a-thought - Hello Poetry

I drive them away. I break my patterns and make them fear me. I lose interest and slip into apathy. I hide behind closed doors and bright screens. I sleep. I can't sleep. I use music as my drug until I get no relief. I find other drugs to feel anything. I wait for the day to pass and hope for meaning. I stop hoping. I stop caring. They stop caring.

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Dec 21, 2014

Dec 21, 2014 at 5:43 AM UTC

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I drive them away. I break my patterns and make them fear me. I lose interest and slip into apathy. I hide behind closed doors and bright screens. I sleep. I can't sleep. I use music as my drug until I get no relief. I find other drugs to feel anything. I wait for the day to pass and hope for meaning. I stop hoping. I stop caring. They stop caring.

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Holy verses in her kiss She was your bible You found nature in her lips Her love was tribal She gave purpose to your hips Your soul's revival Such a hopeful Eve But the apple let you down She played you fast, used her whip No slow recital You waited for her to call in But no arrival For your own safety, fled the strip Your own survival Gave it up for her But only just to let you down Now you want to run wild Your heart's been dragged from left to right Your soul's in limbo To suffocate your open mind She closed the window And now revenge is in your eyes You cannot win though Such a hopeful Eve But the apple let you down In bed, replace the broken lies But keep the pillow Fill up the space between your thighs Empty crescendo Pleasure and pain become your life Your special syndrome Gave it up for her But only just to let you down And now you want to run wild Now you want to run wild.

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Dec 20, 2014

Dec 20, 2014 at 2:08 AM UTC

Run Wild (edit)

Holy verses in her kiss She was your bible You found nature in her lips Her love was tribal She gave purpose to your hips Your soul's revival Such a hopeful Eve But the apple let you down She played you fast, used her whip No slow recital You waited for her to call in But no arrival For your own safety, fled the strip Your own survival Gave it up for her But only just to let you down Now you want to run wild Your heart's been dragged from left to right Your soul's in limbo To suffocate your open mind She closed the window And now revenge is in your eyes You cannot win though Such a hopeful Eve But the apple let you down In bed, replace the broken lies But keep the pillow Fill up the space between your thighs Empty crescendo Pleasure and pain become your life Your special syndrome Gave it up for her But only just to let you down And now you want to run wild Now you want to run wild.

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I cling to the edge of the cliff I'm grasping Waiting for them to take my hand To pull me It's funny how I got here though I'm laughing I reached out mine to all of them They used me I gave up my own weight for theirs I'm falling I could not let them fall instead They left me I loved so I could have a friend I'm lonely They never asked me to help them I'm failing To understand that I have no one to blame but myself

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Dec 19, 2014

Dec 19, 2014 at 8:46 AM UTC

Scale

I cling to the edge of the cliff I'm grasping Waiting for them to take my hand To pull me It's funny how I got here though I'm laughing I reached out mine to all of them They used me I gave up my own weight for theirs I'm falling I could not let them fall instead They left me I loved so I could have a friend I'm lonely They never asked me to help them I'm failing To understand that I have no one to blame but myself

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Tag's the game Miles by train Trane on miles Climb over hills Of snap cymbals Ivory falls Walkin' walls Lifting walks Always around the B tree Up and down they find me Springing in the brass reed Can't control your own feet But just passing through Workin' blue

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Dec 19, 2014

Dec 19, 2014 at 8:33 AM UTC

Tag

Tag's the game Miles by train Trane on miles Climb over hills Of snap cymbals Ivory falls Walkin' walls Lifting walks Always around the B tree Up and down they find me Springing in the brass reed Can't control your own feet But just passing through Workin' blue

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Weights surround Falling sideways, never down Thoughts drawn to the arm Get out, find friends, no more scars Walking, leave the body and see Don't want to stay anymore, be One more day, make it one more Time stands still, a second an hour In apathy, we hope... no. Goodbye. Can't cope.

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Dec 10, 2014

Dec 10, 2014 at 11:32 AM UTC

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Weights surround Falling sideways, never down Thoughts drawn to the arm Get out, find friends, no more scars Walking, leave the body and see Don't want to stay anymore, be One more day, make it one more Time stands still, a second an hour In apathy, we hope... no. Goodbye. Can't cope.

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You cannot expect anyone to love you You cannot make them care by will alone Instead you are alone, you always were Even during the illusion, delusion And you don't need anyone else

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Dec 10, 2014

Dec 10, 2014 at 11:30 AM UTC

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You cannot expect anyone to love you You cannot make them care by will alone Instead you are alone, you always were Even during the illusion, delusion And you don't need anyone else

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We were infants Trying to stand Trying to talk Seeing the world for the first time. Six months and we grew Learning, discovering Looking for purpose But still stuck in our minds. One year and we were children Believing we knew All there was to know But still filled with wonder. Finding the first sadness Peace in companionship Hope for the future And somehow life inbetween. Two years and we were adults Each others' first "Happy," used so often "Love," thrown back and forth. In the cracks, underneath Darkness spilling Pain and confusion Joining but tearing. Three years and we were dead Hope gone, innocence lost Liquid life had taken ours And pain was all it left. But I am not I live. And I realize that Love was something you never gave, There was no we, only me And we did not live, or love. Rather, I did. I do.

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Dec 8, 2014

Dec 8, 2014 at 3:17 PM UTC

A Life

We were infants Trying to stand Trying to talk Seeing the world for the first time. Six months and we grew Learning, discovering Looking for purpose But still stuck in our minds. One year and we were children Believing we knew All there was to know But still filled with wonder. Finding the first sadness Peace in companionship Hope for the future And somehow life inbetween. Two years and we were adults Each others' first "Happy," used so often "Love," thrown back and forth. In the cracks, underneath Darkness spilling Pain and confusion Joining but tearing. Three years and we were dead Hope gone, innocence lost Liquid life had taken ours And pain was all it left. But I am not I live. And I realize that Love was something you never gave, There was no we, only me And we did not live, or love. Rather, I did. I do.

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