I wouldn’t ask You to forgive
if I thought that I was worth it
Shut You out, turn around,
I do my own and I feel worthless
But I’m holding to the promise
that I know I don’t deserve
You sent your Son to pay the price for me,
and knowing this has changed my world
Yet it’s not a one-side deal;
Christ washed the blood that I have spilled
but You require that I follow
and obey, to know your Grace
You came to make me not condemned,
so You said, “Go and sin no more.”
If I can’t turn and follow You,
then what was it all for?
Why can’t I give you just a speck
of the wages that I owe
I could never pay You back
I’m a sinner, and You know
You didn’t come to heal the healthy
You didn’t die to pay the wealthy
You came to heal a sinner’s heart,
to wash all sin out from the start
One thing You ask in return,
one tiny little payment:
that I would repent from the life that wasn’t life
and cast it to the grave, spent
That I would rise anew and worship You
That through You I’d be remade
So why is it that I refuse
to give back some of what You paid?
When does apology lose its taste?
Like this I’ll never see your Face
Lord see this darkness in my heart
Cast it out with shame
Fill me with your holy light
Take my lust away
and renew me,
restore me today
Dec 17, 2017
Dec 17, 2017 at 12:00 AM UTC
Take it
where I cannot go
Take it
where I cannot follow
Bury it
in the ground,
far below
where it can't be found
Burn it, Lord
all to ash
Pick me up
like shattered glass
Find the pieces
here in me
Take me, now
and crucify me
Because I can't do this
on my own
You know that
You've seen that
You see this
You see me now
in the ground,
dying,
not breathing,
lying far beneath,
and grasping
just for air to breathe
Well this dirt on me
has made me see
exactly what I need
So take it, Lord,
all away
Wake me up
to a brand new day
I'm holding up
a yoke of shame
Replace it, God
Don't leave me the same
This load's too much
for me to bear
You see the Truth
in every tear
But I can't turn,
so please come here
And take me to a place
where I can look You in the face
And feel the comfort of your Grace
Because
I long to crucify this sin
I hope that You will take me in
I want to take it
to the grave,
throw it down,
and be remade
(I've tried, I've tried, I've tried)
But I can't do it,
not alone
So I ask You now,
please,
once and for all,
to intercede
for me
I’m asking You, Lord,
please,
just take it
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 6:31 PM UTC
*You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me,
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry*
I want to still love you
But there's nothing to love
You burned most of my heart
Now there's just not enough
But amidst my pain
I start to remember
That I've done my own part
To kindle embers
Still, the fact remains:
*You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me,
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry*
You did what I did
To my Lord, my King
Despite all of it
Our God still loves me
So I will not hate you
When there's nothing to love
I'll follow the way
Of my good Savior above
For amidst my resentment
I can hear Jesus
Heart pounding, I hear Him
Saying to us:
"*You beat me and bruised me
You left me broken
You drained the blood from me
Cut my heart open
You hung me up
And watched me die
You spit in my face
You laugh while I cry*
But still I will always
Love you, O child
Of the glorious Father above
Yes I will still love you
When there's nothing to love
So when others hurt you
Show them how to know love"
God said to me today:
"When they beat you and bruise you
And leave you broken
When they drain the blood from you
Just keep your heart open
And teach them how to love
Children, don't hate each other
Just love one another
Always, don't hate each other
Just love one another
Even when there's nothing to love"
Nov 22, 2016
Nov 22, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC
Normally when I write, I dump my mind upside down with the lid off and let my thoughts spill out onto the page. But when I write poetry, I pour my thoughts into an inkwell, then, with a fine-tipped pen, I dip into the inkwell and obtain a small amount of my ink on the end. I then use careful calligraphy to write out my thoughts in the proper way. It takes more time, and each time I stop writing to dip the pen back into the inkwell, God has room to speak some of his own words into my thoughts, so the writing improves throughout, until by the end it's no longer my own thoughts being used for the ink. I simply write God's words with my own hand, in his language: poetry.
Dec 19, 2015
Dec 19, 2015 at 4:22 PM UTC
Do you remember
when we first laughed together?
I liked your smile
Something inside me changed
when I saw your face
And all I remember thinking
was just, “Please don’t turn away.”
When we first met
I thought that I’d met perfection
You made me feel
something so much more real
than anything that I’ve ever felt
for any other girl that I have ever seen
I knew right then that I could never try to dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder
Do you remember?
We were laughing together
I loved your smile;
it would take me away to a better place
We locked eyes; I was barely breathing
I thought, “I'll never turn away."
Because you make me feel
something so much more real
Than anything that I’ve ever felt
For any other girl that I have ever seen.
I knew right then that I could never dream up
One with more beauty
And I remember wishing
You and I would be together
When my heart beat, I swear I could hear
Could hear the thunder
I still remember
When we could laugh together
I miss your smile
Those days feel so far away, so misplaced
They’re gone and I’m left here thinking:
“Just why’d you turn away?”
Well those days are gone away
Those days are gone away
It doesn’t matter what I say,
now, all those days are far away
And they are never coming back,
I couldn’t keep you from turning away
Now I’m just keeping pace
While memories fade away
Surviving day by day
Since the day you turned away
Tears fall for so long
And tears have dried away
But as the days go on
I’m just keeping pace
No longer asking why
I can’t forget your face
With few more tears to cry
I’m just keeping pace
With eyes filled
Heart peeled
Through the blur I can hardly see
Still I’m gazing at the memories
Each one multiplies the pain
But I just can’t turn away
I’ll always remember
At times I dream we’re together
I’ll never forget your smile
Because when I close my eyes to sleep,
I still see your face
I’m just left here thinking
About the day you turned away
Dec 19, 2015
Dec 19, 2015 at 3:50 PM UTC
*Hello beauties, my name is Austin D. Sifford.
If I may, please spare a moment;
I've prepared some needed words.
I'll get straight down to business,
and make short this introduction.
So if your ears are not too full
let them taste this sweet concoction:*
So, I take care of my hair
Keep it cool, keep from frizzin'
I hit the gym five days of seven
Just the basics, not body-buildin'
I like my clothes, rock the shades,
but I've got a major question:
Who cares what I look like,
Why's it matter what I'm wearin',
What good is outer style
If I'm a beast behind the skin?
Too many people, is the answer, I guess
I mean it's cool, right, everyone sins
But not to me, you see, I see it different
I strive my life to conquer sin
Why?
'Cause, listen: one Man didn't
He lived every second to please our Father
So don't you try to tell me we're Self-Pleasure's sons & daughters
Why you checkin' on externals
When the heart inside's infernal?
Now, God knows I love my beanie
But if I had myself a genie
I wouldn't be wishing for a cap
Or some Levis or the Lugz
I'd be wishing for a hand to hold,
Just some love, a friendly hug
For one to show me that they care
For a heart that's not afraid to dare
To be a better man within
I'd rather shine behind the skin
We don't need cash, and I don't want bling
No-- what we need, people, is a reason to sing
We need a Savior, man,
We need a bigger plan
I hope you'll understand this,
Guys, we've gotta take his hand
The world will never be happy
With shirts at three-hundred fifty
That ring may give you style
But what gives hope to your child?
Does your house? Does your car?
Do his toys? Or does his father?
Look I'm not trying to bother,
I ain't just here to preach
But you're flashing those ****** tanning at the beach
Ladies, where is your beauty?
On your skin? They just leech,
you know? Those guys all over,
they don't care about you,
just wanna know what you will do
It's time you wake up, and shake up
All this fake-up with your make-up
The jewel is in your heart,
and, girl, it's been there from the start
Look what Hollywood's paying, guys,
Now I'm not playing, right?
Now people are killing,
they're serial
While your just obsessing
with material
Hey media, whatchyoo saying'?
Sell your lies to the world
But I'M NOT PAYING
People, ask what matters here,
While you look in the mirror
Who's the preacher?
Go in deeper
**You buy what they sell
You wear what they tell**
But is it really worth it all
Is there Botox in Hell?
We've gotta ask ourselves
Really ask yourself
Where will I be taking
All these trends and this wealth?
What I'm saying: this is bogus
All this fashion hocus pocus
What you need is to refocus
And don't let society choke us
Now you've got an empty feeling
And your culture keeps on stealing
Your sinking deeper and deeper
While your cost just gets steeper
But wealth's not found inside your wallet
And it's about time someone called it
Happiness is only found when the masks all hit the ground
Don't live up to what they say,
You won't reach that anyway
The heart is what needs fixing
Not your hair, drop the bags
Tell the truth, show some love--
now that, my friends, that's swag
Let's get rich, people, let's get beautiful
Let's get real, and let's get valuable
Now listen to this, you People Mag
Seventeen, yo, this is rad:
Happiness is found one place
One thing will put a smile on that face,
All sorrow gone, without a trace
It's the love and the Truth
That will set you free
True class created you
Real value lives in me
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 12:01 AM UTC
The land beyond...
What lies out there?
What lingers, what dwells
Behind that veiling, icy air
My heart, curiously, draws near
As my feet stay their place
This cold window keeps me,
And, recreating my face
Like my own eerie shell
Looking coldly back at me,
The glass shows me myself,
And a world, wide and free
The land beyond...
What lies out there?
What journey awaits
Beyond that veiling, icy air
My life, there, is written,
In that novel land beyond
In that hazy world, uncharted,
Where my worries are all but gone
But it’s here that I remain
In the small, boxed-in cage
And it’s up to the Writer
When to turn the next page
Until then, the story waits
And I may not know destiny
I’ve never glimpsed fate
But the heart knows no lie,
Not of this, at any rate:
Its desire within,
The chapped thirst of the soul
lt just knows that it’s looking
For a new place to go
That land beyond...
What lies out there?
Well I may never know
But, well, I don’t really care
Because what if the longing, what if the dream,
What if the thirst,
Is not to know what it means?
Maybe the adventure,
The journey, the task,
Is not to know why, but simply to ask
A world lies ahead,
All the looking, the mystery,
And these few pages we’ve read
Herald something more interesting
We have not seen it all,
Explored what lies there beyond,
All we’ve to do now is begin
Cherish this page, and read on
And the pages beyond...
What’s written there?
The truth is, quite frankly,
I don’t know and don’t care
I’ll let the Writer turn the pages,
Let His words take me there
And I’ll just smile and read,
Breathing in the veiling, icy air
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 4:05 PM UTC
So there's this girl...
And her name is Misery.
_________________
My heart was boxed
I had hid the key
Until the lock she picked
granted entry
Her hands were warm
When they grabbed my heart
But when she released,
The thing fell apart
I found some pieces,
Bound them all
My love looked away,
With no care at all
So here I am,
Still gathering pieces
Red, ripped, and torn,
Please hold them, Jesus
All it takes
Is the thought of her
To see her smile
Through teary blur
To hear her voice,
So sweet and warm,
Throws me right back out
Into the raging storm
Of thundering pain,
And pouring tears
O, if love can die,
It must take years
So here I am,
Still scrambling for shreds
Of my cold, beating heart,
Torn, ****** and red
But I know there's a Mender
That will stitch every thread
Of my heart back to whole
For I trust what God said
I'll wait for a Mender
Who'll bring peace to my soul
At God's nod, she'll come fill this
Jagged, gaping black hole
In time, He'll send a Mender
Who will heal every wound
She will mend with a smile
That's as bright as the moon
In time, He'll send a Mender
To repair every seam
When I gaze into her eyes
I will witness Heaven's gleam
Apr 30, 2015
Apr 30, 2015 at 3:28 PM UTC
Sometimes we all just feel like giving up
Sometimes we feel like we're just too far gone
To be welcome by the One who made it all
So far we fall
But the truth is He loves us through it all
And the truth is we can never fall
Where we are too far gone
Where we're too far gone
You're never too far gone
Sometimes the walls press in on us too hard
Sometimes we break into the dark beyond
And when life is hitting harder than you're strong
It won't let up
But don't give up!
The truth is He loves us through it all
And the truth is we can never fall
Where we are too far gone (gone)
Where we're too far gone (gone)
You're never too far gone
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 3:01 PM UTC
Remember us?
Remember then?
Those days we were the best of friends
Our hearts were close
And our bond was strong
But placement of my hope was wrong
Remember us?
Remember when?
I thought our love would never end
You took my heart
Made me believe
But now it's hard to even see
Once you felt
And once you cared
What of the passion that we shared?
That love is gone
No you and me
I think of you and I can't breathe
I've lost a precious part of me
Losing you has always been
Among my greatest fears
To have what you and I had then
I yearn with every tear
I miss the tie that we had then
And think of what we could have been
I love you now
As I did then
For you were my most cherished friend
Now, as I try to get my head clear,
I'm hopelessly wishing those days were still here
Each thought of you is
A brand new tear
While I'm left alone wishing
That you were still here
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 8:08 PM UTC