"goodbye for now."
goodbye is a funny word
for it has no time limit
of permanent
or temporary.
i knew i could handle this.
three weeks isn't that long
and i've been through worse.
but it's the little moments that make me miss you even more.
i miss you when we finish playing and i am left waiting for the page to turn.
i miss you when i instinctively turn around to see if i'm ahead of you in spanish.
i miss you when sammy complains about not being able to see the board and i don't hear someone else going "same" and throwing up sarcastic peace signs.
i miss you when your name goes on the board for missing another quiz.
i miss you whenever someone mentions how cute their dog is.
i miss you when i accidentally open your locker instead of vio's, and i am left staring at the ghost of an empty shell of a person.
it's the little things that make your heart ache a little more.
- a.g.
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 3:52 PM UTC
beauty is what she craves to find
when she searches the mirror for an answer.
and an empty answer always requires
a need for one
she tells me now that those happy pictures were empty smiles of self hatred and pain.
she says how this is how it has been.
i think of all the nights where i cried over my troubles.
i think of all the nights she was probably suffering along with me.
if i could see what she was thinking when i asked if her day was okay,
there would be essays of
no
no
no.
- a.g.
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 3:37 PM UTC
“table for five please!”
long ago,
life was simple.
we were happy
and everything was happy
and life was good.
but nothing is forever.
and we could not remain this way.
“table for four please!”
not that quite long ago,
we were alright
and everything was okay
and life was decent.
we were incomplete.
but still doing
just
fine.
now,
we are not at our best.
and nothing seems to be working out.
and life isn’t all too great.
but it will be okay.
as i know, everyday,
we continue to yearn
for that table of five.
but for now
i guess we can make some new memories
and hopefully feel happy
once again,
with this table for three.
Jul 11, 2019
Jul 11, 2019 at 5:30 AM UTC
wow i haven’t been on this site in 5ever but i’m reading my old poems and why was so emo man like i’m pretty sure my life wasn’t even this bad what.
Jul 11, 2019
Jul 11, 2019 at 5:21 AM UTC
what up it’s your m.i.a girl back it again
bc i’m feeling very overwhelmed and don’t know what to do
:/
i need to stop panicking about the future because i saw something that said worrying about something that won’t happen is just putting you through that worrying twice and it’s not healthy
but guess what i’m still doing it anyways yeet
sorry i need help thanks for sticking around till the end and honestly at this point just message me like hey how ya doin
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 11:01 PM UTC
a whispered secret
a knowing glance
a random laugh
a hidden joke
i know i wasn’t there
but i swear it wasn’t my fault
so please stop making me feel
so freaking left out.
i’d rather be with you
and i know it doesn’t seem like much
but
a shaky streaks
a liked photo
a viral tweet
a funny video
thanks for giving me a reason
to give in to all this fomo.
Apr 15, 2019
Apr 15, 2019 at 10:58 PM UTC
love it when the universe keeps destroying my will to live
also not really a poem #2 has officially been proven wrong
10/10 recommend that feeling of not being at your 100% so your friends get bored of you and leave you
- a.g.
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 6:54 AM UTC
i’m actually kind of okay right now and i hope this feeling lasts.
- a.g.
Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
i need a reason to believe my
"friends"
haven't given up on me.
i need a reason to understand why i am so unlikable
i need a reason to know why i'm always the last pick
with better
kinder
prettier
people always climbing over me.
i need a reason to understand where my qualifications for being considered "worth it"
went wrong.
i need a reason for the endless feelings of loneliness and isolation.
i need some solid substantial evidence that can help explain why the second i start trusting someone
they seem to forget about me.
is this paranoia?
is this a normal situation my mind is altering?
is this reality?
is this the way it has to be?
with being last and being left out and simply not being enough to be
included?
if this is the way it is going to be,
please just give me a reason why.
- a.g.
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 6:21 PM UTC
i've been feeling too many feelings lately and most of the time when that happens i end up writing something but i can't think of anything that could possible convey the chaos i'm feeling right now.
- a.g.
Nov 1, 2018
Nov 1, 2018 at 8:50 PM UTC