my friend called me and told me about how he finally kissed the girl he likes and it made me think about how lonely i am and how long it's been since ive kissed someone and been held and felt truly happy because of another person and it's like im me!!! i worked so hard to realize how great i am and what i deserve because of that and it's like no one else realizes it you know... it's like hello!!! i am right here waiting to be loved
Sep 20, 2015
Sep 20, 2015 at 9:36 PM UTC
2 months ago we were watching the stars and you were holding me, i was so happy i asked the universe "please please please stop expanding in this immense void stop the time stop everything as it is now"
1 month ago i went on a long car ride with some sad memories in my pocket and some happy ones and i was so lost in my own mind i didn't hear you call
2 weeks ago i was laughing so hard my tummy hurt and my friends were dancing drunk and i really thought everything was perfect
i guess the universe will never listen
now it's 2am and i can't sleep so im eating cold mashed potatoes out of the tiniest box with the tiniest spoon and i am sad with no socks sitting on the floor of my kitchen and i can't help but wonder why time moves so fast
Jul 21, 2015
Jul 21, 2015 at 2:57 AM UTC
its weird where i see poetry these days. like…theres a better way to say it than that. but im always shocked to see poetry in a bucket of bone colored paint or in a mess around a dumpster or in the dryer lint. i see it in your avoidance and in the jokes i’ve learned to make. i see it in scuffed boots and missing keys on a keyboard. i still see it in celestial beings. i still see it in the face of everyone i talk to. but now i see it everywhere and its almost overwhelming but at the same time i’m glad. because even the ********* things can be okay if you look at them right.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC
it's so surreal that at 12:19 a few months ago I would have been crying and complaining about how bad I have it and at 12:19 tonight I am probably the happiest I have ever been because I decided I should stop feeling sorry for my self and maybe actually enjoy life and there are tears streaming down my face as I type this but they're the happy kind i am so proud of how far I've gotten and how far im going to go i finally love myself and i am confident and oh my goodness i can't believe i'm where i am everything is so good
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 1:21 AM UTC
I miss you so much but you were never mine to miss in the first place why don't you talk to me anymore can't you see it's tearing me apart please come back
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 11:30 PM UTC
somewhere in between beginning to pick up the pieces and trying to figure out what the hell broke in the first place
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 1:00 AM UTC
why are thoughts of no one but you always on my mind at this time of night
i can't get you out of my head
i etched your name in every
journal i've ever owned
my hands are aching
i'm all out of ink
Aug 23, 2014
Aug 23, 2014 at 4:06 AM UTC
**** hickies on top of old bruises so the aches don't fade away
curl up beneath tear soaked sheets and sleep for the whole day
this is the pain that does not heal
these are the wounds that always stay
paint over the street signs and burn all the maps you'll find your own ******* way
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 12:38 AM UTC
when I got sick I couldn't remember what it felt like to be healthy
sometimes I think you were my illness
I forgot what it felt like to be without you but now I remember
and I feel so much better
Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 12:27 PM UTC
everyone keeps asking why I let you back into my life and honestly I don't know either because every time I let you crawl under my skin and into my veins you poison me and I regret it but nothing ever changes I always welcome you with open arms and you always have a knife hidden behind your back maybe I do it because I'm weak or insecure but I think it's because nothing feels as good as the way you hurt me
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC