I want to breathe your flowers.
To take in your thoughts and extending vines of knowledge.
Your intoxicating grace captivates me.
It surely captivates everyone around you
and it captivates our friends.
They gravitate towards you
and I can't blame them.
You're beautiful,
smart,
funny,
charismatic,
and pretty much every other good thing about a person.
I am nowhere in comparison.
You don't have to deal with the intrusive thoughts
or the breakdowns that appear out of thin air
or the weight of not being enough.
You don't have to deal with the weight comments,
or the acne tips from everyone you know,
or the intense burn of insecurity when you wear anything restricting.
No, you're perfect,
and I'm fundamentally broken.
Everyone will cry when you're gone
but no one will bring a flower to my grave.
Oct 27, 2020
Oct 27, 2020 at 11:09 PM UTC
I hate the way you laugh
I hate the way you smile
I hate the way you kiss
I hate how you’d rather just sit back and talk for a while
I hate the way you look at me
I hate when you don’t look at all
I hate when you remind me of my wrongs
I hate how I feel so small
I hate the way you make me feel
and most of all I hate how I don’t hate you at all
Feb 19, 2020
Feb 19, 2020 at 10:59 AM UTC
one word
it’s enough to hurt me.
it’s not your typical insult,
nor is it mean.
it’s a name...
that one single name
can slice a new cut into my heart,
make my eyes prickle with tears
and make my throat feel like i have barbed wire wrapped around it.
if only i had been enough for that name to not exist
Feb 19, 2020
Feb 19, 2020 at 10:53 AM UTC
when you’re gone,
i miss you.
when you’re here,
i’m too nervous to be myself.
when you’re gone,
i have confidence.
when you’re here,
i hide in my shell.
isn’t it ironic?
Jun 9, 2019
Jun 9, 2019 at 1:33 AM UTC
death,
pain,
love,
heartbreak,
failure,
and abandonment.
they say it’s inevitable.
are we inevitable
or are we forever?
May 29, 2019
May 29, 2019 at 11:13 AM UTC
my muscles tense
and i clench my teeth.
holding back what i’m thinking,
what i truly want to say.
“i want you to be mine.
stop giving me half and half,
like bits and pieces here and there!”
but i can’t bring myself to say it.
nothing is said,
because you’re just out of reach.
besides, you’re with a girl much prettier than me.
so why worry about something that isn’t worth it?
because you’re worth something to me.
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 8:51 AM UTC
when will it stop?
these teardrops,
the downpour?
the rain beats on my back
as it mixes with my tears.
i can’t make it through the storm alone
so please stay with me.
i don’t want to get wet with rain
and tremble with cold.
it’s just a passing downpour,
i tell myself.
i won’t let it stay like this,
i can’t.
i need to be dry,
i need to be happy.
what happens when i stay in the rain?
i will let it win the war,
and the rain melts me away.
slowly and softly,
so no one notices me gone until it’s too late.
Apr 29, 2019
Apr 29, 2019 at 8:51 AM UTC
the stolen kisses,
the flirting,
the looks
and the lust.
we had it all.
we were the recipe for fun.
and we did have fun,
then you got a girlfriend.
and i was stuck with feelings,
feelings that i didn’t recognize until it was too late.
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 1:34 PM UTC
help,
i’m lost on the way back home again.
everybody knows,
our love is six feet under.
it’s a hostage love,
forced and closed off.
we are a secret that no one knows.
i’m breaking at the seams,
lost and confused,
abandoned by you.
but it’s not your fault.
its mine for falling so **** hard
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 12:26 PM UTC
1 year
4 seasons
12 months
52 weeks
365 days
8,760 hours
525,600 minutes
31,536,000 seconds
and i want to spend it all with you
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 2:35 AM UTC