i lit a match
to light a candle
to seal a letter
but
the match could not even do me the courtesy of burning to my fingertips.
Sep 22, 2024
Sep 22, 2024 at 8:04 PM UTC
i am going insane over a love that cannot exist.
a love made not of soulmates
but a bond, a tether, a string
forged and formed by two creatures taken to understanding. to knowing.
knowing when one is wearing a mask for others.
knowing what the littlest twitches of muscles mean.
knowing where one is even in sleep.
knowing someone beneath what they project to the world.
knowing how to steady the world for one whom it blurs.
knowing and desiring to know.
hearing and keeping hold.
this love drives me mad
the soul of my heart aches for such a profound connection
yet the written words of other authors must suffice.
Sep 19, 2024
Sep 19, 2024 at 9:45 PM UTC
I miss him.
I missed him.
I miss him now and I miss him then.
in the moment, I was missing him.
he was with me, and I was missing him.
was it worth it?
would anything have changed?
could it be any other way?
will I find him again?
the him he used to be? the him I missed? the one I still miss?
can he be who he was and who he has grown to be at the same time?
can he be better, yet still the same?
can I?
can I be the woman he loves and the woman who broke his heart?
doesn't it contradict?
doesn't it all contradict?
aren't we contradictions?
aren't we ourselves?
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 10:33 PM UTC
obsessed, terrified, the idea of seeing someone that you knew intimately, seeing them in a bathing suit or without a shirt, knowing that your hands traveled down those exposed places, remembering that, and knowing you can never do it again, they are across a room, alone, with someone else, twenty feet away, maybe more, and you can feel their hips in your hands, your body knows exactly how theirs moves, but you will never feel it again, horrified, overwhelmed
Apr 25, 2023
Apr 25, 2023 at 10:20 PM UTC
I want to see the sun with you.
The rising, the setting
The ******* rainbow it makes.
I want to see it all with you.
But if I can't, when I can't
I want you to see it on your own.
I want you to experience beauty.
Over and over
Every sunrise, every sunset.
I want everything for you.
Every precious thing
Every little thing.
Every soft moment that might brighten your day
I want for you.
This sunset is yours.
Jul 22, 2022
Jul 22, 2022 at 9:00 PM UTC
Jewel of the Hellenistic
for True Beauty
and Passion
for my name, for me.
"A Spirit, yet a Woman too!"
She Was a Phantom of Delight
for the life of me, I can't believe
that when you think, you think of me.
La Belle Dame Sans Merci
the painting
the poem
the story, a familiar story.
Oh, a long one
years worth,
hours worth,
all worth it.
How do I survive?
being loved like this?
when I don't deserve it?
when I don't return it?
May 18, 2022
May 18, 2022 at 1:51 AM UTC
the idea of putting your lips,
your lips that speak the kindest things,
your lips that sing the most beautiful words,
your lips that paint pictures and craft stories,
your lips that build and tear and design,
putting those angelic creations on someone else's body saying
i speak the kindest things for you,
i sing the most beautiful words for you,
i paint and craft for you, saying
i give you a part of me in every touch
the idea of kissing someone's neck,
of someone kissing yours,
yours where your most vital veins are,
one of the tenderest areas of you,
the passage between your head and your heart,
where all your thoughts roam,
Entrancing,
the idea of kissing someone's wrist and fingertips,
of someone kissing yours,
yours where your hand meets your arm,
where your typing and writing and drawing stem,
where your instruments sing,
where you touch them,
Beautiful,
the idea of kissing someone's torso,
of someone kissing yours,
yours where your heart lays,
where your breath lives,
where all your vitality sits,
with life and happiness,
Insane,
the idea of kissing someone's thigh,
of someone kissing yours,
yours that hold you up,
that run,
that walk,
that jump,
that are crazily powerful yet amazingly soft,
Humanizing
romance lives and dies on your lips, on mine.
Aug 21, 2021
Aug 21, 2021 at 9:01 PM UTC
All the sparks, the flames, there are embers in my soul, always warm and blazing in your proximity,
I didn't know what Fire was until I knew You.
Aug 21, 2021
Aug 21, 2021 at 8:54 PM UTC
my eyes
are tired of being awake
tired of seeing
of knowing
if i close them
i don't know if they'll awaken again
Aug 21, 2021
Aug 21, 2021 at 8:54 PM UTC
I have so much to say and no words to say it
at the moment
I cannot comprehend beyond the basics
-I've lost everything, but his touch
May 2, 2021
May 2, 2021 at 10:24 PM UTC