Come here baby
You know the drill
Come closer
Sense the beat
Smell the mix of trees
Now
Take a peek through
The windows of my soul
Stare at me
Like the stars stare at you
When I ask them at night
And tell me what you see
Please don’t tell me
You love the light
More than the darkness
Nor the darkness
More than the light
Please don’t tell me
You expected only nice
Without a little spice
Keep looking baby
What do you see?
In the midst of the fire and chaos
Can you see the true me?
Nov 16, 2020
Nov 16, 2020 at 9:37 PM UTC
i knew this day would come
but i didn't know it would come so fast
the day when we would have to
challenge all that we'd learned
the day when it would get
cloudy and cold
I knew we would have to face
the old wounds and fears
but i didn't know which ones
i wasn't ready
but are we ever?
this place feels familiar
from another life maybe
i remember the setting
i remember the feeling
but i keep forgetting the ending
Mar 1, 2020
Mar 1, 2020 at 9:13 AM UTC
Here I am
As close to the ground
As I’ve been in the longest of times
I can taste the dirt
muddier than the day before
I can smell the earth
I can see the brown intertwined
With the green and a flower
Here and there
Here I am
Listening with my eyes closed
And arms wide open
to the music
I could almost call it noise
But in between each note
If i pay close attention
i hear a bird chirp
Here and there
Laying low
Grounding
Back to my roots
Back to my home
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 7:46 PM UTC
hi there, old friend. how long has it been? quite a while.
you look whiter and clearer, like you haven't missed me writing thoughts on top of you.
but i thought i'd come by and say hello, for old time's sake.
i haven't felt like writing in a long time. some call it writer's block. i don't know what i call it, but words seem to be stuck inside of me, sort of sleeping. without them wanting to be disturbed. it happens once in a while. the words cling to my heart and beg me not to let them out. but when i do... you know what happens when i do.
and you're always there to welcome them with a smile or a hug into their new home. they're never out of a home. they are born in the deepest layer of me, migrate to the outer ones and eventually make their way to you. and even though, they don't know they'll be safe in each place, they always are. you are always open and so embracing and so warm.
now let's cut right to the chase.
today i woke up thinking about how i should've wrote something for the new year. but i didn't. again... like i said, the words didn't want to be disturbed yet. however, today, they wanted to come out and play. it's like they have their own timezone. plans of their own. and today was the day.
i kept thinking how much i hurt this past year, but also how much i healed. it is amazing how much i learned in such a short period of time. it even feels unrealistic. like a lifetime flew by. i feel like i am a completely different person now. a reincarnation of myself. can you sense me as i write? do i seem different to you? i guess you went through a lot of what i learned during that time with me, you walked with me through every step. you held my fingers when i was the loneliest. you hugged my heart and soul. and well, you even taught me a few things.
i learned to forgive, without ever getting an apology. time and time again. didn’t i, old friend? and to trust that i am aways being guided, mostly by the moon... oh how i miss the moon! i remember sitting outside my balcony just looking at her, SO perfect, any given night. with no make up on. with no intention to fake it. she taught me to love. she taught me to cry. she taught me to breathe and to scream the **** out of my lounges. once in a while i peek a glance at her, but lately i've been more impressed with sunsets. the moon feels a little further away now. why do you think that is? i don't know... maybe i'll ask her some time.
i also moved three times. now look at me... i am so far away, from where i used to be. yet, i am closer to where i've always wanted to. still, this place doesn't feel like home. it feels foreign, like im just adventuring around. maybe that's how i felt when i first met my old home. doesn't feel right to call it "old home"... i don't know... maybe i should give this place a chance. but isn't it weird how after all this months i still feel like a tourist here? how i already know how to go from north to south and east to west without a map and i still feel lost? funny. maybe i shouldn't try to make a home out of every city i move to. maybe it's true that home is where the heart is... but isn't mine attached to my body?
anyways... im feeling hopeful for this new year. i love this word. hopeful. hope full. full of hope. hope is such a nice thing to carry around, isn't it old friend? hope for better days, hope to try new things, hope that everything will turn out just as it should. just as it always has. just as it always does. hope is trust. and trust is the most amazing thing this past year gave me. i trust the process. i even love it. what an amazing world. a place to trust. to love. to hope...
thanks again for listening. i hope to visit you more often now that i remember how good it feels to let it all out in your blank spaces. to let you hold my fingers as the words crawl out of my heart to finally find you and call you home. to fill you with little bits of me. we are meant to be together, you and me. me completing your voids, you, embracing my excesses away. thanks for always being there old friend. i'll see you soon. this time it’s a promise. and i’ll keep my word. just trust me.
Jan 8, 2020
Jan 8, 2020 at 1:52 PM UTC
Oh moonchild
Yes, you.
You know I can’t
stop thinking about you
Those eyes are stuck
Inside of my rebellious soul
When there’s light
I live for the wait
And at night you remember
It’s never too late
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 4:52 PM UTC
make me your stranger
i'll be whatever you want
as long as I get to listen to
my favorite laugh
make me your neighbor
i'll even be that
as long as I get to grasp you
giving me that piercing glance
being far away from you is danger
i can't take it too long
my body's your paper
so take a pen and come write me down
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 4:51 PM UTC
you shed memories
like a snake
out of instinct
you pack and go
without much thought
without a care in the world
you throw away all that we were
all that we dreamed
all that we lived
yet here I am
picking up
all that you shed
all that you packed
all that you threw away
and I hug it hard
and I hug it close
while I fight not to
lose my mind
as I see you go
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 4:28 PM UTC
I can’t tell if I was day dreaming
Or if my judgement was just clouded
You looked as good as ever
As fierce as always
I don’t know if I was out of my nightmare
Or if you became my night savior
You were as gentle as always
But you brought more trouble than ever
What I do know
Is that I had never felt so alive
Like I did yesterday
Baby you are my fire and chaos
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 4:53 PM UTC
Look
They were there all along
Warning you
To run as fast
And hide as best
As you possibly could
But you ignored them
You turned you face away
Pretended
They didn’t exist
And denied
That side of the picture
Next time
Look closer
Listen more carefully
The signs are always there
You just have to stash
The stubborn blindfold away
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 12:46 AM UTC
Some nights I still cry about you
I let the tears fall down my cheeks
Like a creek they travel to my heart
And flood it with thoughts of you
Some nights I still talk about you
In silence I whisper to the moon
Who patiently waits for me
to fall asleep after a bottle or two
Nov 20, 2018
Nov 20, 2018 at 4:59 PM UTC