ally_gottesman - Hello Poetry

Say every year is a step away From who you once were And is a step closer To who you will be Ten years is ten steps Ten steps and ten lessons Ten lessons that shape Who you will become In ten years you will be Ten steps away from now And ten steps Closer to then Say ten years ago you liked fiction And now, ten years later, You only read memoirs Say ten years ago you were angry An now, ten years later, You can’t remember why Say ten years ago your hair was brown And now, ten years later Your hair is blonde Say ten years from now you live In a big city with loud noises But now, ten years before, You live at home and are uncertain Say ten years ago you Would never do that And now, ten years later, It is all you ever do Ten years full of growth Ten years full of lessons Ten years full of discovering You and what makes you whole Say ten years ago you felt alone And now, ten years later, You have comfort In solitude

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Aug 8, 2020

Aug 8, 2020 at 1:54 PM UTC

Ten Years

Say every year is a step away From who you once were And is a step closer To who you will be Ten years is ten steps Ten steps and ten lessons Ten lessons that shape Who you will become In ten years you will be Ten steps away from now And ten steps Closer to then Say ten years ago you liked fiction And now, ten years later, You only read memoirs Say ten years ago you were angry An now, ten years later, You can’t remember why Say ten years ago your hair was brown And now, ten years later Your hair is blonde Say ten years from now you live In a big city with loud noises But now, ten years before, You live at home and are uncertain Say ten years ago you Would never do that And now, ten years later, It is all you ever do Ten years full of growth Ten years full of lessons Ten years full of discovering You and what makes you whole Say ten years ago you felt alone And now, ten years later, You have comfort In solitude

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Wedged somewhere between the aughts In the early morning hours What is it you hear? Scatting of a bird Or the ticking of the clock Down the hall The sun filters in, golden Through wooden slats Bitter coffee waits to be made Sweet with cream and Drops of maple Home is slow and silent now In this residual world Where you rise and work Busy yourself with tasks Waiting to pick up where Life left off Spring is still here, Blooming and cool Soothing to the nervous spirit You can still step outdoors, Breathe in jasmine and fresh air Humming, meditating, on newness For now you follow a different routine Connect, find comfort in what is Around with new appreciation Embrace a slow morning And an easy evening Sunshine and small escapes

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Apr 15, 2020

Apr 15, 2020 at 1:22 PM UTC

"Normal"

Wedged somewhere between the aughts In the early morning hours What is it you hear? Scatting of a bird Or the ticking of the clock Down the hall The sun filters in, golden Through wooden slats Bitter coffee waits to be made Sweet with cream and Drops of maple Home is slow and silent now In this residual world Where you rise and work Busy yourself with tasks Waiting to pick up where Life left off Spring is still here, Blooming and cool Soothing to the nervous spirit You can still step outdoors, Breathe in jasmine and fresh air Humming, meditating, on newness For now you follow a different routine Connect, find comfort in what is Around with new appreciation Embrace a slow morning And an easy evening Sunshine and small escapes

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maybe i should not walk towards dark memories i should not sit with a knotted stomach, not tear into old wounds that scabbed over i should face forward, and march on, not pick away at a thing that was one so harmful i shall continue on and yes, i may cry, but i will heal by walking by learning by smiling with my shoulders back, and my chin held high and though my cheeks will be tear-stained i shall heal

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Feb 11, 2020

Feb 11, 2020 at 9:49 PM UTC

i shall heal

maybe i should not walk towards dark memories i should not sit with a knotted stomach, not tear into old wounds that scabbed over i should face forward, and march on, not pick away at a thing that was one so harmful i shall continue on and yes, i may cry, but i will heal by walking by learning by smiling with my shoulders back, and my chin held high and though my cheeks will be tear-stained i shall heal

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I want To be free Of guilt To extend My arms Scream, And maybe Lose my mind In the best way

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Mar 23, 2019

Mar 23, 2019 at 2:52 PM UTC

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I want To be free Of guilt To extend My arms Scream, And maybe Lose my mind In the best way

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It’s mysterious the way the mind works How your self worth can just Wither away And how your will just falters How looking in the mirror Can become a thing of fear And you pick out each Little flaw, each imperfection When you can’t see your ribs - You can never see your ribs - How helping yourself Turns into guilt And how everyone stares And picks you apart And judges But that is not you It is your mind Pulling away at you Blurring the truth As it rots

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Nov 8, 2018

Nov 8, 2018 at 7:05 AM UTC

Dysmorphia

It’s mysterious the way the mind works How your self worth can just Wither away And how your will just falters How looking in the mirror Can become a thing of fear And you pick out each Little flaw, each imperfection When you can’t see your ribs - You can never see your ribs - How helping yourself Turns into guilt And how everyone stares And picks you apart And judges But that is not you It is your mind Pulling away at you Blurring the truth As it rots

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Unfasten the mask, The smile, That hides the truth And breathe in Show the world You are working Towards something that Could take a lifetime And remember, Tears, the truth, and falling Are nothing to be afraid of

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Oct 10, 2018

Oct 10, 2018 at 9:20 AM UTC

World Mental Health Day 2018

Unfasten the mask, The smile, That hides the truth And breathe in Show the world You are working Towards something that Could take a lifetime And remember, Tears, the truth, and falling Are nothing to be afraid of

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Please, please Just lock me up And throw away The key Send me somewhere, Anywhere, a place Where I can’t think Take me far away Where I can be Free of worry And the aches they bring Please, I beg you Just lock me up And throw away The key

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Oct 5, 2018

Oct 5, 2018 at 2:19 PM UTC

Save Me From Myself

Please, please Just lock me up And throw away The key Send me somewhere, Anywhere, a place Where I can’t think Take me far away Where I can be Free of worry And the aches they bring Please, I beg you Just lock me up And throw away The key

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When you feel like an intruder In your own house Awkward and stiff Nervous and sick And hide by running, Or driving Far, far, far Your only wish is to breathe Without the creeping of consequence Without the knot in your stomach And the chill on your skin

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Aug 19, 2018

Aug 19, 2018 at 3:17 PM UTC

Burden

When you feel like an intruder In your own house Awkward and stiff Nervous and sick And hide by running, Or driving Far, far, far Your only wish is to breathe Without the creeping of consequence Without the knot in your stomach And the chill on your skin

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They said "You must be ladylike, And respectful, And simple." I steeled my anger. I bit my tongue. I said, "No. I must be a fire That scorches a path And turns anew."

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Mar 28, 2018

Mar 28, 2018 at 8:41 AM UTC

I Will Destroy Your Expectations

They said "You must be ladylike, And respectful, And simple." I steeled my anger. I bit my tongue. I said, "No. I must be a fire That scorches a path And turns anew."

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I will no longer Stay awake Consumed in my thoughts Of you, Wondering why the Hell you lied And lied And lied

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Mar 28, 2018

Mar 28, 2018 at 8:36 AM UTC

I've Wasted So Much On You

I will no longer Stay awake Consumed in my thoughts Of you, Wondering why the Hell you lied And lied And lied

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