A girl
A girl who needed help to learn how to handle her emotions
A girl who was told he was disrespectful when she expressed anger or sadness or fear
A girl who learned to shut up and cry alone
A girl who loved to dance on stage and look pretty and be happy so she stopped telling people when she wasn’t
A teen
A teen who was angry about why she had to move to a new home and a new school
A teen who wanted to do good but also knew things weren’t right at home
A teen who couldn’t tell anyone how she felt because she was always wrong when she did
A teen who found a boy who had no problem telling her what to feel and how to think and what to do
A young woman
A young woman who listened to the boy and decided to grow with him under his direction
A young woman who tried her hardest to do the right thing but knew something was wrong and she needed to make a change
A young woman who was offered a bottle, a line, a pill, and felt better for a while
A young woman who saw death stare at her in the face when his hands were around her neck
A young woman who decided to make a change
A young woman who left it all behind
A woman
A woman who was lost and scared and alone for a long time
A woman who made new friends little by little
A woman who rebuilt her life little by little
A woman who now has a career, a stable life, and a good man
A woman who can see a healthy future ahead
A woman who is still working on feeling safe when she is vulnerable
A woman who is a work in a progress
Dec 13, 2021
Dec 13, 2021 at 10:15 PM UTC
Since I didn’t get you a Christmas card
And you said I haven’t wrote you a poem in a while
I decided to put a little something together
And I hope it makes you smile
This time of the year is all about happiness and cheer
It’s about family, friends, and being for grateful for what you hold deer
Which is why l am so blessed to be able to celebrate our life together
I am so grateful that we make it a point to appreciate the outdoors in every type of weather
I am so grateful that with you I can be myself with all my different moods
I am grateful that even if you don’t know what to do, you usually try to cheer me up with your awesome dance moves
I am grateful that I end each of my days with your snuggly snugs
And that you were considerate enough to get me some custom ear plugs
I appreciate that I have you by side for all of life’s ups and downs
Especially since I know that sometimes I am not the easiest person to be around
I love that we have already named our future cat
And that we both get happy when we listen to purple hat
Thank you Teddy for everything that you do
And I promise I will continue to work on being the best version of myself for you
When I think about us, I am so proud of how we’ve grown
And I can’t wait to experience the future with all of its unknowns
I can’t wait until we move into our home with style
And for the day when we get to walk down the aisle
I can’t wait for putting the kids to bed
And ending the night with a beer and a glass of red
I can’t wait to continue to grow and adventure with you
I can’t wait to accomplish our goals as individuals and also as a pair of two
So with all that being said I love you with all my heart
And I look forward to many more date nights ending with you losing at darts
So I want to suggest that we raise our glasses and cheer
To adventure, to us, to love, to growth, to the future, and to the New Year
Dec 31, 2019
Dec 31, 2019 at 6:15 PM UTC
Could it be...
Me who decided to make a change?
Me who knew nothing would ever be the same?
Me who set goals and accomplished them?
Me who can finally say I forgive him?
Me who put the pieces back together?
Me who sees you and feels forever?
Me who continues to grow?
Me who finally allows emotions to show?
Me who now smiles at the person in the mirror?
Me who knows life couldn’t be any clearer?
Me who makes a difference each and everyday?
Me who overcame all the obstacles along the way?
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 11:42 PM UTC
I just want to be happy
I want to live free
I want someone to cherish me
Always asking what everyone needs
When the real question is
What about me?
What do I want?
What do I need?
Who will be the one to make me a priority?
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 10:38 PM UTC
... And there it was again
Staring us in the face
And what did we do
Ignored it
Acknowledgement can be too ambiguous
In what it could change
In what it could end
But tomorrow looks much safer
A lot like yesterday
So let’s just forget today
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 10:52 PM UTC
The truth can be a double edged sword
Your truth
Our truth
It tore a hole
A hole so deep I’m perpetually falling
Grasping for anything to help
To save
To stop
To change the direction
But instead I fall deeper
To a place so full of doubt
Of confusion
Of sadness
Of wishing things were different
But I’m falling with this truth
And it’s surrounding me
Like the wind
Like the sun
Like the ground that never seems to come
Falling, falling, falling
They say lying is shallow
Is wrong
Is cruel
Is evil
But I would’ve liked that more
Because shallow is safer than a hole so deep
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 1:15 PM UTC
Inhale 1, 2, 3, 4
What the **** am I doing?
Hold 1, 2, 3, 4
Why do I stay?
Exhale 1, 2, 3, 4
Maybe I’m being overdramatic?
Nothing 1, 2, 3, 4
Nothing
Repeat
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 1:30 AM UTC
I couldn’t think of a gift off the top of my head
So I decided to tell you a story instead….
Once upon a time there was a girl with a broken heart
Bear with me, I know this isn’t a very happy start
But this girl, she was broken for quite a while
She needed to mend herself so being single became her style
She locked up her heart and threw away the key
A lot of time passed before she realized that wasn’t the way to be
She wanted a change but didn’t know where to start
She began to wonder if she could ever unlock her heart
So she decided to let her guard down and just go with the flow
Until one night she put on a black dress and went to Toads for a show
She had some drinks and the night was like any other
Except she mustered up some courage and asked a boy for his number
They started talking and a few weeks later went on their first date
She was excited and then nervous because she was running pretty late
Thankfully he didn’t think her tardiness was all that rude
But the kitchen was closed so he couldn’t order any food
They had some drinks and talked for quite a while
He had on a plaid shirt and had such a handsome smile
He suggested they actually get dinner sometime
And the thought of seeing him again suited her just fine
She unlocked her heart and freed up some room
And over the next few months their relationship began to bloom
They have the perfect balance of normal and weird
And sometimes he even lets her play with his very long beard
Getting to know him has truly been such a treat
He is kind, talented, smart, and sweet
So do you remember that broken girl from before?
Well these days she couldn’t ask for anything more
Being with him has challenged her in such a positive way
So she wrote this for their first Valentine’s Day
May 20, 2017
May 20, 2017 at 5:39 PM UTC
Waves are no match for a brick wall
They try to grow and stand tall but that wall makes those waves seem so small
The waves are attracted to the wall's hard exterior
Or maybe they are just used to feeling inferior
Maybe they want more
Spinning and spinning it all keeps going
The waves keep flowing
All they want is to keep growing
But they are stifled by that lock
By the brick who calls all the shots
By the wall that holds the waves in their spot
So what now?
What comes next?
The wall keeps standing
The waves keep churning
They keep yearning
Mindlessly flowing
All the while knowing
That the wall will keep them from growing
Maybe they both want to be free
To flow, to be alone, to grow, to be stone
Maybe it's freedom they both will never know
Because the wall stops it all
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 7:19 PM UTC
While we sit at the bar my body begins yearning
Then our arms graze and my depths are burning
I want to leave right then and there
But I have to stay put in my chair
No one has ever made me feel this way
My attraction is so strong I can barely keep it at bay
I run my hand up and down your thigh
The anticipation that’s building is making me high
After what seems like forever we leave and head home
My thoughts fill with what we will do when we are alone
Once all the barriers disappear
And I can finally pull you near
We make it home and our tongues begin to dance
I know my patience doesn’t stand a chance
Our clothes are off as we go through the bedroom door
I’m getting excited now and crave so much more
We start to caress each other everywhere
I’ve been ready all night so there’s not much to prepare
I lay you down and begin my descent
You return the favor while my body relents
My senses take over and my thoughts become hazy
We finally connect and it drives me crazy
Moving together we find our sweet pace
The feelings of ecstasy written all over my face
Sounds of pleasure fill up the room
We move faster as instincts take over and our desire blooms
I succumb and revel in every piece of you
Your eyes tell me that you are reveling too
Time seems to freeze
As we too quickly bring each other to our knees
I lay there in carnal bliss
With barely enough energy for a goodnight kiss
We fall asleep intertwined
And I’m smiling because you are all mine
Jan 7, 2017
Jan 7, 2017 at 10:37 PM UTC