You’ve taught me that
Unconditional love is more of a curse
Than a blessing
Because every part of me screams
To never forgive you
But I’m still a girl who needs her dad
And my heart will always long for you
But I can’t help to think how
You caused us such agony
When you left a loving family
For someone you just met
& it makes my heart break
To think the love I have for you
Feels as if it’s overdue
Because if you loved me
as much as I loved you
Leaving us would never be an option
& I can’t Help but feel
As if it was a personal blow when
Said you didn't love us anymore
And you left without ever turning back
And I saw no hesitation in your step
When you chose between us or them
But the worst of all was that
I not only lost my dad but
I lost my mother as well
Because I didn’t recognize her anymore
And I couldn’t bear to see
Her deteriorating
Always stuck in bed
Unable to get up
Or complete the simplest tasks
And I feel guilty
For hating her for it
For making me comfort her
When all I wanted to be
was held
And I won't ever forgive you
For all you've put us through;
For filling me with hate
When I saw my mom in such a state
So bruised that she called a hotel her home
For a whole month in fear
Of being seen by her family
And once again I hated her
For leaving me behind
And for wanting to protect you
So no one will know
The person you’ve become
I’ve watched my little sister cry
And beg for her dad to come home
And it truly made me sick to know
Those begs feel on empty ears
Every time you came to visit
Yet you still had the audacity to say
You were sorry
And I watched you beg us on your knees for forgiveness
That day you swore to the moon and back
That you were finally coming home
Even that night you had me fooled as
We welcomed you back with open arms
And it was the first time in weeks
I felt as if we were complete
Only for you to turn around and leave
Before we had the chance to wake up
And tell you good morning
My sister cried so hard that day
Running through the house
Asking about your whereabouts
Little did we know it wasn’t the last time you would deceive us
Living with a secret lover and child
Unable to decide
Which of us you loved more
To betray the other for
But I knew we were longing for a dad
That we had already lost
So all those half assed sorrys
Will never be accepted
Because you only came back
When she left you
And I resent my mother for
Never being strong enough
To be the first to let go
Because you made us go through ****
We never asked for
And begging for forgiveness in the middle of the night
Once you realized you were finally alone
Wouldn’t break me this time
But screaming and pounding on our windows
To let you in
Or you'll **** yourself
Only made it hurt more
And when my mom opened that door
To tell you to leave
And stop causing a scene
All you could do was scream
That you were going to commit suicide
At that moment
I didn't feel a thing
I saw you grab the gasoline
And chug it down
My mom shoving her fingers down your throat
Screaming for help
And I just remember standing there
Not saying a word
I don't remember being sad
I can't imagine why
May 27, 2014
May 27, 2014 at 9:10 PM UTC
My heart strings
Are in tune
With the rymthic melody
Of your talk
That even if I don't want
To think of you
My heart still beats
Coexistly to you
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 12:53 PM UTC
You feel like
Warm sweaters on a windy day
Like hot chocolate on snowy nights
Like sunshine on a picnic
Like blooming flowers in May
And like presents when I least except it
But you also feel like rainy days when I have plans
Like favorite shoes that no longer fit
Like messy hair on picture day
Like long and lonely summer nights
And like broken promise from the closest friends
But honestly through every way you feel
I'll always want you hanging around
Because I just can't let go
Of the one I know I love
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 12:37 AM UTC
Your fingertips traced every curve of my body
Gently caressing me
As if I were you were scared
That I would break
It almost hurt when
You pulled your hand away
because you made me love every part of me
That I hated
Just by feeling
Your lingering touch
In certain spots
That still radiated through my body
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 12:28 AM UTC
Look how far we've come along
When talking is substituted
With new found technology
When the animals who feed us
Are slaughtered inhumanly
For a cheap source of food
When the forest that host
The last animals alive
Are being cut down
When the oil that is made
Through thousands of years
Are ****** dry in a matter of days
When morals no longer come into play
And we turn on each other
For a couple of bills
When every one is judged
By the place they grew up
As if they had a choice
When moms and dad's
No longer have a living
Because they've been fired
And forced out of their homes
When we send out troops
And **** our men
So they can fight over
What's not even ours
When books are no longer read
And poems no longer recited
Because kids these days
Do not appreciate intelligence
When the city is so busy
Beauty is overlooked
And when smiles are no longer smiled
And laughs no longer laughed
Because kids are growing up to fast
Look how far we've come along
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
I'll never
Get tired of hearing your
I love you's.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 11:17 PM UTC
It feels as if you've taken my
Air as hostage
Keeping it from me
And hiding it somewhere secret
Im gasping for breath
And begging you
To let me Fill my lungs
with the sweetness Of oxygen
That seems like a rare delicacy
When withheld from me
For so long
You've got me wishing
you would lean over
Place your lips on mine
And give me the breath of life
But in reality
All you're depriving me of
Is your love
May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 7:48 PM UTC
Please don't force yourself
To talk to me
When you clearly do not want to
Silence would be better
Instead of hearing you
Make yourself speak to me
I'm not easily deceived
I can see
The way your words
Betray you
This conversation is to stressed
May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 7:05 PM UTC
We are so good together
So loving
So sweet
You've made me carefree
And happy to be me
Your whole demeener is so tantalizing
I can't help but just stare
Whenever we're together
We've gotten so close that
no one else means to me
As much as you do now
And I cant believe I'm saying this
But I've gotten sprung
And I've fallen in love
With a boy with cute eyes
Who never leaves
With out giving me a kiss
goodbye
You make me
look forward to every tomorrow
Knowing I'll get to be in your arms once more
You wash away all my sorrows
With just flashing a smile
I feel as if I could scream and shout
To the heavens above
To thank The Lord
For giving me someone to love
But when you turned around
And left today
All while slamming the door behind
I couldnt help but feel
That nothing was alright
And think
That all this was coming to an end
Because that smirk you gave me at the end?
Was filled with so much ridicule
It made me all at once forget
Your tender touch
And your lovin care
It made it seen as if you didn't care
So please, reassure me
Tell me once more that you love me
And that it'll be alright
Since It was just a silly fight
Because honestly
the thought of you actually leaving
Is to much for my fragile heart
And I'm not to proud to say
That with out you
The stars no longer shine
And the birds no longer sing
Because a world with out you
Seems as unfamiliar
And as ugly
As torn up pages
From a book
May 9, 2014
May 9, 2014 at 6:51 PM UTC