Tired of fighting my own mind,
Stuck inside, I feel confined,
Can't be myself, lost so much time,
Years pass by, can't press rewind,
Anxious thoughts like poisonous vines,
Blurs my view of the life that's mine,
Depression heavy, pulls over the blinds,
I sit, feeling stuck, so please be kind.
Tightness feeling around my chest,
Why does it feel like i'm holding my breath?
Think like an animal, trapped in a net,
Frightened, & scared, but starting to fret,
When I go out, it feels like a threat,
Feel like i'm weird to people I've met,
Consumed by the fear, a monster of death,
So I turn up the music, put on my headset.
Escape to somewhere that I feel alive,
Away from anxiety, depression, those lies,
A hand reaches out an anchor of hope,
Pulls me up from the blackness,
the slippery slope,
There's always light, there's always hope, there's always someone that'll help you cope,
Just keep doing the things that bring out that spark,
And you'll stand into the light, and out from the dark.
Nov 13, 2025
Nov 13, 2025 at 6:53 PM UTC
**** you depression,
The one that makes me question,
If I'm good enough, just checkin,
Leave me always guessing,
Like my life is just some lesson,
Like I'm just a test your testing,
And I sit there, sad, you're festering,
Pick away at me, it's unsettling,
I get up late, regretting,
Missing all my day,
While others are expecting,
Expecting me to get up early,
But I can't, oh God please save me.
I hate that i can't do it,
I hate that i can't get right through it,
I hate that I let down those who care,
I hate being like this, it's not fair
I hate that I can't just feel happy,
I hate that this makes me feel ******
I hate the way it tries to take away my light,
I hate that I cry in bed late at night.
So **** off depression,
**** off, please, I'm not messing,
Ruining my life that's supposed to be a blessing,
Making me feel like I done something wrong like I need to do confessing,
**** of depression,
You're not in control of me,
Don't even mention,
Making me feel stuck like I'm in detention,
I'm sad, and down, and there's too much tension.
Nov 13, 2025
Nov 13, 2025 at 6:40 PM UTC
You spoke so sweet, like honeyed rain,
A gentle balm for hidden pain,
You reached me first, you called me kind,
A softer love I hoped to find.
Your words were warm,
Your tone sincere,
You made the lonely feel less near.
But slowly, like the dusk turns night,
You dimmed the flame,
You killed the light.
The care you showed began to fade,
Excuses built where trust was laid.
You left my words to sit, unread,
While cold replies echoed instead.
You once were gentle, now you're stone,
A colder man I've never known,
You questioned me with veiled disdain,
And made me doubt through guilt & blame.
You made me feel I wasn't real,
Dismissed the love I tried to feel.
But I was here, I tried my best,
While you gave crumbs,
And called it rest.
So keep your cold,
Your distant ways,
I won't beg warmth on freezing days,
You lost a heart that cared so true,
The one who stayed was never you.
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 5:52 PM UTC
Love doesn't hate,
Love doesn't demean,
Love makes you feel wanted,
It makes you feel seen,
Love doesn't boast,
It doesn't condecend,
Love holds your hand,
And is like a good friend.
Love doesn't turn it's back,
And ignore you for days,
It doesn't hurt your feelings,
In many different ways.
Love is there to hold you,
Even through troubled times,
Real love doesn't judge,
Because real love is kind.
So what is true love?
You may ask,
Well it's definitely not something that makes you feel like a task,
It doesn't belittle,
Or make you feel bad,
It doesn't treat you like you're invisible,
Or make you feel sad.
Real love lifts you up,
It doesn't bring you down,
Real love makes you smile,
And doesn't make you frown,
So if anyone ever makes you feel,
That you're not enough,
That's not real love,
Cause real love sticks around for you,
Even when things are tough.
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 4:56 PM UTC
My heart was too big,
That's why you made me feel so small,
Said I was a baby,
When I started to ball,
But letting out emotion,
Is not a weakness,
It's a strength,
And it's okay to cry, to ball & to vent.
So don't you dare worry,
If you're judged for feeling deep,
It only means that you're strong & more in tune,
It doesn't mean that you're weak.
Even if you're quiet,
Or have flaws that people see,
Say to the world
"I'd rather not be them, I'd rather be authentically me"
Apr 15, 2025
Apr 15, 2025 at 1:56 PM UTC
Hey Mal it's me,
"Oh hey! You mean a lot!! "
But just so you know,
All this will abruptly stop,
After I send you flowers,
Shower you with affection & care,
I'll pull away from you,
& I just won't be there.
I'll leave you on delivered,
Hmm, maybe for a day?
And every time you text me,
My answer I'll delay,
I'll give you the silent treatment,
To take back control,
Emotional mal-nipulator,
That's me to the core.
If you want effort,
Mm no thanks, you do the work,
I'll just sit back,
And let you get really hurt,
I'll treat you like you mean,
Something to me,
And then I'll pull the carpet,
From underneath your feet.
I'm waiting for your text,
But then I'll just ignore,
Play around with your emotions,
And make your heart sore,
I'll say that I'm busy,
And won't acknowledge what you say,
Give you vague short answers,
Keep you hooked,
But I won't stick around & stay.
Apr 14, 2025
Apr 14, 2025 at 11:24 PM UTC
I've been trying to put myself back together with some glue,
Because of all this stupid ******** that people put me through,
But I realised I ain't broken,
It's just a little bruise,
They're jealous of my kindness,
And that's something that I choose.
They see it as a weakness,
Like it isn't a strength,
But I've been fighting a battle in my mind for this length,
But I'm not broken,
I'm just a little bent,
And I pray to God to be strong,
Although he's probably sick of all my vents,
I've got battle scars on my brain,
For fighting an internal war,
And dealing with something like that on the inside,
Makes you incredibly strong to your core.
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 8:42 PM UTC
They choose to judge the quiet girl,
Say she's the one in her own world,
They leave her out,
She's left alone,
But she doesn't want to be a clone,
Her heart is big,
She feels a lot,
And tries to speak,
But then she stops,
A girl that's ever so very bright,
They try to ****** away her light.
She dreams so big,
That they laugh it off,
They say "Oh yeah?"
And then they scoff,
They take her down,
Just down a peg,
She thinks of this,
And cries in bed.
She wonders why it's always her,
Why these negative things occur,
Many people too cruel to be kind,
Gaslight her,
then say she's blind,
A little care,
Is what they should find,
When someone has a heavy mind.
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 7:28 PM UTC
They smile & they scoff,
Pretend to be kind,
But whisper my name with a crueler mind,
They mock what they don't even care to know,
Plant seeds of doubt just to watch me grow slow.
They laugh when I rise,
And cheer when I fall,
Speak loud in a room just to make me feel small,
A cousin who once felt like a sister & friend,
Now glares like i'm someone she wants to offend.
They treat me like less,
Like I don't belong,
But I've been holding in silence so strong,
I've done them no harm,
Yet they pick me apart,
With jealous eyes & a cold little heart.
But they don't know the storms I survive,
How I'm still breathing, still here, still alive,
Their fake little shows,
their bragging & pride,
Can't cover the emptiness they hold inside.
I walk with grace,
Though they roll their eyes,
I see through their masks,
And sugar laced lies.
They measure my worth,
By their twisted scale,
But I won't let their bitterness,
Make me fail.
Let them stare, let them scheme,
let them sneer,
I'll stay true to myself year after year,
Because kindness will shine where cruelty decays,
And I'll rise from their shade into brighter days.
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 7:06 PM UTC
They made me feel too small to stand,
Too quiet for a voice to land,
They spoke in crowds, I stood alone,
But silence has a weight of stone.
They saw a mirror they couldn't face,
So they dressed it up in blame and grace.
But I have wounds they'll never earn,
And lessons they refuse to learn.
They laughed while I stayed out of sight,
But envy hides in masks of spite,
I never needed flashing lights,
To know my heart was burning bright.
They only saw what they could judge,
But I don't move for their applause,
They curse the things they can't control,
Like depth, or softness, or a soul.
So let them gawk, & twist, & turn,
Let them talk while I still burn,
I'm not the girl they tried to bend,
I'm not for them,
I never was,
And I won't pretend.
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 6:45 PM UTC