If I were to leave tomorrow
Would you notice?
If I disappeared before your eyes
How long before you searched for me?
You said our love was immeasurable
Yet you tried to rival it others
Was it ever enough for you?
The love I offered you
The gifts I handed you
----
If I could take it back
I would return to you
If I could see you again
I would run across the world
I made the worst mistake
When I turned my back
Every moment was perfection
When I was side by side
With You
----
I wish I could take it all back
I wish I could get you out of my head
Your touch haunts my every passing thought
Yet I miss it so
If only I could
Let it all go
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In my dreams
I see your face
I see your smile
I hear your laugh
I feel your lips
If only I could
Let it all go
Jul 8, 2022
Jul 8, 2022 at 4:48 PM UTC
How come I can never feel the same?
Always these differing thoughts
These feelings of emptiness
These thoughts of pain and loneliness
But the sudden jolts of joy
The bursts of energy and imagination
Why do they never go away?
I am always trapped
In my own head
In my own self-destruction
I can never escape it
It is persistently digging in my soul
Locking me away in a prison cell
Something I can only imagine
Yet never describe
Always there
But never tangible
Am I broken?
Am I damaged?
Or am I just human?
Jul 8, 2022
Jul 8, 2022 at 4:48 PM UTC
Take me from this realm
Take me to another place
Another home
Take me so I must not suffer anymore
Take me to a place I may be alone
Alone with my thoughts
Alone with my memories
Alone without pain
Take me somewhere
Somewhere I may live
Freely and safely
Take me somewhere
Somewhere I may live
Without fear
Without pain
Take me away
Away to a new home
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 6:19 PM UTC
Without your guiding light
I am lost
In the darkest room
With no way out
With no sunlight
Nor moonlight
The darkness is all consuming
Nothing survives the sea of black
Not even the light I tried to give you
To keep you happy
To keep us together
To keep me fighting
I have no way out
All I can do
Is sit in the darkness
And wait
Wait for the next person to come
For them to save me
Before I am lost
Jun 10, 2019
Jun 10, 2019 at 4:32 AM UTC
If my time has come
You may release me
If I have served my purpose
You may let me go
You may let go of me
And let me fall
Like a sack
Filled with bricks
Sinking to the bottom
Of the deepest pits of the ocean
Reaching my final resting place
You may turn me over to my fate
And let me slip from your grasp
I am no longer needed
So let me go
Let me rest
Let me go
Let me free
You keep me chained
Like a dog
Chained to your soul
To your mind and yours games
The games you play to hurt me
The games you play to crush me
To ruin me
If you have had your fun,
Let me go
Drop me like a piece of trash
Like a broken toy
You no longer want
Throw me out the window
Leave me on the side of the road
Maybe I'll become of use to someone new
Someone better
Just release me
And free me
Jun 6, 2019
Jun 6, 2019 at 3:30 PM UTC
I wish to love
I wish to feel
I wish to keep someone close to me
Close to my heart
I wish to love someone
I wish to cherish them
I wish to always keep them safe
And always warm them
And keep them happy
But I cannot
For when I believe that there may be something
I may be wrong and embarrass myself
For they may not have the same feelings I hold
For they may not think of me in the same way
For they may not desire to hold me close to them
As I wish to
Why do I not love?
Because love hurts
And I've been hurt far too much
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 5:06 AM UTC
Have you ever loved someone?
If you have
You know the feeling
The pure bliss
The joy
The overwhelming desire
The desire to love them
Be with them
And have them by your side
Always and forever
But you also know the feeling
Of having to let them go
When it doesn't work
Or there is no way
That you can be together
I know both of these feelings all too well
I know the joys it brings
I know the pains it brings
I know I can't have her
Nor can I have her pearly white smile
Nor can I have her precious soft blue eyes
Nor the perfect personality of hers
Nor her incredible body, even if she sees differently
Even if my love goes reciprocated
I will still always love her
With my soul, heart, and my entire life
Even for the love I cannot have
Apr 25, 2019
Apr 25, 2019 at 4:15 AM UTC
I fell asleep to the music and memories of you
I got high off the remnants of your lingering perfume
Caught in my jacket that you wore
They say we're all destined for one other
Thought that was you
Guess I was wrong
Do you remember the place we first met?
I do
My darkest times
My weakest of moments
You took me in
Fixed me and my broken soul
Healed me from my shattered self
You showed me the good in life
Just as I had seen the bad
I only found it got worse
You gave and gave
But little did I know
You could take and take just as easily.
I made many mistakes in my time
But there is one I regret above all
Meeting you
Guess you'll find me at the same place we first met
My darkest times
My weakest moments
And my broken heart
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 2:57 AM UTC
Are there times when you feel alone?
Lost in the world with nowhere to go
As if you have been cut off
From any and all forms of communications
With the outside world
And then the feelings come
The feelings of dread
The feelings of no escape
As if you are stuck inside a submarine
Sinking to the bottom of the ocean
Watching the slow descent
And your heart
It pounds for freedom
It yearns to feel free again
Free from these shackles
That are ripping at its strings
And crushing it to oblivion
That pain
It's like no physical pain
There is no morphine for it
You can't drug it away
And it hurts
It really does hurt
Feb 22, 2019
Feb 22, 2019 at 8:12 PM UTC
Love; what truly is love?
Is it when you want to have them solely for their body?
Nay; for that is lust, not love.
True love; what can truly define it?
Is it how much money someone has?
Nay; for that is greed, not love.
True love is not found in material possessions.
Rather, true love is found from within the person
Beneath their skin
Beneath any emotional armor they put forth
Once you crack their armor, and they willingly choose let you in, that is love
When the two of you can speak kindly, gently, and without reserve, all out in the open with nothing to hide
Love is when there are boundaries that have already been set and bound and aren't broken
Love isn't when one of the two wields a blade of steel, a sword of words, or a dagger of ultimatums against the other
That isn't love; for that is betrayal
Feb 13, 2019
Feb 13, 2019 at 8:28 PM UTC