I hate
the way my heart clenching
the way myself benching
I hate
how I let myself to fall
just to catch the ball
I hate
myself
for
letting me
fall in love
once again
or
perhaps
I just hate love?
Jul 23, 2024
Jul 23, 2024 at 7:45 PM UTC
Pahlawan
Terima kasih
sudah menyelamatkan aku
dari kesedihan ini
Pahlawan
Terima kasih
sudah membangkitkan aku
dari keterpurukan tiada henti
Pahlawan
Kau sungguh hebat
Hanya dengan suara dan karya mu
Berjuta orang sorak bergembira
Pahlawan
Kau sudah mati
Karena kau bukan malaikat
Sama seperti diriku
Manusia hina
Pahlawan
Kau sudah mati
Akan ku kubur jasad mu dalam jiwa ku
Akan ku peluk erat arwah mu
Jika orang bertanya tentang dirimu
Akan ku bisikan
Pahlawan ku sudah mati
Iblis memanggil nya
Bukan Tuhan
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:24 AM UTC
I say love
No need to reciprocate
I give all
No need the vice-versa
You are free to go
You are free to flee
No string
No expectations
Nothing but my free love
Only for you
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:23 AM UTC
Anne told me to love
Nate told me to stop
Noah screamed at me to trust
Isaac yelled at me to fall
Sarah convinced me that its alright
Aaron said its not okay
and i told them to shut up
then be buried
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:21 AM UTC
I want the love that consumes me
I want to love hard and deep
I want to sacrifice my life for love
I want to feel that heart-wrenching feeling
I want to love
But I only want to love him
The one whom I don’t know yet
The one who needs to fight for my love
The one who needs to be patient enough to face all of me
The one who needs to break the wall
That one person
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:20 AM UTC
I might envy all those couples on the street
I might be jealous of those sweet scenes in the movies
I might want all those kisses and hugs to accompany at nights
I might be lonely and desperate to have a little sweet love
But stop telling me to find one
Stop saying to me to open my heart
Because I wont
At least not now
When I still need to fix myself
When I still am a mess
When I still have this trust issue buried so deep
When the more I live, the more I become skeptical about human
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:19 AM UTC
I don’t want to get married
Just because I feel like it’s the time
I don’t want to get married
Just because people tell me I need to
I don’t want to get married
Just because I’m in my 30s and still single
I don’t want to get married
Just because I’ve been dating him for years
I don’t want to get married
When it’s my brain that speaks, not my heart
I want to get married
when I finally meet the one
The one who can make me fall so deep
The one who gives the love that consumes me
The one whom I can’t imagine to live without
The one who makes me think
That I want to get married
Because it is him
That’s how much of a hopeless romantic I am
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:18 AM UTC
I don’t write beautifully
I don’t even know how to write
I don’t even understand beauty
But I am in love and in pain
So who cares I cannot write
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:17 AM UTC
A few sleepless nights ago
I was embraced by
nothingness
Indulged and caged
With nothing but a dull sentiment
I was not hurt
I was not pained
I was simply distant
With no reasons
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 6:15 AM UTC
I will fight
the universe
and even God
If they
ever try
to write
another chapter
of me
and
you
Dec 18, 2019
Dec 18, 2019 at 9:48 PM UTC