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“Feelings From The Mother Of A Preemie”*One day so long ago it seems I fell in love with you, the best dream out of all my dreams was finally coming true. The months crept by so slow, I thought they'd never end, Motherhood, so much to know, a new life to defend. Six weeks early my time came, and there was so much pain, but I disregarded it, I had so much to gain. I laid there as they worked on me, and I was scared as hell, I hadn't heard my daughter cry, just why I couldn't tell. They wouldn't let me see her, they didn't tell me why, I was behind the eight ball, and i felt like I could cry. They finally let me see her, but not till the next day. She was so tiny, delicate and cute in every way. The first day that I held her, was the best day of my life, but when I had to put her down, it sure cut like a knife. The day I left the hospital a sunny day in May, but I was not so bright inside, my sweetheart had to stay. And now I feel lost at home my nerves on edge and jittery, I sit and hold her teddy bear, and cry to bitterly. I go and see her everyday, but it does not seem fair. I have to walk out every night and leave my baby there.*
“Second Blessing”*Not long after your sister was born, Angie I learned that I was gonna have you. The only thing better than one little baby, was the fact that I'd soon have two. I love you so much, you are both so sweet, with your pretty blue eyes, and your small hands and feet. Brittany with blond hair, and Angie with Brown, mommy finds it so hard to put either of you down. But sometimes I have to, I have only two hands, and life always hands you a lot of demands. I wish I could hold you, we'd cuddle all day, we'd laugh, and we'd talk, and be happy and play. But mommy wants you to be sure and know, I love you both so much. When I hold you in my arms, it's my heart that you actually touch....*