Underneath the floorboards, right around the corner
There's a devil in my house, he revels in disorder
A sordid merchant peddling portents as false as they're spun
Muttering curses, convinced I am worthless by his serpent tongue
Wicked words flickering like lantern light, my eyes and ears deceived
There's a devil in my house and he will not let me leave
Windows boarded up by memories, what sights I see bring little piece
A leather noose, an iron roulette; I'm tortured by tools of forfeit
There's a devil in my house and he'd sooner **** me than let me forget
There's a devil in my house with nothing more of me left
Feb 9, 2024
Feb 9, 2024 at 4:19 PM UTC
The lighting was dim
Blue and purple flickers of them
And she's got him writing again
Fighting against the lion within
Thought he triumphed but she isn't convinced
Writing again, writing against time and my
Highest of sins, lied while spitting sighs
Under my breath like thunder she crumpled again
Again but against missing, fistful of quarters
I've been wishing i can fix this with kissing
Bed making and hand holding and stove cooking
She loved again and I was against infinites
Two years late to a wedding picture by a kitchenette
Two years too late, too sorry, too much to forgive
I'm writing again. Fighting against who I have been
So you can look me in the eye and say you love me again
Oct 24, 2021
Oct 24, 2021 at 11:18 AM UTC
She believed in us
I believed in time
Ours like diamonds and mines
Her's now lost for me to find
The look she once gave me, a distant memory
Missing histories she pieced together to better remember me
Or better to bury, scary to think forever might never be
Open mouth stare as I bare it all for her to see
Star crossed, arms crossed, heart tossing and turning at sea
Has she heard this before?
Maybe the statement but not the cadence
Every word faced with shame in its placement
I'm back again, a villain tragic, a magician rabbitless
No tricks, no sleeves, only a quarter fits between these teeth
No lie spit, no sigh sent down only my love at your feet
No rhyme or reason for treason, please know I mean it
I meant but this time I mean it with more conviction
I'll pay for my sins with each sentence, wishing for an ending
"What perfect ending we'd be" How imperfect that church is
Let me rebuild it again, my consistence the foundation
A new cathedral for us to sing in.
I believe in us
Maybe she'll give it time
Oct 13, 2021
Oct 13, 2021 at 8:35 PM UTC
Heavy is the head that could fill up a tome
Memories turn bitter, tormented to hold
Crown ornamented with glitter and gold
Riddled with scolding cinders and coal
Meant for winter to temper the cold
Tinder, I'm told, burns like whispers of home
A whisper I've known, You've been missing
I know.
Sep 20, 2021
Sep 20, 2021 at 2:46 AM UTC
They always think they can.
Distortions sold in a fortune cookie
I am a fortunate man.
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 5:05 PM UTC
Lost in the garden
Leaves loosened from the branches
Nothing sacred but the trees
And the light through your lashes
Dec 11, 2019
Dec 11, 2019 at 7:26 PM UTC
No one will ever love you like me
And that's for the best
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 4:42 PM UTC
Love.
A dangerous, cantankerous thing. No anchor is made for this
Pen and paper blamed for it, if I had a name for it
If I had a name for it, then I would be a slave for it
She said that I scoff too often
That I'm often too lost in the moment
The moment we first met, she smelled like a poem. Like loose leaves in the fall.
She had me falling like a paper plane with clipped wings
Winging it onstage because I reached the spotlight and forgot all my lines
She said it was fine. She never liked my acting anyway
She said if she wanted to date a phony, she would have gone for Oscar or Tony
If she wanted a Golden Globe she wouldn't have settled for a Lemonhead
She said I'm too sweet. That my lips look like strawberry fields and my kisses taste like forever. Yeah, she's a Beatles fan.
I was more of a fan of needles. On a syringe binge, she was my heroine in a red dress
I wanted her address to correspond with where my head rested
I wanted to take the rings from my eyes and wrap them around her finger so she would know she was the reason I couldn’t sleep at night
She said I was her knight in shining armor. Like a page from a fairy tale
Love.
If I had a name for it, maybe I could’ve changed for it
Played the game a different way and kept
her away from it
Her laughter was supposed to be my happily ever after. But it was stifled by heaven's rifleman
Like lightning striking twice and thunder had the audacity to applaud
She said I'm going home. I'm going back to God.
She said that this was the plan all along and if I'm ever longing for her face then I need to face the facts, retrace our steps and reenact for a friend. This isn't the end.
This is just a long-lost friend coming back to visit, isn’t it?
Cold hands gripping getting wet. Blurred vision, can I see her yet?
Timid lemonhead pressed against her wilting smile
She asked what were the first lines I remember writing about her…
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Every road has led me to you
She said that I scoff too often
That I'm often too lost in the moment to know when she's gone
The moment she left. She smelled like a poem. Like loose leaves in the fall
I'm falling from cloud nine, the wind constantly reminding me that she was never mine
And if she was His the whole time, she should have told me. Because now…
Now I have no one to hold me when I drop
No one to scold me when I scoff
No one to write a poem about when I'm lost
If I had a name for it, my mother would tell me
to pray for it. Ain’t that a shame that I am to blame for it?
What’s in a name but a home and a place to grow?
Every passing season gives me a reason too...
Spring showers, summer sun, and winter cold
Hold my name in contempt and place the blame
...she smelled like a poem. Like lost leaves when she fell for me.
Love.
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 11:50 AM UTC
Feathers and wax across my back like a cheap crucifixion
I'm used to drifting too close to a euphemism
My youth is missing. Is That you I'm missing?
Call a truce so I can get used to living
You have this fool's permission to choose to listen
The cruelest mission, begging you to forget what you have witnessed
Undue retention, how to undo the tension
Between two tendons I never thought to mention
How I'm lost in a pit with crimson pitch and
A godless pen. How odd is this fiction if we've lived it?
Jan 6, 2018
Jan 6, 2018 at 11:30 AM UTC