I was reminded
About a distant memory
And realized
One vital thing
After growing up
As I felt the room
Grew silence
For my overbearing energy
That being righteously
In spotlight
Doesn't all mean extroversion.
All along,
It meant more
And it is all what I lack
And it is all that I have
To wake up
And stop getting wistful
Believing I am more than
A wallflower.
Oct 6, 2024
Oct 6, 2024 at 5:58 PM UTC
๐ธ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐...how love is but gold. That heartaches and heartbreaks will refine the love that you possess in yourself...for you and for the people you will be giving it to.
I am not perfect. I have caused plenty of loses for too many people. I might even be counted as one of their traumas when it comes to their past relationships. I got no excuse for it.
But I refuse to get stuck from those toxic traits. I know my present deserve every bit of best of myself. All those problems I failed to solve, those past mistakes and misjudgements of situations- I refuse to let those lessons go unlearned. It would be a disrespect for all the past history I had with great people if it wouldn't all complimented my relationship today.
Who I am today may not be the same as who I was yesterday but it reflected my character and I thank them all for everything they shared with me. If not for them, I won't mature in more ways than I can count. If not for them, I won't be able to treat myself and my present relationship right.
I believe people aren't missing jigsaw puzzles especially the ones we love dearly today. They aren't obligated to complete us at all. We are the ones responsible to complete what's missing in ourselves and they will only serve as our guide as much as we serve the same favor to them. That's why there's nothing special about someone who can understand you or make efforts for you, it's not special because it's actually what we deserve to be given just as much as we give it to them all along.
But possessing a grateful heart inside a relationship really does the trick. Because of it we learn to be a giver and to be thankful of everything we receive. We learn to be thankful for the person we have been blessed to spend our lives with indefinitely, if not forevermore.
Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 1:32 PM UTC
โI don't think I could ever write anything again. Maybe I can write about you?โ I carefully peeked through the book I was reading just to barely see a couple emotions passed by your beautiful face while you watched television. Then, before you'd even meet my eyes, I have went back into reading the book you've recommended me on one hot afternoon during our chat in telegram. โDon't just focus about me. As I've told you before you are a great writer and everything you make will always be beautiful no matter the subject.โ The tone of your voice sounded as firm as your belief like always and even at the face of uncertainty towards my writing career, it made me smile no less. โYou never come short of giving me the boost I needed.โ I have finally set the book down after I confessed to my woes and just like when you knew there was something that bothered me before we went to bed, your slender fingers have found their way to my face and gently nestled there. โI know what you're capable of and I believe in your talent. I am always a fan of your works.โ I felt like a kid under your warm gaze that I easily melt further inside when you planted a soft kiss on my forehead. I chuckled though, right after I saw your adorable puckered lips which was the sign that I must return your little gift. So, with my full height towering over, I pulled you in a brief but sweet kiss.
Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 1:28 PM UTC
i see you sitting there
a few feet from where i'm sleeping
the wind caressing your hair
your right hand's busy scribbling.
the weather all bright and good
birds chirping from the distant wood
i just lay here in bed unmoving
memorizing the moment unfolding.
tho you might have noticed me looking
'cos you turn to me smiling
brightening up the room more than ever
i just want it to last forever.
then you walk up to me with grace
eyes holding on to my gaze
you snuggled and hold me close
our bodies molding like petalsโ rose.
and when i feel you smiling in my neck
that makes me all ticklish and weak
it is also making me braver
i hope you'll always remember.
Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 1:09 PM UTC
i don't tell it so often
about how i needed you
nor do i write it with pen
on how i love you so.
we have been through mountains
we have been through rains
yet we never known to give up
no, you always stand us up.
i may not say it so loudly
you may not see it from me
but as long as i'm beside you
you'll have my heart so true.
this i promise you..
i love you.
Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 1:05 PM UTC
At the very end of the forest you will see
A lonesome silhouette standing in the sea
It seems gazing at the infinite horizon
While bathing under the vivid light of the moon
It was clearly a silhouette of a person
A maiden with a hair that was adored by dawn
And a body of an hour glass in the unknown
Sparkling as though diamond on a podium
But it is not what peaks my curiosity
It was the feeling that surged through me
Like seeing a very candid photography
Void with lies and ambiguity
But when I tried to reach out to the lady
She recoils from me instinctively
Now my thirst to know her identity
Burns in my throat painfully
Aug 19, 2021
Aug 19, 2021 at 12:57 PM UTC
And she realizes
What a mess
She has become
For trying to gain
Everyone's approval
That even
Her shadow
Left her
In the dark.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 6:07 AM UTC
Go play in the light
Monsters filled the dark
Stroll under the morning sky
And dont go out watching the moon shines
Rest to bed early
Do not mind the noises
Calling to wake thee
Do not let the shadows
To dance with you in glee
They are deceiving you
That its fun to have them only
As your friend and confidante
Let tears flow freely
And sounds of cries be free
Do not make peace with darkness
Do not be lulled by them in daze
So they wont taint your soul
And abduct you in a box called cell
Because the moment you do
You will grow into someone else
With chains and mask out of your will
And be stuck in that dark cold cell
For how long? I do not know
But I know for sure, child
That once you get out of there
You will no longer see the sunlight
As that shines beautifully in all its glory
For the moon will be the one and only
In your world that shines
Where your friend, The Shadows
And Darkness resides.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 6:03 AM UTC
I miss your morning kisses
And how you look pretty with your bed hair
I miss our morning coffees
And how you smile at me as you lay here
I miss your cooking โ 'twas so heart warming
And whenever you're in the bathroom singing
I miss how you sound groggy in the morning
And how you sleep like a baby during evening
I miss those plump lips on mine
And when our fingers intertwine
I miss your cute little whinings
And those fun sleep talkings
I miss how your heart sounds
And how my heart just pounds
I miss how we mess around for hours
And those childish mini wars of ours
I too miss the kind of comfort you brought me
And those small out-of-this-world talks in glee
I miss everything really
I just misses you badly
I miss you here with me
I miss us together truly
I love you ever so deeply
I love the idea of you and me
So come home to me quickly
Cos I'll be here waiting for you happily
For this heart wants you only
And it'll be ****** if you're far away.
Jun 9, 2017
Jun 9, 2017 at 10:02 PM UTC
I still vividly imagine how;
You were surrounded with swirling color,
When you stood in the middle of rainfall;
Not minding that its still in the afternoon
And all I could mutter was, "Beautiful."
And d'you remember when,
You're playing like a child in a public shower?
Just simply enjoying the falling cold water;
While not minding everyone's whisper.
It's "Candid," and 'twas all I could utter.
Especially that moment when,
You've given the starry sky your full attention,
As you close the book you'll finish later on
While shutting your eyes for appreciation.
And all I could utter was, "What a turn on."
Ah, yes,
Smiling is your way for your scars to heal
Always thanking every bits of love you feel
While empathizing to every relation that would fail
Yet all I could asked you was, "Are you even real?"
โฆ
But you just smiled and said, "Back on the title."
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 4:57 AM UTC