angela-baerthel
40/F/Everywhere
Shes classy. .but a little off. / Shes been writing for over 25 years. She dreams deep in to other dimensions and speaks to ones who have passed or ones who teach a lesson. Or just to laugh. She uses her cards to help others along their path..
You're the one who saw me through all the good
and most of the bad.
A summer's rain. A winter's kiss.
All of these things I would never miss.
You're the one who held my hand.
Through the times I laughed.
Times I've cried and all the times I thought I would have died.
Your smile makes me wonder. But then again you also bring the thunder.
My love for you is forever and true.
So please baby I hope you are never blue.
I stand with you as our lives go on.
A spring time love. An autumn hug.
As you fall to sleep.
I'll be within your dreams,
And remember I'm here to please.
Have no fear. I'll always be near.
I know you have the cure.
To love you is grand.
I will always be your number one fan!
Feb 15, 2020
Feb 15, 2020 at 7:04 PM UTC
Just one sip.
The taste on my lips.
Just make it quick.
Don't make yourself tip.
Just one ****
Make a joke.
Just say nope.
I've got hope
I'm no dope.
I've learned how to cope.
Dec 15, 2018
Dec 15, 2018 at 10:47 PM UTC
Everyday she wakes with a broken heart.
Everyday from the very start.
Everyday she lays awake.
Everyday she wonders why?
Everyday she cries.
Everyday she tries.
Everyday she says goodbye.
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 7:51 PM UTC
I asked if i could kiss your lips.
You reply no thank you I'm good.
There went my heart.....rips.
You kissed me before.
You touched me before.
You made love to me before.
Now no more.
I stare at the floor.
I look at the door.
I hurt to my core.
If I would have know.
If I just let you go.
If I ..If I...If....
Oh how I long for a kiss...bliss
Nov 11, 2018
Nov 11, 2018 at 12:59 AM UTC
Today..I'm not fading away.
Today..I am ok.
No tears rolling down my face.
No sad thoughts running through my brain.
Oh..come on who am i kidding.
My ups and downs and rapid cycling of emotions are terrifiing.
Smile on my lips.
SCREAMING
LAUGHING
CRYING
Inside...
Today my mind is making up stories that are not real...or maybe they are.
I am too far gone.
Singing to my self some songs.
Oh well...so long..
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
I am not beautiful.
I am not careful.
I am not hopeful.
I am doubtful.
I am comfortable.
fully aware ......
But who cares.
Its still me and all this I must bare.
I am hurting
I am sad
I feel like a small speck among other specks.
But as the adage goes.
"It is what it is"
I am greatful.
I am thankful.
I am wonderful.
Because I need to become.
I need to push through.
Although I do not want to.
I will keep walking.
I will keep my head down.
I will not open up to anyone or anything or give it my all again.
It's sad.
But I am glad.
Fading out fast....
Of course built to last.
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 5:23 AM UTC
She fights every day to get out of bed.
She fights each day with the demons in her head.
Looking back she's glad to to see how far her lessons have lead.
But still fighting to get ahead.
Let go of the past.
Let it go..let it go.
She tries.
But something always stops her and says no!
I just don't know.
One day i will see..
One day i will be finally free. ..
Mar 22, 2018
Mar 22, 2018 at 6:40 AM UTC
I miss..
Fingers through my hair..maybe even a little tug or two.
A soft caress across my face.
Lips upon mine..a fun war of the tongues.
Light brushs quickly on my chest.
Gently rub my behind and thighs.
Finding hot spot.
Pushing for that high.
Loving myself is grand.
Cuddling with my fuzzy pillow.
Pretending I'm not all alone.
Yes i can love me.
But I would rather let someone else
Share it with me.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 11:51 PM UTC
I fell too fast.
Although from the beginning it was not going to last.
I reached out my hand.
Hoping you would grab on.
But left to just stand.
Alone once again.
You tell me sweet words.
But they really mean nothing.
You take me on dates..but its all just fake.
You Have work out of town.
But you don't call or text.
You let me fall.
And all I have is your word when you come home.
Deep down I know..but you make me feel like its all in my head.
Time to be strong.
Time to say no more.
Id rather be just with me.
For I hold that key.
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 9:38 AM UTC
It's 5am again.
I wake alone..but glad to sorta
I lay awake.
Either til 7am Or my little one comes to hug me.
They are learning to get ready on their own and be independent.
8am the bus stops and pulls away.
Back to my bed I lay .
Stay til the mail comes at 10 or 10:30..depending on the day.
Go to check it for any good news.
Again I lay.
Have i eaten yet?
I don't remember.
Its noon..I better get some grub in me.
So I don't fade away.
Let the dog out again.
Once more I lay.
Til four..Thats when my babies come home.
I make snack..dinner and talk to them about their day.
Wishing all these feelings were not in my way.
Wishing I could get back the hearing loss and it would stay.
Wishing the government would not take so long to tell me yes, you will get paid.
8 pm..Again I lay.
Closing my eyes to live this same day.
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 9:22 AM UTC