"Fairy tales do not tell
Children that Dragons Exist.
"Children already know
Dragons Exist.
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 3:38 AM UTC
Alone in my head,
I'm feeling so low,
You wont understand,
No one can know.
My eyes are so tired,
I can't sleep at night,
Your face haunts my dreams,
When I turn out the light.
It happened so suddenly,
It happened so fast,
I knew all at once,
That none of this would last.
Was I just a game?
Was this all just for fun?
Did my feelings matter,
To anyone?
"This didn't mean anything",
That's what you said,
As I was so shamefully,
Getting up from your bed.
I held my head high,
As I walked by your side,
Tears welling up,
I was dying inside.
Weeks have passed,
Keeping secrets, telling lies,
I don't have the strength,
To look either of them in the eyes.
My heart has been broken,
Not once, but twice,
Once by my best friend,
Once by the love of my life.
Deep down inside,
I know it's my fault,
So I'm just going to lock it,
Away in my vault.
Sometimes I still think of you,
When I'm lying in bed,
Still all alone,
Inside of my head.
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 3:20 PM UTC
Here I am, stumbling down the street
The rain's pouring down
I'm staring at my feet
But splashing on my feet it is
my tears and not the rain
They're are salty and bloodstained
From my agonizing pain
Nobody could be more
mad at me than me
Why was I so stupid?
Never again will she trust me
She's asking me too many questions
Ones I want so much to ignore
But I've brought this on myself
What else could I have been asking for?
When I think about the way things are
The tears roll down my face
If only I could turn back time
I would've never ended up in this place.
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 3:12 PM UTC
She stood on the bridge
In silence and fear
For the demons of darkness
Had driven her here
They cut her heart
Right out of her chest
Making her believe
That the demons knew best
They were always there
Sometimes just out of sight
Waiting in the background
Till the time was right
These demons were destructive
Knocking down the life she knew
Hating everything about her
She hated herself too
These demons can't be seen
But they're far from fairy tales
They live inside your mind
Their evilness prevails
So on the bridge she stood
About to end the fight
Then she stopped and thought
I'll fight them one more night
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 3:06 PM UTC
The sadness drowns me.
The emptiness consumes my life.
We used to be so happy.
You were going to be my wife.
Everything went great,
Everything seemed perfect,
Till you went out late,
And my entire life got wrecked.
I got lost in your eyes.
I was dazed by your smile.
Now yet again I have to compromise.
I was suicidal for a while.
If there is one thing I learned
From all of this darkness in my life,
It's that every angel out of heaven needs to be returned,
And I know I will see you in the afterlife.
You brought me smiles, you brought me tears.
I gave you happiness, I gave you scars,
But together we overcame all our fears
And stayed up all night staring at the stars.
You gave me wisdom in the lowest of places.
You gave me faith in the darkest of days.
You gave me peace no matter the race.
You gave me love in more than one way.
So for now I will stay true.
You are my one and only,
For I can't find anyone like you,
And finally I don't feel lonely...
May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 1:46 PM UTC
I wish that I could talk to you,
and beg you not to go.
I wish I asked what you were going through,
but now I'll never know.
I wish that I had some warning
of what you'd do that night,
and that you'd given me a chance to save you,
to help you make things right.
I wish that you could've soldiered on,
and worked through the pain.
If you had, I promise you,
you would've been happy one day.
I wish that the last time I saw you
I didn't rush away.
I wish that I had hugged you harder,
and told you I loved you that day.
I wish that I could bring you back
to see you one last time,
to hug you close, to hear your voice,
and then the world would be fine.
But all these things can't ever happen,
the nightmares are all about you.
There's not one thing I can change,
because these wishes will never come true.
May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 1:39 PM UTC
Just a girl with know one by her side,
People care and urge to help she just wont open her eyes.
The only help she feels she needs is another cigarette,
Knowing it'll help for only a short while not sure how far shell get.
She just wanted a shoulder to cry on and someone that wouldn't leave her.
She's to blind to see that he has been here waiting as she asked of him,
Scared of his choices he has made she refuses to let him in.
She opens her eyes and know one in sight just how she had imagined,
Just as her eyes close she hears his voice and wonders how this has happened.
He stuck through to the end hoping she could hear his desperate cries,
"Your not the only one who's been locking people out there whole lives."
She feels a sense of love but she could never be sure,
She hates to hear that awful foreign word.
Love...
She leaves him a note,
My Dearest I will forever be with you in your heart,
But here is where I must depart.
She closes her eyes and hope for the worst,
But she didn't realize he's the one who jumped first.........
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 4:05 PM UTC
To the love of my life
though fate never allowed me to make you my wife.
When we met so many years ago
it was love at first sight that I know.
I loved you so much and for only you I cared
but with you those feelings I never shared.
Then I learned for another you cared.
To come between you I never dared.
Not because I did not want to
but because I wanted happiness for you.
Then to the arms of another I did go
but with her, love I never did know.
For this I now know that I was wrong
for all these years your love I've longed.
Of you I have thought throughout the years.
For you I have shed so many tears.
So long ago I solemnly vowed
to tell of my love if fate allowed.
Our paths crossed again not so long ago.
I remembered the vow of my love you should know.
Before I could tell you, you gave a surprise.
You told me you loved me and brought tears to my eyes.
You told of your love and how much you cared
how you felt sad that this you had not shared.
You said that you felt you had told me too late
But it is you I love and never could hate
All this time I have dreamed of your touch
To know you wanted the same means so much.
We have shared so much from the present and past.
I have hoped so much that this would last.
You have told me that what we want is wrong
How can this be when we have loved so long?
Something happened and we fell apart
Crushing my dreams and breaking my heart.
To love you was a gift from above.
The gift of time, the gift of love.
My heart won't allow me to let you go,
it wants and misses you so.
I tried to leave to mend the pain,
but it is about to drive me insane.
Saddened and hurting my heart goes on
knowing again that you are gone.
Please know that this is how I truly feel
because twice in my life you have made it all real.
I know you had feelings that you just would not show.
I know that it hurts when you want to let go.
My actions say yes but your heart still says no.
I have always known that you are the one for me.
I still believe though you say it can't be.
There is one thing that I have to say
I love you too much to just walk away.
We said goodbye but I want you to know.
Goodbye is goodbye but not forever though.
I hope...............
Apr 26, 2016
Apr 26, 2016 at 2:50 PM UTC
The day I met you,
my life changed.
The way you make me feel is hard to explain.
You make me smile in a special kind of way.
You make me fall in love with you more,
every single day.
Apr 21, 2016
Apr 21, 2016 at 10:40 AM UTC
There once was a time if I just closed my eyes,
I could see us together as one.
But after these years of growing apart,
I can see that dream is done.
You were the one who knew me inside and out,
And always knew just what to say.
Any problems I had would disappear,
When you said it would all be okay.
There was always a special connection with us,
And these days it seems to be gone.
Whatever we had died a long time ago,
But it's just so hard to move on.
Those times I'd drown in the blue of your eyes,
You never noticed a thing.
There were nights I laid awake and thought,
Of the love our friendship could bring.
No matter how hard I've been trying,
The truth is so hard to see.
I guess it takes a while to let go,
Of something not meant to be.
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC