I wonder if he is still there
his daughter asks the skies every night
What does it feel like to be a soul leaving its shell behind?
I wonder if he still has fears
I wonder if he still believes in the divine
Is it a tragedy or a blessing,
to leave this world without any memories or worries in mind?
Aug 15, 2021
Aug 15, 2021 at 1:26 AM UTC
I was the queen of storms
The one that used to play with fire
And thought that by showing them my strength they would stay
and we would live in a romantic comedy written by Woody Allen
I think he can see the scars in my heart
But for the first time, they are not being used for a man's own advantage
My mind is peacefully floating in a clear blue ocean
and I'm not covering my soul with any bandages
And I wonder
where are those nights of staying awake
writing about someone else's mistakes
like they were my own
And I feel like I am waiting
for the thunder that lights up the sky
and the fear, and the lies
But I have this feeling they will never come this time
My body feels lighter and my expectations are running free
"Hey kid, that's how it is supposed to be"
And here life is tough, but he is always there for me
"Hey kid, that's how it is supposed to be"
I have built worlds and watched them burn
and they would always flee
But now I find comfort in his light blue eyes
and that is how it is supposed to be
I was sitting and waiting patiently
while they were melting my heart of gold
And it took me 24 cold springs to realize
that like hurricanes, love cannot be controlled
I think he wonders what is going on inside my mind
when I am lost in my thoughts like they were a black hole
But the past ceased to be my favorite place for visiting
and those visions of the future do not scare me anymore
And I genuinely smiled
on that first time you sang like Louis Armstrong
and whenever you tell me about how life has made you strong
with that shy passion in your eyes
And the beauty of it all
is that I finally get to fall
for someone I never had to beg to be mine
Aug 15, 2021
Aug 15, 2021 at 1:15 AM UTC
I wake up every morning and watch you sleep
wondering if I'm dreaming
or living my best reality
I hope that sometimes you also catch yourself
thinking about the things that destroyed us
to make us the best versions of ourselves
So that we could be here now
making plans about a future we haven't figured out
not being scared of sharing our dreams out loud
for the first time
There's a fire in your eyes
that makes me want to lose control
There's a kindness in your soul
that makes me forget about the emptiness of this world
I teach you Portuguese and Spanish
and you teach me about life
that despite my ambitious soul
things are not always going to be black and white
You cook me Michelin star worthy dinners
and we have them with cheap wines
And this is now the luxury I die for
the love and happiness no fortune could ever buy
We share the same love for dinosaurs, blues rock and design
You are trying to figure out your place in the world
and I have this certainty about mine from the start
But one thing I have never been more sure about before
is that I will always be by your side
Sharing a bed
sharing a dream
and one day sharing a life
Aug 15, 2021
Aug 15, 2021 at 1:02 AM UTC
Make me feel something
Make me feel something new
I’ve been wondering if you ever knew
That you made me feel something
That still lingers around like a spell I can’t undo
The city lights that now blind me
were the same ones that lighted up my soul
And I write under a starless night
Somehow you managed to take them all with you to the Coast
Doesn’t it bother you
That we are now playing different roles?
Make me feel something like that Sunday afternoon
Make me feel something like in that full moon
I’ve been waiting forever
For something I thought was coming soon
I swear I can still hear your laughter
Echoing through this cold last week of June
Am I close to glory?
Or am I even more doomed?
The sunset paints that picture
Of a poetic solitude
Strangers mind their own business
And I go on forgetting about the magnitude
Of I what felt when you touched me
That Sunday afternoon
Make me feel something
Make me feel something new
After these past few months
You might have had a clue
That you made me feel something
That I won’t be feeling anytime soon
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 10:58 AM UTC
You are a wild wolf
lonely and independent but asking to be tamed
I've got a heart made of candle wax
that starts to melt down with the tiniest flame
And you live your life like a winner
fire in your eyes despite all the wars you've lost
When your claws started to go even deeper
I felt that someday I'd have to pay the cost
You are a wild wolf
eating me alive, day by day
And I seek the good in people
If I can find it in you I know I will stay
But my mother says I'm getting weaker
and my father warned me about the creatures of the night
What if your only predator
Had the power to make you apologize and cry?
You are a wild wolf
and my body is covered by a thousand scars
Maybe losing myself
Is the only way I can get to your heart
Somewhere we're running, hunting side by side
and i'm complete enough to fill your voids
Somewhere I don't have to make a choice
that being with you means losing my own voice
Together conquering the world
you could never share with anyone
I was brave enough to love you
you were coward enough to break every bone inside me
Your dad left you when you were only a child
maybe thats the reason you act like this
But who am I to save you?
when I try to touch you I fall on my own knees
And who are they to judge you?
If you consider yourself above any kind of mercy
You are a wild wolf
dozens of winters have broken your soul
And i pray that someday you find a pack
cause my heart is no longer a safe place to go
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 9:16 AM UTC
I wish I could have met you a few years back
when I used to wear that feather in my hat
and break the strings in my guitar
I wish I could have met you when I was figuring out life
and we would have all the time
for me to teach you a few things about art
I wish I was still that wild child
that would only stay for a while
without ever saying goodbye
And then we would be a perfect match
driving towards the sunset
without having any future in mind
But now I’m going to the edge of the world to chase my dreams
and you’re playing videogames and watching french films
It’s funny how the universe brought us together that night
just to later tear us apart
I wish I could have met you a few years from now
God knows where I’d be settling down
But I’d have your brown eyes by my side
I wish I could have met you in a pretentious bar
You’d tell me all the things you know about the stars
And we’d probably regret those three bottles of wine
I wish we could have our dream jobs
And our hearts would have no locks
Having sure about things we never knew we could even try
And then we would be the perfect match
A blonde and a brunette
Challenging each other every day and night
A dream kind of life
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 9:08 AM UTC
Grandma used to tell me stories about men like you in the early 60's
but I was born an old soul
and I thought I was invincible to this world
until you came pretending you could feel my own feelings
A friend told me that I shouldn't show off my happiness like a pair of new earrings
I told her I wasn't afraid
he was never going to run away
and there we were, fixing the holes in the ceiling
The sun was brighter and the moon was darker
the future used to caress my red hair
do I know this is only an affair?
Maybe I should save him
maybe it'll be fair
In a cold night of march I swear I could see his eyes reading what I was thinking
when he said he had to go away
I knew he had to find a new prey
bacause my heart was already too damaged to be deceived
If I'm not enough for his adventurous life
there is a reality which I can't fight
Though you are my missing piece
It's better to live with half of me
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 9:30 PM UTC
I fixed your ego
I repaired your wings
but darling
the saddest thing
Is that you never intended to stay
So I cut the rope that kept me from
feeling the warmth in the light of day
From my mind you can now fly away
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 9:20 PM UTC
It's not his fault
and neither is mine
If you can not let the fear get inside
your bruised thoughts
to teach you that
love does not always treat you like that
I gave you peace
I gave you war
I never asked for nothing but not be harmed
by your promisses
that cut just like a blade
my troubled mind
filled with mistaken mistakes
We exorcized our demons on an unsacred bed
It was all about time
what a beautiful night we had
you were not supposed to take home pieces of me
that put together
show that I'm a confused symphony
And now that you're gone
I'm still thinking about
did I do something wrong?
and what those midnight talks were about
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 9:15 PM UTC
I was already wearing an armor
cause I thought that was the only way you would not be able to see my scars
but disappointment stinks like a pride that died too soon and was never consecrated
now it's gone, forever
I put on a mask
"Who would you like me to be?
You said you liked ghosts, so I became a ghost
wandering through the halls of my own desires
I shouldn't intend to stay, you were not going to stay
but you were listening to my bitter words
licking them like they were the sweetest nectar
Mirror, mirror
do you intend to mirror me just for fun?
do you really wanna know what I've become?
can I handle the hole you're gonna leave when you're gone?
Once, twice
you said it was the last time
I believe you, I still do
Jul 4, 2016
Jul 4, 2016 at 11:09 PM UTC