abi3 - Hello Poetry

I'll wait until it's over Until your clouds have cleared And you can see the light once again I promise I'll stay for however long that takes You won't be alone Not even for a day.

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Feb 27, 2016

Feb 27, 2016 at 1:22 PM UTC

Stay

I'll wait until it's over Until your clouds have cleared And you can see the light once again I promise I'll stay for however long that takes You won't be alone Not even for a day.

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*They don't care Because they don't see How the words hurt Get under your skin Rip your skin open So the blood can flow out They won't care But I will They won't care Until they see Until they see the scars The burns The bruises Until they see how much you're hurting They won't care But I will They can't understand Why you picked up the blade They can't understand why you would do that They see the world as black and white Good is good Bad is bad There world makes sense Ours doesn't They won't understand when they see the pain and the scars They won't understand that girl who cuts to cope with her demons They won't understand that boy who cuts so he feels something, anything at all They don't care They won't care They don't understand But that's okay Because I do.*

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Sep 4, 2015

Sep 4, 2015 at 5:30 PM UTC

Care

*They don't care Because they don't see How the words hurt Get under your skin Rip your skin open So the blood can flow out They won't care But I will They won't care Until they see Until they see the scars The burns The bruises Until they see how much you're hurting They won't care But I will They can't understand Why you picked up the blade They can't understand why you would do that They see the world as black and white Good is good Bad is bad There world makes sense Ours doesn't They won't understand when they see the pain and the scars They won't understand that girl who cuts to cope with her demons They won't understand that boy who cuts so he feels something, anything at all They don't care They won't care They don't understand But that's okay Because I do.*

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It's such pretty paint The canvas lies in wait It's takes one cut, then another She marks the canvas Putting her soul into it Signing it with her tears.

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Sep 4, 2015

Sep 4, 2015 at 5:19 PM UTC

Painting Life

It's such pretty paint The canvas lies in wait It's takes one cut, then another She marks the canvas Putting her soul into it Signing it with her tears.

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*Gaining solace in the words of others My mind begins to slow Although the blood still flows I begin to heal Second by second Minute by minute Day by day So maybe one day I'll be okay*

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Mar 3, 2015

Mar 3, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC

Recovery

*Gaining solace in the words of others My mind begins to slow Although the blood still flows I begin to heal Second by second Minute by minute Day by day So maybe one day I'll be okay*

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*I'm sorry I didn't know what too say I'm sorry I tried too late I'm sorry you're gone I'll never forget you I just wanted you to know this I want you know that I loved you You were one of my closest friends I'm sorry that I can't say anything now I'm sorry that so many people will never get the chance to know you I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to stop you I'm sorry that I'll never talk to you again I'm sorry that you're gone too soon*

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Jan 5, 2015

Jan 5, 2015 at 7:37 PM UTC

Sorry

*I'm sorry I didn't know what too say I'm sorry I tried too late I'm sorry you're gone I'll never forget you I just wanted you to know this I want you know that I loved you You were one of my closest friends I'm sorry that I can't say anything now I'm sorry that so many people will never get the chance to know you I'm sorry that I couldn't find the words to stop you I'm sorry that I'll never talk to you again I'm sorry that you're gone too soon*

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*Tears rushing down my face I’m messed up in my head Running circles in my brain Trying to get out Cutting deeper every time First the knife and then the blade I’m a lost cause and I know it Stressing out about the world Running raged in my head Carving words into my flesh Cause there seared into my brain Cutting deeper each night Past the skin, past the bone Trying to draw the sickness out, but its seeped into my bones Heading spinning, running in circles anyway Starving each morning Starving each night Hungry to bed makes me light Voices screaming in my head Drowning out the thoughts*

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Dec 29, 2014

Dec 29, 2014 at 7:25 PM UTC

Messed up

*Tears rushing down my face I’m messed up in my head Running circles in my brain Trying to get out Cutting deeper every time First the knife and then the blade I’m a lost cause and I know it Stressing out about the world Running raged in my head Carving words into my flesh Cause there seared into my brain Cutting deeper each night Past the skin, past the bone Trying to draw the sickness out, but its seeped into my bones Heading spinning, running in circles anyway Starving each morning Starving each night Hungry to bed makes me light Voices screaming in my head Drowning out the thoughts*

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*The knife cuts as do the words Blood rushes out Frees the pain, frees the girl Pain stops and the numbness begins Head spins, brain dies Crying carelessly Tears seep out Drying on her checks Wondering why she started Knowing she can’t stop The knife cuts her skin Fears drip out Breath stops Lips tremble Dreams fade away as demons break through her skin Killing her slowly*

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Dec 7, 2014

Dec 7, 2014 at 4:42 PM UTC

Kinfe

*The knife cuts as do the words Blood rushes out Frees the pain, frees the girl Pain stops and the numbness begins Head spins, brain dies Crying carelessly Tears seep out Drying on her checks Wondering why she started Knowing she can’t stop The knife cuts her skin Fears drip out Breath stops Lips tremble Dreams fade away as demons break through her skin Killing her slowly*

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*For me it's like suddenly nothing matters any more and trying to do anything becomes impossible. It makes me feel numb sometimes so I cut to feel, or its makes me so anxious and I cut to calm myself. Other times it makes the stupidest things seem so incredibly important. Makes me unable to cope and worry about everything, makes me paranoid that everyone hates me. It makes me consider suicide, makes me want to disappear and never be seen again. It makes me want to rip my hair out and peel back my skin. It makes me want to be someone else anyone else. Then it goes away for a little while and I feel calm again, I feel like I can cope and I feel like suddenly I'll be okay, everything will be fine. Then like a strong cloud it comes back and ruins everything.*

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Nov 19, 2014

Nov 19, 2014 at 3:09 PM UTC

Depression

*For me it's like suddenly nothing matters any more and trying to do anything becomes impossible. It makes me feel numb sometimes so I cut to feel, or its makes me so anxious and I cut to calm myself. Other times it makes the stupidest things seem so incredibly important. Makes me unable to cope and worry about everything, makes me paranoid that everyone hates me. It makes me consider suicide, makes me want to disappear and never be seen again. It makes me want to rip my hair out and peel back my skin. It makes me want to be someone else anyone else. Then it goes away for a little while and I feel calm again, I feel like I can cope and I feel like suddenly I'll be okay, everything will be fine. Then like a strong cloud it comes back and ruins everything.*

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*Once upon a time When I was a little child Life was butterflies and sunshine The monsters didn’t bother me Then I turned 15 The butterflies turned to dust and the sunshine became darkness*

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Oct 27, 2014

Oct 27, 2014 at 2:55 PM UTC

Little child

*Once upon a time When I was a little child Life was butterflies and sunshine The monsters didn’t bother me Then I turned 15 The butterflies turned to dust and the sunshine became darkness*

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*See that girl there The overweight one The one with scars on her legs Do you know what caused them? You did You called her fat, worthless, stupid So she carved it into her skin The word fat on her ankle Worthless on her hip And stupid on her arm She cuts daily to let the demons out Hurts herself so she doesn’t hurt others She stops talking Stops eating Stops breathing Stops living Thinks the worlds better off that way*

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Oct 26, 2014

Oct 26, 2014 at 6:30 PM UTC

That girl

*See that girl there The overweight one The one with scars on her legs Do you know what caused them? You did You called her fat, worthless, stupid So she carved it into her skin The word fat on her ankle Worthless on her hip And stupid on her arm She cuts daily to let the demons out Hurts herself so she doesn’t hurt others She stops talking Stops eating Stops breathing Stops living Thinks the worlds better off that way*

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