i tend to find myself entangling myself in between your thoughts without you even realizing it.
i can read you like the back of my hand.
you're simple yet complex.
oh how i wish i could be you.
oh how i wish i could laugh like you.
i wish i could be as happy as you.
you feel heavy feelings, yet you wont shatter by a single touch.
you know pain, yet choose to not put yourself through it.
you know me, yet i still cant allow you to read me.
oh how i wish i could let you understand and hear these screams of mine.
take my mind.
take my fragile heart.
it bleeds out for you.
i am always bleeding out.
the words seep out from my mouth as the blood drains from my veins, my love shatters everything.
i don't want to shatter you, my love.
i don't want to fall apart again.
i am so tired.
my heart is so cold.
my mind is so fragile.
please be patient.
Aug 17, 2020
Aug 17, 2020 at 5:19 PM UTC
i feel my thoughts and feelings clawing at the back of throat announcing their arrival. my screams and whimpers are here to cause a show for everyone. i can’t let them out. everything is okay. i am doing great. please don’t ask. don’t search for me, the truth.
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 4:24 PM UTC
it’s getting hard to see all the reasons.
i hate this.
May 8, 2020
May 8, 2020 at 11:43 PM UTC
i wish everything would stop. how do you explain to a person you hate your existence? you hate your utter being. i’m in so much pain. when will it all end? i want to let go so bad. so ******* bad. but i can’t. i’m tired of putting things on people when i am the problem. i’m the ******* problem. the only way to stop a problem is to fix it or get rid of it. i don’t want to be fixed. i don’t want to be happy. i just want to be gone. i feel so empty. so worthless. nothing.
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 9:19 PM UTC