3 untrue words.
2 fading loves.
1 shattered heart.
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 11:10 PM UTC
I never know
where I fit inside your mind,
or if I'm even in there at all...
that to me
is an even scarier reality I think.
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 10:37 PM UTC
you liked my body,
yet rejected my mind.
I craved conversation,
yet you desired touch.
I shared my thoughts,
yet you shared unsolicited provoking pictures.
you wanted secret hookups at midnight,
yet denied picnics at noon.
and yet, I still thought you were different.
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 10:06 PM UTC
yes, the sadness hurts
but it's better
than being
numb.
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 8:17 PM UTC
will your heart belong to me..
or shall I always long for it?
will fate push us together-
as some predestined prophecy-
or will it repulse us far apart-
as some gruesome curse from nature?
will you leave like a blade caught in the wind,
or will you stay planted like a root in my love?
will you look me in the eye and say those three words-
holding me close so I hear your heart and smell your hair-
or will you turn and hide your beautiful eyes from mine?
will you stay for me..
or will you leave for you..?
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 11:27 PM UTC
i want to let go
to jump into the void
and catch my wings on an updrift of wind
to feel the freedom of longing
but the resistance and gravity
of the thought of you is both holding me back
and pulling me down.
the thought of you restricts me from
going,
leaving,
starting my life how it's suppose to be,
becomes hope is demolition to a soul of love.
notice how i said the thought of you.
it isn't you,
but my mind's imagination of what could be.
the gravity of knowing i will never be enough for you
pulls me down and weighs on my heart.
i know it will shatter and i know i won't recover..
but it's a high that only your drug can give me.
and honestly, i'd face this overdose
over withdraw anyday.
Dec 25, 2019
Dec 25, 2019 at 10:17 PM UTC
the light in your eyes
is drawn away but the darkness of conversion
to someone you don’t want to be
society pulls and strains
until the light is ripped in two
and disintegrated
and the dust
is blown into oblivion
making the darkness a monster of their own imagination
you are filled to the brim with their ideas
of beauty and normality and acceptance
squandering any chance of revival
and forced to live among the social rocks
another victim of their rage and discontentment.
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 8:36 PM UTC
built to be torn
grown and then chopped,
we are.
set up in a mainstream world
blindly unaware that acceptance
is just an illusion with false hype
of great importance.
with conformists scared of 'insanity'
and shunning as the cure for all fear,
individualism falls.
society mindlessly pushes difference
off a black and white cliff
to decompose in a sea of acidic hate.
just for being content with our oddities,
we are shut down like the ignorant.
oh, how unfortunate we are
to be cursed with a brain.
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 5:46 PM UTC
we can love if you will kiss the needle
just a little bit bigger-
your image isn’t your most beckoning quality
just a little bit thinner-
we can sleep if you will follow
just a little less brain-
don’t stand loud love, it isn’t becoming
just a little more tame//
stand straight but think alike
don’t stray or wander from the path ahead
walk in unison and stay uptight
basically, loveables are brain dead.
you don’t belong here.
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 10:53 PM UTC
paint your words in the sky
oh darling
don’t let them shut you out
cry out all your thoughts
and scream your insanity
for they can’t understand until they hear
yes you’re different
but truly beautiful you are
and bright filled with drive and passion
so paint your words
as you would a picture
and let your mind speak the chaos.
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 11:33 PM UTC