Eye's all around. Watching me.
I feel them. I can't see them.
I know they're here. I wait.
People all around. Judging me.
I see them. I don't know them.
I'm scared of them. I wait.
Hand's on my back. Ready.
I feel them pushing me. Pressing on me.
They can't wait. I'm scared.
Oxygen stopping. Suffocating me.
I feel it. The anxiety.
It won't go away. I wait.
Voice's all around. Talking to me.
I hear them. I listen to them.
I don't respond. I wait.
Tears trail. My voice trails.
I lay back. Listening.
I'm still. I'm gone.
Apr 30, 2017
Apr 30, 2017 at 10:51 PM UTC
It's just not normal is it?
The thoughts you have?
You want to be just like them.
Normal.
But the thoughts keep coming.
Can It be a reality?
Can it be true?
No. It can't.
And you can't make it.
Science just isn't there.
You're not smart enough.
And you don't have enough money.
Research is hard.
Paying attention isn't your strong suit.
It's only fictional.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 3:10 PM UTC
She starts gathering up her things.
She's getting ready for her trip.
No one aware.
No one who cares.
Her pillow is harder,
Her pill bottles full,
Her bag is waiting,
And now she's ready to leave.
Not yet.
Not ready.
Not alone.
Fighting with herself, or rather her friends.
The one's who are her voice.
THE voice's.
Trying to plan on still.
For they have yet to begin getting ready.
Not smart.
Not scared.
Not brave.
They've made up their minds.
They've packed their bag's.
They're ready to go.
Her knife, her friends, her sanity.
Is ready.
Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
I'm not okay.
My heart feels like bursting,
My eyes feel like an ocean.
She's not okay.
Her ears are now a drum,
Her nose is a busted vein.
He's not okay.
His arm is a chopping board,
His leg's are empty.
It's not okay.
They are in pain,
They are in need.
We are not okay.
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:36 PM UTC
My life is different now.
Like it's a game that's been updated.
And I am the main character.
And I'm always low on stamina and health.
Countless restarts, as though I've messed up the level.
But time still goes on and the level changes.
The game is a mess with the only mission to beat being depression.
The NPC's are all non talk-able pixels.
There are random jump scares and flashes of horror and gore.
Hard problems and puzzles to beat, with out the right answer.
No matter how many times I hit save, my progress is still missing.
My story line is incomplete.
No explanation or the controls.
No main objective, rather than surviving.
There are no cheat codes or a guide to help me.
It's hopeless.
There is no quitting.
There is title screen or pausing.
There is no end.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 3:43 PM UTC
Closed computer.
Lying girl.
Sick girl.
Tired girl.
Puke, tears, and blood.
Creepy colour pallet.
The colours dance over the floor and walls.
Crying is quieted by the loud students.
Blood is cleaned with water.
Puke is going up and down, never choosing a path.
Forks, trays, and knives in her hair.
Her friends don't notice.
She's not sleeping.
And never has been.
She's not breathing.
Oxygen escaping fast.
In and out.
In and out
In and out.
She's gone.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
I learned today to ask for help, when I'm in pain.
You learned this too.
So, then why when I asked you for help you didn't notice the tears falling from my eyes?
The blood running from my arms?
Am I that invisible, or can you just not tell?
Please help me.
I...I need help really bad...
I'm balling.
My eyes are red and burning.
My arm is sore and red. Stained.
My hear feels like it's being smashed.
I can't even look at you.
Please help me.
It hurts so much.
Not being able to tell anyone.
Why?
Why can't you see?!
Help! Help! Help...
I...guess...it's over....
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 10, 2014 at 10:36 PM UTC
Talking about her,
She makes me sick.
Looking at you makes me cry,
You never seem to notice.
The truth is in front of you,
You're going to just get crushed.
I can't save you,
She can't control your life.
I tried helping,
I ended up getting smashed.
My eyes were on fire,
tears stained my phone.
Both you and another stayed up all night,
Trying to help me.
The tears kept coming,
So did the hurtful words.
Not friends.
Stupid.
Dangerous.
Lier.
No one could help.
I gave up,
Nearly taking my life.
Still giving you glares of pain.
Why wont you listen?
Oct 7, 2014
Oct 7, 2014 at 2:16 PM UTC
I'm from moving around and many friends. Around the world and in my neighborhood.
Forgotten memories and forgotten life.
Left alone in the dark, crying until my eyes are red and on fire.
Keeping every memento I've ever gotten.
I'm from deep thoughts and long nights of research.
Not sleeping for three days straight.
Page after page of books.
New followers and information.
I'm from years of bullying and being different.
Twitching and raptor hiccup.
Hair and clothes.
Like and dislike.
I'm from a world of imagination.
Books that take me on a journey through worlds I wish I could be apart of.
Pictures and drawing I've drawn as a child.
Games that explain more than my schools could ever.
I'm from a life time of pain and joy.
I'm from updating my knowledge of the world.
I'm from a world of uncultured swines.
I'm from a world I wish not to be in.
I'm from the unknown.
A life I've yet to figure out.
Keep dreaming.
I'm from a world of fast moving dreams, that I'll never catch up too.
I'm from Earth.
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 1:41 PM UTC
Drop of red,
Large orb in the sky of orange,
Sour yellow,
Soft lushes green,
Body's of wavy blue,
Romantic flowers of fake purple,
My Rainbow has bloomed.
Sweet red stripe,
Juicy orange fruit in my hand,
Bright Yellow petals,
Long green branches,
Silky blue scarf,
Deep purple bucket of hope,
My Rainbow has bloomed.
Red lace on a white dress,
Orange skinny swirls on a white dress,
Yellow collar on a white dress,
Green bow on the red lace,
Blue stripes on the green bow,
Purple string keep the whole outfit as one,
My Rainbow has bloomed.
My Rainbow is natural.
My Rainbow is the things I hold.
My Rainbow is my dress.
My Rainbow is me, is you, is everyone,
A Rainbow has bloomed over you.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 4:13 AM UTC