you were the photographer
that never photographed me.
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 8:29 PM UTC
BANG!
Cries the Cymbals!
CLASH!
Screams the winds!
the show is beginning
and the characters shall sing!
There!
says the audience!
listen!
cries the narrator!
the foreshadowing melodies
must be remembered for later!
listen close
listen carefully,
for behold the characters pain
is about to be told.
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 7:47 PM UTC
I love watching
your playlist stir
from songs about me,
to songs about her.
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 8:57 AM UTC
why is screenshotting everything you do obsessive?
i'm keeping tabs.
checking up.
watch how much of an idiot you're being with her
and keeping the evidence.
I'm most certainly not jealous.
I just like to giggle
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 1:30 AM UTC
I am your unreliable source,
your monster under the bed.
but this monster
has never been happier.
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 6:24 AM UTC
ago, i left you
after the pain
agony
torment
you put me through.
730 days later
and you found a new victim,
someone else to play happy families with.
730 days ago, I finally took a breath
saw the life i could live
without you being a weight on my shoulder.
call me selfish
call me cruel
but nothing was as cruel
as you lying straight to my face
that i truly mattered to you
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 12:15 AM UTC
you loved me
like your favourite song
on your favourite side.
played over and over
again and again
repeat after repeat.
the cassette became worn
the vinyl became scratched
no needle or player could fix it.
the song distorted
taken out of proportion
but you blame it on the cassette.
you threw it out
like a broken toy
and purchased a new one.
but the song could never be the same
as the song played
on cassette side 1.
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 10:34 PM UTC
fire.
water.
a burning Forrest.
a drowning ship.
Forward to time past,
the fury roars in you.
you love her but do you?
you moved on but have you?
a sketchy situation.
a hot mess.
I stand in the ashes
from 2 years of time.
2 can play at that game.
maroon is linked to anger.
like the burning room.
blocked.
shut out.
how am i supposed to be aggravated if i cannot see?
i have questions,
set in stone.
pieces.
honestly.
am i the monster in your words?
the ghost that haunts?
when you look at her do you see me?
does it stab like a thousand knives?
a thousand bees stinging?
a girl.
drowning.
i have left the chat.
closed the door and locked it all away.
moved out.
my shadow still lingers.
do you?
hesitate.
blink twice.
remember.
call me an unreliable source
so i am the monster,
lurking your every move.
hug her and think of me.
for i am forever your monster under the bed.
Mar 21, 2019
Mar 21, 2019 at 11:44 PM UTC
I look at the time and my heart beats faster,
tonight i do something that i don't want to do.
I've dreamed for years of a happy ever after;
my firsts and lasts planned in complexities.
tonight i lose my first to a stage,
where i wouldn't first with him but my character will.
I must pretend to be her, the girl who rides in Grease Lightning with the all famous T-Bird.
Tonight i lose my first to a stage,
and i wish it was another
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 7:34 PM UTC
1 hour
Had passed and all I felt was pain.
The realisation had not yet removed the stain.
1 day
Had passed and I felt free.
Nothing could stop me from being me.
1 week
Had passed and you tried getting me back.
The slashes, cuts, and words could never draw me back.
1 month
Had passed and I felt more pain.
The scars you left were never going away.
1 year
Had passed and I could never forget
The day I told you the end.
Almost 2 years
Have passed and now I think
Maybe you moved on and I'm still wearing pink.
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 7:43 AM UTC