alyssa-beddoe
American
I am a seventeen year old girl that is an only child with lots of free time on my hands. I wright poetry, short stories, and novels in my spare time. I'm an activist for LGBT rights in my community, I'm also Pansexual. I love to help people with there problems. My righting style changes i right for every point of view or at least i try. I hope you find it intresting at the least. you can find me on devient art if you wish http://beddoe17.deviantart.com/ / I also love meeting new people and making new friends so all are welcome. You might also know me as Rainbowsrfun you can call me rainbows for short :)
I awake each day with a smile
I greet it with a laugh;
The world is a treasure to me
Because of you.
Every time I think
Of something sad
I replace the thought
With you!
My mind is instantly changed
And my heart it filled
With gladness.
Every breath I take
Is meant for you,
I live this life surrounded
In joy, and I bathe in the promise
Of your love, my soul belongs
To you.
Each time I see something
Beautiful I want to take it
And bring it to you;
My life has so much meaning
Now all because of
You.
Aug 23, 2012
Aug 23, 2012 at 5:16 PM UTC
Do you relay not care if I disappear
Would you care if I walked out of this house
Never to return again?
Would you miss me at all
If I didn't show up at school today?
Would anyone notice?
Would anyone even care enough
To find me?
Or would you just go on in life
Like I was never there.
Would you be to focused on
Your electronics to notice
I didn't come home.
Would you be to focused
On The passing kids
To know the failing kid
Didn't show.
When will you start to care?
When you find the note on
The dining room table
That I left.
Or when you hear my name
On the news missing child.
When you relies that empty desk
Next to you once belonged
To me.
You will do all you can to find me
But you would have been too late
You asked why, as you cried that night
But did you ever think
That it might have been you
That drove me away.
I did not leave by choice
I left because it was my only escape.
Aug 23, 2012
Aug 23, 2012 at 5:10 PM UTC
You Love Me
You picked me up from the ground
Showed me your love
Helped me understand my life
You showed me the different world
You loved me with all your heart
You love me when I am mad
You love me when I'm sad
You love me when I cry
You love me when I lost my mind
And have no idea who I am
I know you love me,
You love me with all your heart
And for that I want to thank you
From the bottom of my heart.
Aug 23, 2012
Aug 23, 2012 at 5:09 PM UTC
YOUR TO LATE
You stand there staring at me
As you try to figure out how to help me.
You watch as I scream in agony
Shiver in pain in my corner on the floor.
You stare at me with though black beady eyes
Watching me as my past brings me pain.
You jump back as you see my face transform
Into the black and purple smashed up face of yester year.
You start to cry when you see my scars begin to reopen
As blood pores out of my arms and legs.
You cry for help when I look at you with help in my eyes
You turn your back to me to get help
You hear me scream and watch as my neck tightens
My face turns red to purple as I start to suffocate in my corner.
You run to me trying to help but it's met by a fire wall.
You're too late.
The room begins to shake and crumble
Just like my heart.
Its goes quiet
It gets cold
You look over at my still body
As I lie there lifeless on the floor.
You kneel next to me and cry
You're too late.
Aug 23, 2012
Aug 23, 2012 at 5:08 PM UTC
Stars
With mystery in my eyes
I look upon the sky tonight
As I wish upon a star
So many light years away
And yet it's so colorful and bright.
My eyes twinkle with delight
As I sit there wishing with all my might.
Aug 23, 2012
Aug 23, 2012 at 5:07 PM UTC
sometimes
you make me so happy
inside
i think i would puke rainbows
if i opened my mouth
so i just sit and smile instead.
Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 8:39 PM UTC
I Shouldn't Love You, But I Want To,
I Shouldn't See You, But I Can't Move,
I Can't Look Away..
And I Don't Know How to Be Fine,
when I'm Not, because
I Don't Know How to Make This Feeling Stop...
And Just So You Know This Feelings
Taking Control Of Me, And I Can't Help It,
I Won't Sit Around- I Can't Let Her Win Now.
Thought You Should Know,
I've Tried My Best to Let Go of You,
But I Don't Want Too. It's so hard to be around You,
There's So Much I Can't Say,
Do You Want Me to Hide the Feelings
and Just Look the Other Away?
Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 8:38 PM UTC
Love ninja
I discovered love is like a ninja.
Ninja hide in the dark waiting to attack there pray.
Well love doesn't attack there pray.
But it hides in the dark like a ninja out of sight
of thoughts looking for love. It comes out when we
aren't looking for love. Just like ninjas
we try are hardest to find ninjas
but we never can, we try are hardest to find love
but we never can. In till it finds us.
Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 8:38 PM UTC
Red- like the blood dripping from my arms…
Orange- like the 100 pills I took last night…
Yellow- like the bullet that tore through my scull…
Green- like the food I puke up after every meal…
Blue- like the tears running down my face…
Purple- like the shade my face turns when I can't breathe anymore…
Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 8:37 PM UTC
Hard to be strong
It's so hard to be strong all the time
It's so hard to be strong for your friends and family especially for yourself.
It's so hard to be strong when you're crumbling apart inside,
It's hard to be strong when all you ever do is be strong for your friends, always there for them even
When you have absolutely no time for them, I always make time for them to make sure there okay.
The one time I can't be strong for anyone since I'm crumbling know one has time for me.
I'm not important enough for them to even say hey what's up why so glum...
The day is too busy to make time to say though couple words to know that someone cares about me.
It's so hard to be strong when you are crumbling inside… it is so hard to be strong when I'm so sad...
It's so hard to be strong.
Aug 21, 2012
Aug 21, 2012 at 8:37 PM UTC