I am still a girl.
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 12:20 AM UTC
its almost miraculous
how I spent so long
being so blissfully sure
if you & I
but with every day comes night
and every rain a storm
and every hazy night
a tearful me
a resentful you
it's all I can take
Mar 15, 2015
Mar 15, 2015 at 11:25 PM UTC
With every new hope
There is new agony
I fall hopelessly and endlessly
For the same blue eyes
The same strong hands
The laughs and the smiles and the
Lies and the emptiness just seem to fall
Into place
When will I learn to grasp this rhythm?
Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 10:13 PM UTC
Pain has taught me
That behind every truth is a lie
And behind every man is a boy
And behind every 3am wide-awake night
Are the words you said to me
And can never take back.
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 12:24 AM UTC
I didn't know
It was possible
To fall in love in a single moment.
But as I watched your mouth
Your eyes
Your face light up
With such simple, thoughtless words,
It hit me like a drug.
An all-consuming realization,
That that mouth,
Those eyes,
That face,
You,
Were absolutely everything.
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 11:58 PM UTC
And you're dizzy,
The whole room is spinning
Even in the blackness,
Even though you can't see a thing.
There's a kind of numbness in pain,
A soft, sinking feeling
That lulls you through life.
But when it's dark and you're alone,
And theres nothing to save you,
You start to fall.
Grief is a tightrope,
And being alone is a strong gust of wind
To push you off balance.
I crave clear days,
Filled with endless distractions.
I crave nights spent with friends,
Who don't have black hair,
And blue eyes,
And who never leave me.
Nighttime is my worst enemy.
Jul 19, 2014
Jul 19, 2014 at 11:41 AM UTC
To me, love is such a simple concept.
To me, love is black and white.
Loving somebody
Is as easy as memorizing a song,
Making toast,
Driving home.
It's without thought,
routine,
simple.
I do not understand
Why others must make it more than this?
If you love,
With your whole heart,
Just love.
Smile, kiss, compliment, be.
Say what you feel,
And feel a lot.
Feel everything your heart will hold.
Be as honest as you would with a friend,
As caring as you would towards your mother,
And as loving as you know how to be.
Nobody expects you to love the best,
Just the best that you know how.
So just love.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 12:28 AM UTC
A terribly unfair limbo between
I cannot do this anymore,
and there is no way I could live
without you.
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 11:17 PM UTC
Hurt me.
Get drunk and tell me you love me and you've never wanted
Someone more than you want me.
Then run to her when you're too afraid to face your words.
Tell me.
Get drunk and hurt me because you don't want
Anyone more than her.
Then run to me when you feel like you'll never be good enough for her.
Need me.
Because I get drunk and all I need is you.
Feb 17, 2014
Feb 17, 2014 at 6:03 PM UTC