I look up at the sky
And cry
Every night I hope this is some sick dream
That life isn't what it seems
I lost myself that day
When you went away
I hid it well
Mommy and Daddy could never tell
I have a flashback in my mind every time
I see a cigar or a gold watch or even a cross necklace
You are constantly playing in the background of my brain like a movie that is up too loud and I am on the phone with my boss but can’t find the remote to turn it down
I googled how to let go
I realized that I can’t let go if I don’t want you to leave
I can’t turn raw pain into an elegantly worded piece of literature
I tried it's evident exactly where my heart broke
It visually depicted exactly when my tears start to stream down my face
If you look close enough
I am drowning in a pit of false happyness and fake hope
Apr 28, 2020
Apr 28, 2020 at 8:24 PM UTC