bloodshot eyes
shimmery cheeks
“remember to breathe”
i would look into your eyes
and tell you im fine.
with piled up emotions
some days full
and others empty
within a second or two
the water that overflowed
could become nothing but emptiness
it dried up too quickly
“what was i feeling?”
i don’t know.
i’m walking aimlessly,
daydreaming,
drooling,
sleeping,
becoming an empty void.
i whisper through the winds
and scream through thunders
nothing but silence
no, not this nor that
it’s not what u are thinking
“what am i thinking?”
hmm.....
now i’m smiling
look, im happy, goodbye!
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 2:19 AM UTC
helpless,
your eyes watered
yet you say you’re fine.
the coldness crippled through your spine
and afraid to fault again,
silence lurked.
you hid your pain with light,
it blinded the darkness
and your sorrows were held high.
my heart aches writing this, but
held so close in your embrace,
still- far apart.
your presence caressed me.
just a breath away,
you slipped from my hands.
i held you like water dripping down my bare hands.
now i’m stuck between these spaces,
these memories,
they were crumpled and thrown away into the bin.
tissues that drenched
and pillows that knew every story.
my legs couldn’t take the weight,
i fell to my knees.
the last petal drops
the moon cries
was i destroying something so beautiful yet bitter?
Jan 5, 2020
Jan 5, 2020 at 7:43 AM UTC
the sun shines
with your sun-kissed skin
and honey brown eyes.
i lose myself in your gaze
when you give me butterflies.
we kissed, we danced
we pranced under the sunlight.
our melodies of music became a symphony
where our hearts sung and danced to.
our fingers interlocked
with my forehead touching yours,
and yours touching mine.
we were entangled in heartstrings
and you are all that i want.
we went through tough times together,
stood by each other
and never left one another.
i don’t want to drive you insane, but i love you, i really do.
i don’t care if you are “thrash” or “bad” because i love you no matter what.
you’re perfect to me because your flaws makes you who you are today.
let me tell you my love, i love you for who you are and i would never want to lose you.
i’ll never forget the fleeting moment when we had our first kiss or when i had your hand in mine.
all i want to say is, i love you.
Dec 10, 2019
Dec 10, 2019 at 9:58 AM UTC
dwelling on things that i shouldn’t be
looking back at memories of what could have been
those smiles that i’ve seen
and when you used to call me queen
now my feelings are just statics on a screen
watered up eyes of
tears and feelings that only fell- for you
don’t you see how important you were to me?
if only you knew
i miss your summer hues
but now you give me snoozes and mutes
i really shouldn’t be thinking about you again
but i can’t stop myself from doing so
whenever i see you walking pass the corridor
i would shy away and ignore
but i would always see you at the corner of my eye
without saying a hi or bye
we crossed paths
but at least we are under the same sky
this feeling of sadness will always stay in me
the ache in my heart will never fade
and knowing of all that
i still carry hope
maybe, one day?
something will bring us back together again?
but for now, you’re just a lasting portrait in my heart.
Nov 2, 2019
Nov 2, 2019 at 6:10 AM UTC
i just want to be friends,,
jUst fRiEndS
IS THAT SO HARD TO ASK FOR
p l eE AassE e e
for once
listen to me
i beg you
just be m-Mm m Y yy
f r i e n d
i r eAl Ly misS yOu
please
don’t you see it
i really treasure you
please.. please—
come back,,
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 9:32 AM UTC
eating candies again
to keep myself happy
i popped one in
and another again
so oo oO oo sw w eee ee ttt
it drives the bitterness away
give
me
more
more Ee e—
i finished the whole bottle
my body felt like it could float up to the sky
i felt so h A p P y Y yyyY
i could die
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 4:43 AM UTC
i want to rewrite the stars
to you and me
forever and only
Jul 21, 2019
Jul 21, 2019 at 6:57 AM UTC
u could see the brokenness in me.
u could see the darkness behind this mask.
u could see that i tried, yet i fail then lying on the ground, given up.
u could see i was overwhelmed.
u could see i was trying to fight against the war in my head.
the pain,
the suffering,
i am hurt.
u could see that.
u wanted me to trust u,
u wanted me to open up to u,
u said u could help.
when i gave u the keys to this locked door,
u ran up to me,
u held me up when i fell.
u shooed away what was there crowding and surrounding me.
u held up the sword and told me to stand behind u, u wanted to help me fight.
but we fought together,
and it was almost over.
now i’m picking up shattered glass.
one pricked your hand, u bled,
but u continued.
_i hoped u didn’t see the glass bead tears under those light.
the light that u brought into this darkness.
i’m really thankful that u helped me,
if only it wasn’t over so soon.
could u stay with me?
i want u to, please?
i... i—,, 92&/@/&/&
i— love you._
Jun 24, 2019
Jun 24, 2019 at 1:21 PM UTC
i love the way u wrote poems for me
i love the way u smiled and laughed with me
i love the way u protect and comfort me
i love the way u gaze into my eyes
i love the way u take longer routes just to spend more time with me
i love the way u trusted me
i love the way u were loyal and committed to me
i love the way u cared and helped me
i love the way u change for the better
i love the way u sang songs for me
i love the way u whispered i love u to me
but i hate the way u left me
Jun 24, 2019
Jun 24, 2019 at 1:06 PM UTC
heard that u talked about her.
you told your friends how blessed u were
you told your friends how much u loved her
you told your friends that you didn’t want to lose her
you didn’t want to break her heart
but the more u think
the more it worsens
only negative thoughts were running in your head
floating
scattering
and confusing
you told your friends she deserves better
you told your friends you aren’t good enough
you told your friends that you were inferior
you overthink
and soon after you were drifting
and slowly breaking
you were mentally drained
you were tired
and things weren’t going well
in the end, the first letter of _my_ name adds up to the password.
the password consisted of his ex(s) name.
Jun 24, 2019
Jun 24, 2019 at 8:58 AM UTC