The crackle in your chest, the wheezing of your breath
The open jaw sleep in the blue sheets of a hospital bed
The inability to keep your eyes open for more then a moment reminds me that the end is near.
The constant greed of not wanting to loose you leave almost over powers the love to let you go.
Almost.
The sound of your cough, the lifeless side of you, is too much for this heart to bare.
The memories of you teaching me how to bake bread, how to knit, how to nurture flood me, countless coffee hours, garden scrap crafts, the sleepovers, all our life.
Now you dont remember your blood in mine.
You dont remember the name you've given me, or the birthdays we shared.
Its okay to let you go, for I will carry your blood on, I will carry you throughout my life. My little candle has shined so bright, its time to give up the fight.
Dec 7, 2025
Dec 7, 2025 at 3:57 PM UTC
In the height of the lunch time hustle,
Espresso machine hissing,
The pastries evenly placed in the cabinet.
This place feels like home.
With a mom who bakes,
And a dad who cares,
A latte streamed to perfection
This place feels like a hug
This cozy nook craved out of the past,
Allows space for God to be heard,
And for the world to listen.
Welcome back.
Jul 29, 2025
Jul 29, 2025 at 2:59 PM UTC
For what once I finally thought would be an addition ended in an addiction.
The eyes that glow when we walk into the room,
The eyes that wander from across the room
But no words spoken.
And not because the blood isn't there
The desire of the affairs, the heat of the bodies..
But no words spoken.
The eyes still wander, the passion still lays, the hope for more and
The heartbreak to know it won't
But no words spoken.
Jul 19, 2025
Jul 19, 2025 at 11:32 PM UTC
I push your against your skin
As I sneak to get passed
I grabbed your face
To hold your tearing eyes close
The thoughts aren't as impure
As some would think
Just to say goodbye
Without a kiss
Jun 4, 2025
Jun 4, 2025 at 6:25 PM UTC
It's like they all left..
Projects half done..
A guarded gate, with nothing
But a latch.
The sign says welcome,
The iron disagrees.
Picnic tables wasting away,
Yet to host a family.
May 11, 2025
May 11, 2025 at 8:22 PM UTC
A moment together
Is not often enough
I craved the glance
Even for as slight as a moment
The passing of our skin
As you refill my drink
May 10, 2025
May 10, 2025 at 9:24 PM UTC
No, I don't want to leave you
Like they said I would
For failing your mission
But she wants to challenge you.
She rises up,
Sweat from the eyebrow
Dirt on the knees
Fingers callased
She comes for the soul
Piercing at a fragile ego
Leaving you weak or
Submitting to a man
May 8, 2025
May 8, 2025 at 9:25 PM UTC
Five trucks
Two trailers
Five hours
Two clients
Five forgotten memories
Two missed birthdays
Apr 26, 2025
Apr 26, 2025 at 11:11 PM UTC
As i drift into a
disassociate state,
Your yells become
Almost a calming
Background noise
of my quiet
simple life
As I drift into
The silence of my mind
The darkness
Covers me like
A warm shelter
Finally able to shake the shiver
From your aggressive roars
As I drift
The anger starts to dim
And
The sad fishing begins
"I'm sorry I'm the worst"
"I'll be better"
"You know I'll never hurt you tho right"
As i drift
i start to sink
Into a hopeless void
That maybe
The bite wouldn't be as bad
As the bark
Apr 25, 2025
Apr 25, 2025 at 11:55 AM UTC