Right
I'm sorry
I only seem to exist
When you want me to
Feb 7, 2016
Feb 7, 2016 at 6:34 PM UTC
My heart feels like it's exploding
And I'm not sure where I'm going
Will you grab my hand and lead the way?
I'm just not quite sure you're here to stay
Anywhere with you I'm sure to go
Through the rain and even the snow
A moment with you is better than none at all
Even if you leave you'll catch my fall
I'm not quite sure how to explain
This beautiful feeling of love and pain
All I know it is you I want
Any pain aside in a careless haunt
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 7:32 PM UTC
I always thought pain was red
Like the blood in my veins
I never would have thought
My pain would have a face
Aug 1, 2015
Aug 1, 2015 at 6:58 PM UTC
When I say I miss you
I mean that
I miss everything about you
I miss you altogether
I miss your contagious smile
I miss the feeling I get when your beautiful hazel eyes skim over my figure
I miss the feeling of your skin against mine
I miss the melodic tune of your voice weaving through my ears
I miss the comfort and safety of being close to you
I miss the way you hold me tight
I miss how you tell me you love me without hesitation
I miss it when you kiss me gently and when you kiss me harder than you ever thought you could
I miss when you hug me and the world fades away and it’s just us standing there holding one another for as long as our heart’s content
I miss you, **** it
I miss you
Jun 13, 2015
Jun 13, 2015 at 9:02 PM UTC
I am a ticking bomb
Of mass destruction
Chaos burns bright in my eyes
As I pick myself apart
Looking for the right wire
Red or blue
Hesitating, shaking violently
Hushed whispers of pain and frustration
While the pressure is too much
Why would you come near
When I'm set to self destruct
Jun 1, 2015
Jun 1, 2015 at 6:58 PM UTC
Carving into my desk
As I imagine carving into myself
Engraving my heart and soul
With warning signs
And almost empty threats
That shroud my pleas for help
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 7:20 PM UTC
What would it mean to you…
If I turned around and jumped over the edge, knowing I’ll never return?
What would it mean to you…
If I completely lost myself in this tide of self-inflicted torture?
What would it mean to you…
If I stopped existing for everyone’s sake, maybe even my own?
What would it mean to you…
If your world came crashing down around you, burning bright flames of a hushed goodbye?
What would it mean to you…
If I stopped trying, because every time I try it hurts more than the last time?
What would it mean to you…
If I left this scary place, where you could be free of me and my darkness?
What would it mean to you…
If I came to you with a storm of my own, tear stained cheeks and sobs that beg for help?
What would it mean to you…
If I said that I need you now more than ever, but it feels like you’re slipping farther away?
What would it mean to you…
If I stopped every task at hand just to be there for you?
What would it mean to you…
If I merely asked for, not the same, but some comfort and safety from this raging battle against myself in a war I’ll never win?
What would it mean to you…
If I endlessly ran away from my problems that chase me with razor sharp teeth and menacing claws of pure destruction?
What would it mean to you…
If I let this darkness consume me?
What would it mean to you…
If I left?
May 27, 2015
May 27, 2015 at 7:58 PM UTC
Crying can happen so gently...
But oh god does it hurt
When you're curled up crying so hard
You think you might scream,
But your throat constricts
And all that you could ever muster
Is an unintentional mangled squeak of raw emotion.
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 7:59 PM UTC
Why won't you let her go?
She continuously shakes free
But you come back instantly
Constricting her with fear
You're latching on so hard
To think that she hasn't broken yet
Is beyond both of you
Let me go...
She pleads for a lifetime of release
Away from your tainted world
Pain follows her around
Like a shroud of protection
To keep you at bay
You wonder endlessly
Why you're always hurting
At the end of the day
Perhaps you made a mistake
Pricking your finger on a rose bush
Crimson stains galore
She gave you the chance
To turn this around
To walk away without a glance
Why won't you let her go?
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 7:53 PM UTC