Energy sizzles under my skin
Teeth clenched
Muscles ready to dive right in
Even water sits like a stone
In my stomach
Wants to come up from thoughts alone
Poised and ready with nowhere to go
Hands folded
I'm feeling ready to explode!
Anxious about what will come next
Eyes wet
Nothing to do but to progress
So tired but trying to go on
Body sore
Naps are nice but it won't last long
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 2:05 PM UTC
So much energy
Plenty to do
I can do anything
Except what I need to
My thoughts are a whirlwind
I want to escape
I can't drink liquor
When I'm working late
I can watch movies
Play games on my phone
Reorganize my desk
Sing a long song
When it comes to it
I'm just depressed
Life's going nowhere
Memories repressed
Keep pushing on
Take a deep breath
Practice mindfulness
Repair whats left
REMEMBER
There is only today
What I don't get done
Won't go away
Grab up that energy
Make a big push
Write a little poem
And GET OFF YOUR ****
Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 3:35 PM UTC
There once was a girl in a mood
She couldn't shake, so what to do?
To the keyboard
Writing up more
Poems to help her get through
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 2:06 PM UTC
Today is a rough day
I'm feeling all alone
There's some I could reach out to
But none will help me through it all
Nightmares and flashback are haunting me today
Visions of fear, helplessness and pain
Happy thoughts of mine just float away
Held back tears flow down like rain
I know those remembered time are over
Though I still feel vulnerable
No ones coming to throw me over their shoulder
But who's next to show me hell?
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 2:01 PM UTC
They say happiness comes from within
That’s what they say but in the past it hasn’t been
Now I’m expecting to win
Work real hard and turn away from the sins
But this isn’t working at all
I’m doing my best but still dropping the ball
Telling me to start small
What else can you do after a big fall!?
I don't know what to do
Plenty of talk but my choices are few
It's time to do something new
The first hardest step is to choose
Jul 5, 2017
Jul 5, 2017 at 12:56 PM UTC
I dreamt of you last night
And the night before
Your parting really wasn't right
Only way to hurt us more
I never stopped loving you
That's what hurts the most
I don't know if you loved me too
Now I'm haunted by your ghost
The dreams are always pleasant
Walking, talking bout the kids
After waking I just resent
All the ******** drugs and digs
I miss the you that I knew
Every single day
But in the end it wasn't you
And I can't give up today
Jul 5, 2017
Jul 5, 2017 at 12:47 PM UTC
Happy birthday to me
I really have to ***
I'll have another drink now
Dance til we're dizzy!
Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 11:09 AM UTC
Shaking in anticipation
Hoping no precipitation
Packing for the occasion
Then once I am on the go
Waiting because lines are slow
There on time? I don't know
Arriving taking it in
The salty sea upon my skin
Forgetting how things have been
Time to relax, time to play
On vacation I get my way
So for now I enjoy the day
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 12:53 PM UTC
Everything is happening too late
Wading through pools of anger and hate
Talking to people who can't relate
Patience is gone no time to wait
For me work is not going right
I wonder if it's out of spite
***** should watch out for my bite
This may end up in a fight!
Not really but what can I say
She needs to get out of my way
This isn't the time to play
Wrap it up and have a good day!
Feb 9, 2017
Feb 9, 2017 at 2:13 PM UTC
Some days all I feel is pain
Pouring down on me like rain
Feeling sorry for myself
and everyone else
Some days I feel so happy
Shining on me bright and snappy
Basking in all my love.
Snug as a glove
Some days I feel so angry
Perhaps, I am really hangry
Not my best mood
Needing food
Some days I feel it all
Terrified to wonderful
And in between
so it seems
Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 12:51 PM UTC