I hate, detest and loathe when I boldly said No
And my body defied me and gave him the go ahead...
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 12:13 PM UTC
Here I am at this adult stage
Step by step flipping a new page
Dare to wish I was caught in a cage
The life I have lived ain't fair
Cos I never got my fair share
Fooled myself that I didn't care
Seconds, minuetes, hours, days, weeks, months, years even decades has passed
After each heartbeat I wish I had asked
I have been told lies
Each time tears filled my eyes
I have been told that weak is she who cries
Deep inside my heart silently I could cry
Sep 26, 2019
Sep 26, 2019 at 4:04 PM UTC
I look through your eyes and I see our future
I see our love
I see our goals and aspirations come into life
Then reality hits me hard like my bottle of chapel sweet red wine crushing the floor
That our love is "non licet"
Against societies expectations
Against family beliefs
Beliefs that have been sown into my magnificent brain
**** that!
I broke the barriers
I don't live up to meritocratic expectations
I live for love
You are my love
I love you
Our energies coincide with one another
You are my "forbidden" soul mate
Just as these words flow
So does my love for you
Meu rei
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 6:22 AM UTC
Everytime I think of relationships my soul dents
We are stuck in societies where boys' glistening hormonal hunger are mistaken for love
Where is the passion?
These days men have gone through underground classes about how to lure women into believing that it is all about love meanwhile their plan is to only get in between women's legs so that their ego is enhanced
He tells you how beautiful you are and gives you a full description of how you make his heart beat fast and his palms sweat
He tells you that only you complete him fully
And asks to meet up with him not even on a proper date like in the days of our parents
You go to his place and the setting screams : Pleasure!
He whispers all sweet nothings into your ears that excites your body and you believe that he truly loves you
Before you know he has gotten what he wanted and wants to get rid of you as soon as possible
The next few days he ignores you and texts you the next time he "misses" you
He types a long paragraph narrating how busy he has been and you fall for it again because of the effort he took to type a long *** raudy paragraph
Where is the passion?
Men no longer send you notes that circulated around the class when you were in 7th grade that read : " You look beautiful as the sky" " Yellow makes your eyes pop" " Mom taught me how to make lemonade I thought you'd love some" "I love you, yes or no"
They no longer secretly protect you from the bullies that always made fun of you in high school down the hall
They no longer want to know what your favorite book is and why
They do not pick flowers from Mrs A's garden to present to you
They don't make jokes about relevant matters
All they know is ****** jokes that downgrade your value as a woman
Men don't want to hear all about your day and the conversations you've had with your girls or the argument you had with your mother
They are all about your paradise
When they look at you they uncover and undress you in their minds
They measure the size of your ***** and behind
Where is the passion?
That boy from next door who always came over to study with you because he knows you need help with maths
That boy that your parents always saw as your elder brother who protects you from evil creatures
That boy that your dad would allow to take you to the movies because he is well behaved and has only blown a kiss to you
That young man who respects you and your values and is concerned with how you will achieve all your dreams
Where are all these boys who are now handsome men
Show yourself for we are exhausted of all these boys that are dressed in men's cloaks...
Young lady I urge you to rise up
Open your eyes and stand your ground
You are worth more than cliché pickup lines from the internet
You are a well crafted diamond
Have high standards that not just any man can approach you
Do not be loose
Your are the carrier of life
Make it clear that you do not entertain hormonal boys
You desire a man that will build an empire with you and raise your family with you in due time when you have achieved most of your dreams and his too
You are that backbone of this earth
Know your worth and do away with mediocre.
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 5:36 PM UTC
It is really my fault.
I let my emotions swim through all this.
I should have kept quiet.
I shouldn't have thought about it.
I tried convincing my heart that there's nothing more to this relation, but no my heart coincided with my mind and breathed out hope, hope that maybe just one day things will change we would be comfortable with being each others.
Seeing that we both know how the other is.
And everything will fall into place.
I always knew that it would not work, but my heart.
It saddens me that I'm divided into three and two, two overpower me they cloud my reasoning and judgement.
I really hope that things go back to normal.
That the balance remains.
Being emotional really *****
There's no shallowness at least if it were present I would be laughing my *** out about this now, but no.
I won't lie.
I am actually hurt.
It is slowing sinking in that we want different things.
We view this differently.
Maybe if I was still younger I would consider this whole friends with benefts thing.
I am older now.
I can't settle for such an arrangement. I get attached easily.
I won't manage.
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 9:40 AM UTC
"But I took your heart
and soul so you can't run
no matter how u try
I made a mark
I'm not easily replaceable."
May 7, 2017
May 7, 2017 at 3:51 PM UTC
Passion.
Not casualty.
Or Meaning less kisses.
Only soul connecting kisses cos the heart connects to everything. All the pain and misery.
But souls don't.
Connect with my soul.
All I want is for
Our souls to dance to angelic rhythm...
Be my true soul mate.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 1:38 PM UTC
I feel filthy
My mind has seen and thought of unspeakable lust
I continuously opened the door of my Paradise
Great fear has tiptoed into my wellbeing-wounded heart
The fear of being touched
Kissed
And made love to
Is overwhelming
All the excitement died
And I feel filthy
Save me from this misery my love
Nothing else could ever fix my dented soul
The blood is flooding my chest
My intercoastal muscles have been weakened
Be my surgeon
Love
Glossy eyes makes me blind
Jan 19, 2017
Jan 19, 2017 at 12:05 PM UTC
I'm really alone this time around
I've pushed him furthermore
Even though I told him to move on
I didn't think he would this fast
He hasn't texted me yet
I really am all alone this time
There are people around yet I'm all by myself
He made me lively even when he lives miles away from me
Knowing that I am his kept me alive
I'm not saying I will bite the dust
But he kept me breathing
He told me about his new girlfriend
We've only been separated for a few weeks after 530 days
He moved on
Nothing could ever fix a dented soul
If this is love I don't want it again
Jan 7, 2017
Jan 7, 2017 at 1:24 PM UTC
Remember that you are the root of your own heart ache, he said.
I looked at him and believed him because that’s all I’ve ever done since we’ve been together.
And now after a year five months we split. And he tells me that I have been helping her heal since May this year.
I honestly thought we could fix it, but that’s pretty ****** up.
I have only ever been honest with him…
I guess I really messed up for telling him that I felt something when I hugged one of my past flings.
And he jumped and called me names. Pushed me to leave him.
I couldn’t sleep, like now.
I woke up in the morning crying.
I wanted him back.
I love him insanely, but he told me about the since May girl and I feel drained.
I can’t keep up…
I mean he is obviously gonna have to always help her heal by telling her he is hers.
So much for being related…
I don’t even know whether what I’ve just typed makes sense.
Dec 25, 2016
Dec 25, 2016 at 3:23 PM UTC