She stands there in her beautiful gown
made of the shadows and light
She smiles at me as if she knows.
As if to say my time has arrived.
She left me for good, but she will never leave
I want her gone, but i beg for her return.
She stands there in her beautiful gown
a flicker of hope and faith
Watching me as if she sees
I could mimic her scars, do as she's done.
leave by my hand, this world of suffering
She stands there in her beautiful gown
A ghost of my nightmares
She smiles as if she can tell
Her death will soon be my own
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 9:35 PM UTC
falling into the hole,
demons cling to the walls on the sides, shouting out at me.
They say that which my mind has been telling me from the beginning.
Only difference now is i'm beginning to believe it.
A never ending trench,
leaving me wishing i were dead.
I shout out to those above, only wishing for a helping hand.
Nobody hears me, nobody sees For now i'm gone not leaving a single thread.
A bottomless pit,
I hope you never understand the feeling
The pain that wrenches through your body as the air blows past.
But if you do, i'm here to be with you, hoping to help reach someone for you.
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
A light is glowing at the end of the winding path.
You just have to take it slow.
The faster you run the further it appears.
The only way to escape is to accept that which you fear.
I cry out into the darkness, having run so fast
it completely disappeared.
There is no more hope for me left here.
I have no chance to be saved.
Never rush what is needed to be done.
Do what is right and forget about the face
at which your peers believe you must hold.
For if you deny and rush, your light will never glow
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 11:41 PM UTC
I fell in love, with a boy who knew.
He knew my troubles and he knew my life.
I fell in love with a boy who has changed.
He once was sweet and kind.
But now he's hateful and ignores.
I left for a few days, promised i'd be back soon.
He never called, not a hey, or an I miss you.
While I was gone there was this other.
He also understood my troubles.
He was kind and different, Not like the last.
He was sweet and gentle to me.
I did nothing with him but talked.
It was nice to be relaxed.
But now i'm back in the arms of the first.
But my mind wishes I were somewhere else.
Somewhere with the last.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 2:07 PM UTC
Listen to me!
I'm tired of the games.
Tell me whats wrong.
Tell me your story.
I want to know. I want to help.
I want to be the one to guide you to the light!
You say your afraid.
Afraid that i will leave if I know.
But keeping it from me makes me want to walk away.
You expect me to trust you.
To trust you with my past!
I have secrets I've never told.
Yet you wish to learn them.
Yet you wish from me to never learn yours.
I don't just hand you the trust.
You must deserve it.
I need to know you will listen.
I need to know you will understand.
So tell me now.
While i'm still here.
Because if you wont even tell me the small facts.
How can I tell you my darkest pasts?
So let me hear. Let you speak.
Or I'm walking away.
I'll never return.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:17 AM UTC
I don't know how to say what I feel.
I don't know how to express the words I want to say to you.
You make me angry, crazy, and wanting to scream.
You keep these secrets yet, you expect me to trust you enough to tell you mine.
You tell me everything's okay but you won't speak to me, even look at me.
Have I done something wrong? Did I hurt you in some way?
I don't know how to say what I feel.
I don't know how to express the words I want to say to you.
I love you like crazy, happy, and completely giddy.
I can't get you out of my head. I'm up late at night smiling about your texts.
You tell me the sweetest things that leave a warm feeling in my chest.
What is it about you? What have you done with the hateful girl inside me?
I don't know how to say what I feel.
I don't know how to express the words I want to say to you.
You leave me confused, and torn. Completely contradicted.
One minute you are happy as can be and the next you are silent and brooding.
You won't let me help. You won't let me listen. Everything changes drastically.
Why won't you tell me what to say? How can I help?
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:11 AM UTC
Do you see that light?
It's straight ahead,
Do you see it?
Can you feel that breeze?
It all around.
Do you feel it?
Do you smell the salty air?
It’s from the escaping sea.
Do you smell it?
If not, you aren't alone.
I only know what I've been told.
But it sounds beautiful doesn't it?
It sounds like a world of hopes.
A world I couldn't even dream.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:10 AM UTC
I feel the beat of the heart
Like a drum that plays on and on.
My mind continues searching
For the words of the song.
The song that is my life,
That plays day and night.
I wait for it to come,
But today it officially stopped
Never again will it be heard
Never again will it be thought.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:09 AM UTC
Darkness consumes me,
Hatred fills me.
I see nothing but shifting
shadows and sketchy corners.
The voices of my demons
Drawl on in my head
I feel afraid, afraid of me.
I feel corrupt and out of place
Why does this happen
Why at this time.
What can I do
To stop this right here.
They come closer.
I fall deeper.
This never ending fall
Speeding along its way.
Into the pit of a world
I wish nobody else must see.
A world so dark,
A world so sad,
That I fear I may never leave.
Please, whoever sees this.
Tell me it's okay.
Tell me there is an end.
An end to the falling
An end to the monsters.
And end to the voices,
Shouting at me to die.
Why must I do this.
Why am I by myself?
When others out there
can easily grab my hand,
They could pull me up.
Why don't they stop this spiraling
Stop this pain.
They are just to selfish to see the name.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:08 AM UTC
I look at you and I see light.
A light to lead me from the
darkness that has consumed me
I look at you and I see hope.
Hope that there is a place
In this world that I can belong
I look at you and I see stars.
Stars that are forming beautiful
Complex forms that I want to solve
I look at you and I see a future.
A future in two minutes or two years
In which I will be happy to be there.
I look at you and I dream.
Dream of a better world
Filled with those like you.
I look at you and I never truly see.
I see the glow and fog that surround you
In which I search and find the smallest things.
I look at you and I loose all thought
Because you are all I want
And all I need.
Right here, right now.
That's all I'll do.
For this will never change.
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 9:06 AM UTC