"We can't do this anymore,"
you said to me in a dream.
I'm so happy that you're happy,
but I wish that it were me.
It's human nature to be selfish,
that's why my heart is torn in two;
I was here when no one else was
I only wish that I knew
where and with whom
your heart lies
because the truths you've told
have been far too few.
My arms are holding blankets
and you're in her arms now.
I guess this is the final curtain call:
Please
Stand up
and take a bow.
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 11:27 AM UTC
Strangers.
we've become
Strangers
and without you
I've realized
how strange it is
to go from
Everything
to
Nothing
to
Best friends
and back to
Nothing.
And yet
I still love you;
though now we're
Strangers...
*isn't it strange,
how strange it is?*
Mar 28, 2016
Mar 28, 2016 at 12:00 PM UTC
One year.
It's been
one year
without you
down here;
One year
full of
sadness and grieving
and tears.
One year of
questions, disbelief
and acceptance.
One year,
and I've learned
to count my blessings.
One year -
I pray that wherever
the afterlife takes us,
well I hope
that's where you are
and I hope
you're happy there,
because we
sure as hell miss you
Here.
One year.
Mar 28, 2016
Mar 28, 2016 at 11:58 AM UTC
If ever you need
an instant reminder
of your mortality;
cast your eyes
toward the night sky
and gaze upon
the endless stars.
Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 9:48 PM UTC
I wish my heart could be
as innocent
as it once was
before it knew
h e ar t bre a k.
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 10:29 PM UTC
Dreams,
they're my own
worst enemy.
They won't
let me
let you
Go.
And when I
awake
from dreaming,
suddenly
I know
all I've ever needed
to know..
Jan 21, 2016
Jan 21, 2016 at 3:32 PM UTC
Missed calls at 1 am
I wonder where you are.
Even then, especially now
you always were too far.
I'm done with broken promises,
I'm over empty feelings.
What happened?
Tell me, please.
My head's spinning in circles
and I'm down here on my knees.
------------------------------------------
I'm writing this a year and a half later
to let you know I'm still here.
But as for you, well I'm quite sure
you've up and disappeared.
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It's been two years since I started
this ******** love letter
in your absence.
I wish I could say I still miss you,
that I'm still driven crazy by so much madness;
but I realized I'd been holding on
to the ghosts of
your words
your touch
and
You.
You were like
the ever-changing seasons,
and I soon realized:
You are no longer
the person
I once knew.
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 9:32 PM UTC
•run•
I'm writing on this water-stained page
to tell you how much I've missed you
since you've been away.
And I hope you know:
I wish I could have stayed.
But baby,
you never even met me halfway.
You've got a lot of nerve
to keep coming back;
things were going fine
as they were,
And then
Just like that -
you come running
and say you miss me, too.
**** you.
You must know
there's nothing I wouldn't do.
But honey,
you're no good for me,
you never were;
I guess we jumped the gun.
I'm better than what we've done -
And now it's my turn
to run.
Dec 2, 2015
Dec 2, 2015 at 1:02 PM UTC
Yours were the arms that held me
on the very first day I was born.
Looking back at pictures,
I can tell how much you truly adored
the little babies that commanded your attention
on that frigid November day.
You held our hands as we took our first steps,
and you held us when we cried.
You laughed when we’d take little stumbles;
you’d put soap in our mouths when we lied.
But your love for us remained,
Unwavering —
Nothing could take it away.
Before you knew it,
You were watching us walk across the stage;
both high school and college flew by.
You attended every single ceremony;
we were never left asking, “why.”
You have remained our utmost support system -
you’ve always made it all okay.
Through tough love & your strength,
you raised us the best way you knew how;
we’re quickly growing into young women -
Grammy would smile to see us now.
She would be so proud of you;
she’d laugh and shed a tear.
“Mare,” she’d say, “Look at your beautiful babies..
My god, it’s been so many years.”
She’d leave you with a slight kiss on the forehead;
you’d turn around and she’d be gone.
“A dream,” you’d think,
but she’s always here with us,
though it feels like it’s been so long.
Momma, I’m sorry;
I know that we fight.
I think that you’re wrong;
you know that you’re right.
our personalities may be
like day and like night…
but I am you, and you are me.
I promise I’m not blind to see
that for us, you have risked everything -
for us, you have done everything -
for us, you are everything.
I’ll sign off here; it’s time to go.
But in your heart,
please always know:
You are the absolute best mother
& Momma, I love you so.
Happy Birthday.
Oct 31, 2015
Oct 31, 2015 at 11:19 AM UTC
I needed you to run through my veins
the same way my blood
rushes through them
breathing you in
when I want you out.
You were my drug
and I injected you any chance
I got;
craving the high
your voice would give me
and the euphoria I'd feel
filling up my chest
every time
I heard you laugh.
**That ******* perfect laugh.**
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 11:43 PM UTC