aj-champoli - Hello Poetry

In a bouquet of Roses the prettiest always has the thorn Because of one flower my skin's fine but my soul is torn Sooner of Later the petals fall apart just like my heart thin my blood In a Bouquet of Roses the prettiest always has the thorn Because of one flower my skin's fine but my soul is torn Sooner or Later the petals fall apart , just like my heart thin my blood No one sees the difference No one notices a change A square heart's circumference a calendar rearranged your birthday is now just another day the day we met , is somewhere behind yesterday why doesn't someone just say stop stop and play A fire burns deep in you it freezes me from a distance please darling you're burning Let me be of assistance That raging inferno engulfed even the sea burned everything to ashes except for one tree No one sees the difference No one notices a change A square heart's circumference a calendar rearranged your birthday is now just another day the day we met, is somewhere behind yesterday why doesn't someone just say stop stop and play Carved on rotten bark in a square heart says "me and you forever" "we'll be together, we'll get through anything" But now I know what kind of fire can burn down even that peaceful tree it's only a fire started by me.

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Jul 6, 2014

Jul 6, 2014 at 9:38 PM UTC

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In a bouquet of Roses the prettiest always has the thorn Because of one flower my skin's fine but my soul is torn Sooner of Later the petals fall apart just like my heart thin my blood In a Bouquet of Roses the prettiest always has the thorn Because of one flower my skin's fine but my soul is torn Sooner or Later the petals fall apart , just like my heart thin my blood No one sees the difference No one notices a change A square heart's circumference a calendar rearranged your birthday is now just another day the day we met , is somewhere behind yesterday why doesn't someone just say stop stop and play A fire burns deep in you it freezes me from a distance please darling you're burning Let me be of assistance That raging inferno engulfed even the sea burned everything to ashes except for one tree No one sees the difference No one notices a change A square heart's circumference a calendar rearranged your birthday is now just another day the day we met, is somewhere behind yesterday why doesn't someone just say stop stop and play Carved on rotten bark in a square heart says "me and you forever" "we'll be together, we'll get through anything" But now I know what kind of fire can burn down even that peaceful tree it's only a fire started by me.

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Seriously can you just **** off out of my life I use to think you were worth the time but you obviously don't think I am so I am done with this clearly not symbiotic relationship I'm just a parasite to you someone who leeches for life where they thought they could find it I thought I had found something in you something special something that no one else had and that was the courtesy to care past hi and bye but you rather plug you headphones in and sound me out than plug in your heart let me in I want so badly to care and I get you are mad at me but honey I have no ***** to spare only without you i'm free I am glad we'll never talk again because every time I'll see your face and remember what you thought of me every smile, a frown I will reciprocate every giggle will be you laughing at me like you did before So I'll live my life on mute and deaf to whatever you say I'll wear a hole filled suit you can't shoot me down anymore when I'm walking away Life is too short to spend with people who hate you In the future you'll look at my friends and I and say "I wish I could do as they do" Nothing goes right, my anger lost is rhyme All you need to know is ***** **** you this is the end of the line

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Jun 25, 2014

Jun 25, 2014 at 6:21 PM UTC

I Walked the Line

Seriously can you just **** off out of my life I use to think you were worth the time but you obviously don't think I am so I am done with this clearly not symbiotic relationship I'm just a parasite to you someone who leeches for life where they thought they could find it I thought I had found something in you something special something that no one else had and that was the courtesy to care past hi and bye but you rather plug you headphones in and sound me out than plug in your heart let me in I want so badly to care and I get you are mad at me but honey I have no ***** to spare only without you i'm free I am glad we'll never talk again because every time I'll see your face and remember what you thought of me every smile, a frown I will reciprocate every giggle will be you laughing at me like you did before So I'll live my life on mute and deaf to whatever you say I'll wear a hole filled suit you can't shoot me down anymore when I'm walking away Life is too short to spend with people who hate you In the future you'll look at my friends and I and say "I wish I could do as they do" Nothing goes right, my anger lost is rhyme All you need to know is ***** **** you this is the end of the line

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I need you the clothes on my back the fears that keep me alive the dreams that pull my present life off track you the one who keeps me wanting to be alive I want you I want to see your face everyday as your eyes are the window to a world I wish I could live in I want to hold your hand and I know I am shaking because I am nervous next to you but it's only because the words I want to say to you want so badly to get out but my tongue is a steadfast guard waiting at the gates of what I should and shouldn't do I have to have you I have to have the sun and the moon the sky and the sea the fire and the ice awaiting all around me For you are the sun with radiance that brings life into existence For you are the moon a beacon of hope to all those who are tangled in the vines of their own beloved hate for themselves For you are the sky and sea I am a volcano and whenever I explode you are there to control my burning fire you are the sky to push my lava back down to where I belong on earth with you You are fire You do not fear me or anything else You are ice and my anger and yelling melts a little bitter deeper every time until you are inside yourself I know you hate me but for you my love is unbearably true My depression blossomed into a great redwood tree and believe me I really ******* need you.

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Jun 21, 2014

Jun 21, 2014 at 10:01 PM UTC

I need you

I need you the clothes on my back the fears that keep me alive the dreams that pull my present life off track you the one who keeps me wanting to be alive I want you I want to see your face everyday as your eyes are the window to a world I wish I could live in I want to hold your hand and I know I am shaking because I am nervous next to you but it's only because the words I want to say to you want so badly to get out but my tongue is a steadfast guard waiting at the gates of what I should and shouldn't do I have to have you I have to have the sun and the moon the sky and the sea the fire and the ice awaiting all around me For you are the sun with radiance that brings life into existence For you are the moon a beacon of hope to all those who are tangled in the vines of their own beloved hate for themselves For you are the sky and sea I am a volcano and whenever I explode you are there to control my burning fire you are the sky to push my lava back down to where I belong on earth with you You are fire You do not fear me or anything else You are ice and my anger and yelling melts a little bitter deeper every time until you are inside yourself I know you hate me but for you my love is unbearably true My depression blossomed into a great redwood tree and believe me I really ******* need you.

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I wish I had you back I don't believe in an afterlife if I did there would be some hope of seeing you hearing you listening to you knowing you for even a moment Sticks and Stones broke my bones and left me speechless left me alone alone in a room with nothing but the soft whispering echo of what I think you may have sounded like in a darker time passed I wish even in the times we didn't like each other much that you could be back and I'd rather hate you and know you than you be gone any longer You said we'd travel the world together when you got better when I got older You and I strong men together facing the world but it's funny how the thing that never goes to plan is the plan I wish we could have played catch one more time just you and me a Patriots football gliding through the air like my hopes once did this time we could play for hours we never got to before and one time you'll throw the ball too far and I'll go get it and by the time I come back you'll be gone vanished like my hopes vanished like alcohol in the cup vanished like the life in your eyes the last time I saw you and never get to say goodbye dad We were gonna travel the world together but in that last moment when you see the life drain from the strongest man you know and you feel the panic in their face and the panic in your heart as you can tell the rope of life is slipping and you can't pull it back that is more of a life lesson than any traveling could do The alcohol made it so you'll never meet my wife or my kids someday You saw a freeze frame image as me as a child in horror the last time you had the life in you to blink and I'll never forgive myself for handing you those cups and that's why I'll never drink

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Jun 15, 2014

Jun 15, 2014 at 10:28 PM UTC

Why I'll never drink

I wish I had you back I don't believe in an afterlife if I did there would be some hope of seeing you hearing you listening to you knowing you for even a moment Sticks and Stones broke my bones and left me speechless left me alone alone in a room with nothing but the soft whispering echo of what I think you may have sounded like in a darker time passed I wish even in the times we didn't like each other much that you could be back and I'd rather hate you and know you than you be gone any longer You said we'd travel the world together when you got better when I got older You and I strong men together facing the world but it's funny how the thing that never goes to plan is the plan I wish we could have played catch one more time just you and me a Patriots football gliding through the air like my hopes once did this time we could play for hours we never got to before and one time you'll throw the ball too far and I'll go get it and by the time I come back you'll be gone vanished like my hopes vanished like alcohol in the cup vanished like the life in your eyes the last time I saw you and never get to say goodbye dad We were gonna travel the world together but in that last moment when you see the life drain from the strongest man you know and you feel the panic in their face and the panic in your heart as you can tell the rope of life is slipping and you can't pull it back that is more of a life lesson than any traveling could do The alcohol made it so you'll never meet my wife or my kids someday You saw a freeze frame image as me as a child in horror the last time you had the life in you to blink and I'll never forgive myself for handing you those cups and that's why I'll never drink

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I need something can put my finger on it is it even tangible? I need the feeling I get to hear my footsteps synchronize with yours To know we are thinking as one in a way even you can't deny I need that I need this I need your bare feet on the tile floor and I need your smile Legs moving same angle same degree same timing same thought same grief same whining same sought Which is more satisfying stick or stone to crush those bones that walk beside yours One Brain divided cannot stand A Game of Magical Thrones When I cross street would you hold my hand? Of course not, that's why my shadow and I always walk alone.

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Jun 4, 2014

Jun 4, 2014 at 10:46 PM UTC

Walk Alone

I need something can put my finger on it is it even tangible? I need the feeling I get to hear my footsteps synchronize with yours To know we are thinking as one in a way even you can't deny I need that I need this I need your bare feet on the tile floor and I need your smile Legs moving same angle same degree same timing same thought same grief same whining same sought Which is more satisfying stick or stone to crush those bones that walk beside yours One Brain divided cannot stand A Game of Magical Thrones When I cross street would you hold my hand? Of course not, that's why my shadow and I always walk alone.

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Number 1: Don't fail today Number 2: Make sure you make a list worth listening to Number 3: Don't forget number 4 Number 4: **** Just a shadow not dark enough to be a silhouette and a phantom with no place to haunt Alone for a day is all I want Alone for a week is all I desire Alone for a month in a constant haunt Alone for a year long enough to expire Alone for your life time's come to pass Alone for eternity with you at last.

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Jun 3, 2014

Jun 3, 2014 at 5:01 PM UTC

At Last

Number 1: Don't fail today Number 2: Make sure you make a list worth listening to Number 3: Don't forget number 4 Number 4: **** Just a shadow not dark enough to be a silhouette and a phantom with no place to haunt Alone for a day is all I want Alone for a week is all I desire Alone for a month in a constant haunt Alone for a year long enough to expire Alone for your life time's come to pass Alone for eternity with you at last.

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I live in a world with no people just open murky day after murky day with my light always on 365 days a year just sitting there waiting for someone to make you a bit more necessary and necessary is the word just one intsy tintsy bit of self esteem injected into the blood stream like only the boost people give me is much more addicting and I have more money at the end of the day too I am alone in room door locked enough food to last a long time and enough internet and video games to keep me busy but everything just fills a gaping hole inside of you like no other a hole that grows bigger the more you try to fill it Grey walls Grey cement floor ceilings quite tall bolted shut door When I pacing as I do for a long time every day (no sunlight so I can't tell time) I noticed someone behind me everytime a dark force the same everything as me he copied my every movement and would do just as I said a loyal and obedient friend, about time for that right? For years and years I got to know him his name was charlie and the reason he did everything just like me was because he wanted to be like me so much but he couldn't because only in complete darkness without light I said I'll do whatever you need For the first time ever I shut off the light a sharp pain down my back and a piercing feeling through my cornea I couldn't see I rolled around in the bed found the bolted door and tried to pry it open but it wouldn't move I was blind with no hope in the world to know what happens next I scramble as teeth pierce through my neck and blood starts pouring out of me I find the lantern light the match and the room illuminates and the pain stops such a strange thing that After that day Charlie and I didn't talk anymore he just stood behind me while I sat on my compute and stared with his darkness then the day when I couldn't take it anymore I took the chair I sat in and the chord to give my computer electricity and hung myself. The last thing I heard was a knock on the door and deep voice saying 20 minutes till the bus, get up now or you'll be late and Charlie kicked the chair over and I now I am just hanging there now knowing what happens when befriend your own silhouette.

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Jun 1, 2014

Jun 1, 2014 at 11:33 PM UTC

Silhouettes

I live in a world with no people just open murky day after murky day with my light always on 365 days a year just sitting there waiting for someone to make you a bit more necessary and necessary is the word just one intsy tintsy bit of self esteem injected into the blood stream like only the boost people give me is much more addicting and I have more money at the end of the day too I am alone in room door locked enough food to last a long time and enough internet and video games to keep me busy but everything just fills a gaping hole inside of you like no other a hole that grows bigger the more you try to fill it Grey walls Grey cement floor ceilings quite tall bolted shut door When I pacing as I do for a long time every day (no sunlight so I can't tell time) I noticed someone behind me everytime a dark force the same everything as me he copied my every movement and would do just as I said a loyal and obedient friend, about time for that right? For years and years I got to know him his name was charlie and the reason he did everything just like me was because he wanted to be like me so much but he couldn't because only in complete darkness without light I said I'll do whatever you need For the first time ever I shut off the light a sharp pain down my back and a piercing feeling through my cornea I couldn't see I rolled around in the bed found the bolted door and tried to pry it open but it wouldn't move I was blind with no hope in the world to know what happens next I scramble as teeth pierce through my neck and blood starts pouring out of me I find the lantern light the match and the room illuminates and the pain stops such a strange thing that After that day Charlie and I didn't talk anymore he just stood behind me while I sat on my compute and stared with his darkness then the day when I couldn't take it anymore I took the chair I sat in and the chord to give my computer electricity and hung myself. The last thing I heard was a knock on the door and deep voice saying 20 minutes till the bus, get up now or you'll be late and Charlie kicked the chair over and I now I am just hanging there now knowing what happens when befriend your own silhouette.

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An Endless lie but momentary honesty that's all I want the *** of gold at the end of the rainbow that has one desolate ******* piece of yourself that isn't just fool's gold You are nothing but another part of the collective another face another name that no one will pronounce because to everyone else in this big world you don't ******* matter You dress the way you do to fit in with the misfits You are just a contradiction that is contradicting why I should even bother knowing you I used to think you were my world and I wanted to be your moon revolve my life around you that was the plan but the thing that never goes to plan is the plan I don't look good enough for you I don't have tattoos but my body is a temple I am not thin enough to make it simple I am nothing that you want I try to get your help when I need it most and all you do is put me on pause because a guy just walked by and mmmm he is cute and better looking than you so sry hope the ground kills you instantly so you won't remember how bad I made you feel. Next time I need your help as I am falling without a net for goodness ******* sake just admit everything about you is fake

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Jun 1, 2014

Jun 1, 2014 at 11:14 PM UTC

Fake

An Endless lie but momentary honesty that's all I want the *** of gold at the end of the rainbow that has one desolate ******* piece of yourself that isn't just fool's gold You are nothing but another part of the collective another face another name that no one will pronounce because to everyone else in this big world you don't ******* matter You dress the way you do to fit in with the misfits You are just a contradiction that is contradicting why I should even bother knowing you I used to think you were my world and I wanted to be your moon revolve my life around you that was the plan but the thing that never goes to plan is the plan I don't look good enough for you I don't have tattoos but my body is a temple I am not thin enough to make it simple I am nothing that you want I try to get your help when I need it most and all you do is put me on pause because a guy just walked by and mmmm he is cute and better looking than you so sry hope the ground kills you instantly so you won't remember how bad I made you feel. Next time I need your help as I am falling without a net for goodness ******* sake just admit everything about you is fake

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Bare feet on the tile floor no cares anymore your favorite band blasting out of your speakers I only wish I could be her's Be her favorite jokster favorite nerd favorite musician favorite guy who talks to her favorite guy favorite mishap favorite mean person she knows favorite anything. You are great nope better awesome no perfect no. By the time the photons from your face connect to my eyes and turn into the images I know as you I've already convinced myself in and out of saying anything possibly wishily washily maybe possibly sort of kind of that can give you the wrong impression of me I love looking at space I know you do too we are stargazers looking out there because we don't like what we see down here When I see stars I see you A constant bright light shining through the blackened veil that is smothering me with fear at night You are the perfectly imperfect stars to me I just hope someday you'll see one of those stars as me.

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Jun 1, 2014

Jun 1, 2014 at 3:03 PM UTC

How cute you are

Bare feet on the tile floor no cares anymore your favorite band blasting out of your speakers I only wish I could be her's Be her favorite jokster favorite nerd favorite musician favorite guy who talks to her favorite guy favorite mishap favorite mean person she knows favorite anything. You are great nope better awesome no perfect no. By the time the photons from your face connect to my eyes and turn into the images I know as you I've already convinced myself in and out of saying anything possibly wishily washily maybe possibly sort of kind of that can give you the wrong impression of me I love looking at space I know you do too we are stargazers looking out there because we don't like what we see down here When I see stars I see you A constant bright light shining through the blackened veil that is smothering me with fear at night You are the perfectly imperfect stars to me I just hope someday you'll see one of those stars as me.

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Air lifting Ocean floor shifting inward not outward together in harmony Cracks on space hold together nature's embrace titans to sublimate never to proliferate hate Wild untamed melting together and fusing apart only to not care if you end where you start Look outside your window down at the sea to learn about what you didn't know about you or me Earth is not angry it is happy instead Her happiness won't cease to the vermin are all dead So the next time you see a seismographs spike just remember this is what Earth's happiness looks like.

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Jun 1, 2014

Jun 1, 2014 at 2:48 PM UTC

What being happy is like

Air lifting Ocean floor shifting inward not outward together in harmony Cracks on space hold together nature's embrace titans to sublimate never to proliferate hate Wild untamed melting together and fusing apart only to not care if you end where you start Look outside your window down at the sea to learn about what you didn't know about you or me Earth is not angry it is happy instead Her happiness won't cease to the vermin are all dead So the next time you see a seismographs spike just remember this is what Earth's happiness looks like.

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