(For You, when you don't realise you could lose yourself in hiding:)
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Slow down just a little bit
I'm not even asking for a break
Nor secretly hoping for a slight pause
No matter how little time you take
Breathe a little deeper if you can
No need to fight for breath
I want you to remember you are alive for once
We already know you're at peace with death
Stop justifying your transgressions
Even if you can always find good reason
For your words form chains that wrap unnoticed about your feet
Blind to irony, you trap yourself in your own freedom
Feb 2, 2018
Feb 2, 2018 at 8:17 PM UTC
My life is not going to last that long
This body of mine will wither quite soon
My heart though it loves forever strong
Will be a distant echo as the unheard beating that once came from my womb
My mind can be occupied still
And withstand the time impeding
Yet do not rely so proudly upon assumed will
For time to your bidding is unheeding
Patience I have and more do I gather
For you I have foreseen are worth the wait
Yet as my death approaches the less I can fathom
And so too deceases our predestined fate
Sep 22, 2015
Sep 22, 2015 at 7:24 PM UTC
I don't know if you waited for his heart to break
Knowing your time would come one day
Understanding that only I was the one to cut the bond
Hoping that I would realise the rope was tethered all the way
Or maybe you didn't have a clue what was going on
Didn't even know that I was on the other side of the world
Just had a feeling that something was coming your way
The same feeling I had when I was a little girl
Both ways make my life more worth living
After time spent a wandering ghost
And so undeterred was your openness that I gave myself willingly
My essence even more completed by the welcoming host
I knew our love was always destined to be completed
But I didn't know you would keep me in the end
I thank him for surrendering his half of who I love
To the man waiting patiently with the other half ready to mend
Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 9:40 PM UTC
I am not a circle, I walk at will
Yet they howl as if I am a globe spinning still
In daylight they wait patiently, the hours they count
For night to fall, their moon to surmount
Yet its presence wavers without warning still
Despite its light an element none can ****
The clouds halt unforgivingly before it and silences their song
Disconnecting the lovers from their tradition lifelong
Yet I gave myself liquefying as water of some sort
And the great light was what was in thought
Reflecting the Sun in the moons place
Giving the song back undisgraced
I step aside without hesitation, veil removed
And I seek no acknowledgement for a Faith long proved
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 1:46 PM UTC
I wish I could have saved you
From whoever took you away
Your life was a pawn unknowing
That pawn was forced into play
I would have given my life for yours
And our places swapped without hesitation
Yet we've been there times before
And so this time I must not give into temptation
I want to beg you for your forgiveness
Even though I know you understand
And be there to always whisper the reminder
That its soon I shall hold you by the hand
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 1:51 PM UTC
I'm not going to say anything this time
I'm not even going to let the thoughts unravel
They did before and the thread was more than I expected
Unwinding into a string too thin to be within my grip protected
So I won't let go of this ball of yarn so soon
Even if it is never to be woven into the loom
I shall cherish the bundle and hold it tight
And let my dreams unravel its wonders in the night
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 1:29 PM UTC
Sometimes I choose to be away
But fear not for my love for you continues to grow
I do not mean insult nor to provoke doubt
I am here still
Wearing your name across my heart
You may wonder what keeps me away
But don't ponder for long
As the mind is a treacherous thinker
You may read my words
Watch over me if you wish
But be aware in your watching
Don't close your eyes too long when you blink
And get caught by their conjured illusions
Nor look to mirrors in search of my image
As their reflections betray your eyes
Don't stare
Don't be hypnotized by the moving pictures
Don't watch the movements of light
Nor of shadow for neither reveal clear images of honesty
But do, do look to your heart for it is the true looking glass
Mar 28, 2015
Mar 28, 2015 at 3:59 PM UTC
Could have brought my heart back
So it was once again mine to lose
I muffled my voice in hesitation
And I gave you the chance to choose
You didn't try to even reach out
As I gave you opportunity to do
Instead you used your words to woo me
And in wooing make me the obedient fool
I told you so many times before
That from your words I am immune
They only disrespected me
When you expected too much too soon
And now you start to hold your tongue
But it is too late as it was before
Your promise of trying and dealing with the pain
Is a lie I shall be a fool of no more
Mar 28, 2015
Mar 28, 2015 at 3:37 PM UTC
I stopped giving but I still give it all
I said goodbye with no intention of leaving at all
I just bid farewell to the person I was waiting for
Who would see me and know me
Unlike this person blinding themselves from what they saw
I just hoped that maybe one day would come
To light the darkness with the morning sun
Perhaps then I would be able to see
That the person I hoped to be speaking to
Was actually listening to me
I felt contented for a while
And I admit that I felt reason to smile
Yet that lonely feeling that so briefly subsided
Appeared from behind your cloud
And the truth once again with me collided
I hope it is finally understood
What I could not say even if I knew I should
But maybe you'll accept that the time will not come
That your footprint will never even start to fill
Those that were there when time had not yet begun
Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 5:57 PM UTC
It just stopped being
And in that moment it all cut out
No more did your light shine for me
Or could your jests spark electricity
I just loved you, then did not.
I did not feel the loss
Nor question my spontaneity
The jump to the opposite did not jolt me
Or even doubt wash over me
You were once ahead, now behind.
I guess I should have told you
The least give reason as to why
Your innocence to my sudden parting
Was my guilt for even starting
What I did, was finally done.
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 3:47 PM UTC