To the nights
When thoughts become to loud
Making me loose my sleep
Thinking why is it has to be this way
From thinking why it had to be that way
To the nights
When I am too numb to even fall asleep
When I can't even feel my heartbeat
From these thoughts taking over me
To the moment when I can't breath
To the nights
From wanting this feeling to last forever
To end this by all means
From screaming till I can't breath
But deciding to stay silent till i suffer in deep.
To the nights
When I cry till I fall asleep
To staring at the ceiling till the night leaves
From rembering every mistake
To rembering why everyone who left without saying goodbye.
To the nights
When I wish I could just die
To wanting to have this feeling till it takes over me
From thinking about every person who left me
To realising how I lost myself along the way.
To the nights
With scattering thoughts.
Mar 7, 2020
Mar 7, 2020 at 5:49 AM UTC
Tell me that you love me even if it's a lie
Tell me you Won't leave me , even it's for a while
Hold me a little longer and make it seem right
Kiss me like it's first but make it last a night
And act like I am the one, even if it's till tonight.
Aug 6, 2019
Aug 6, 2019 at 1:27 PM UTC
Maybe I'll never find someone who truly understands me
And be with me , when all I am scattered broken glass
When I am too scared of even myself
Maybe I'll have to accept all the pain coming in my way
Just like I am still doing
Just the way most of us do
And just like the tears of pain never stop
Maybe I'll live forever in my perfect dreams
Like the ones , where everything seems too good
Which even make you wish to never wakeup again
Where everything happens according to the way you want
Maybe for a second I'll love the thought of being in love
Like the famous Romeo and Juliet
Like rose and Jake
And Like the poets falling in love with the words
Or maybe I'll keep longing for this till I die.
Like I always wish i was never born.
Nov 22, 2018
Nov 22, 2018 at 9:53 AM UTC
Crying myself at night
Things scattering in front of my eyes
Feeling the everlasting solitude behind my eyes
Living with the monsters inside my head
Trembling in the pain of this life
And blaming this endless life
Drowning in the painfull thoughts
With no one to see the pain behind
Who knew the night could be so scary
With the endless tears of being alive
Waiting for peace to take me away
But it seem like its far away.
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 4:45 AM UTC
Things aren't getting better
I still am not getting better
Hear my heart shattering
Still couldn't stop caring .
Living life as lifeless soul
Still u care about achieving goal.
I know u love some else
But I couldn't even love myself .
I wished you could see that I m crying
bleeding and the pain is over bearing
may be you will never know
But I still want u to know.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 11:07 PM UTC
Hold my stem, lest I spill sherry
Pour unto me the flavor of you;
My cold feet go into spree
Is unsteady, yet free to go.
Sep 14, 2017
Sep 14, 2017 at 11:20 AM UTC
Laugh an the world laughs with you
Weep and you weep alone
For the sea old earth must borrow its mirth
But has trouble of its own
Sing and the hills will answer
Sigh , it is lost in the air
The echoes bound to a joyful sound
But shrink from voicing care .
Rejoice and men will seek you
Grieve and they trun and go
They want all measure of all your pleasure
But they do not need your woe.
Be gald and your friends are many
Be sad and you lose them all
There are none to decline your nectured wine
But alone you must drink life's gale .
Aug 5, 2017
Aug 5, 2017 at 7:39 AM UTC
Just a drop of water in endless sea,
Just a girl in the world full of chaos,
Just a word finding hard to say,
Living in the illusion of her own dreams.
Living life as a lifeless soul,
Wearing mask of a heartless girl,
But no one to see the pain behind.
Excepting the fate of a broken heart,
No scars to show.
No tears to cry.
Believed as a perfect creature to love,
With no woes to make.
Jul 30, 2017
Jul 30, 2017 at 4:25 AM UTC