They say they want peace
while their actions scream otherwise
the people in power and their lies
Never see the corpses on the ground
Oppression occupation people starved
little girls with dreams exploded in a far away land
they said it was for the larger plan
yet no one ever see these evil men in the front lines
the old men refusing to let go
of the power they hold
acting blind as people scream them to stop
and it got me thinking of what Shakes said
Hell is empty and all the devil are here to stay
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 7:52 AM UTC
I've been living a Russian winter
since you packed your bags
and took the sunshine
with you when you left
the letters you wrote
the pictures taken
over the years
the only proof that there
was once us
now burns in the fireplace
of the house we build
to keep me warm
and one day
the ashes of us
is all that will remain
Jan 27
Jan 27, 2026 at 12:44 AM UTC
I hear your laugh across the room
feel your nerves and see you grin
it makes my mouth curve up on its own
like it had done for the past nine years
I wait for your words of adoration
that'll make me go speechless
or your sweet kisses
that'll make my world red
oh here it comes
the music slows down
time stops
the crowd disappears
but for a second i blink
and it all withers
the reality hits
back in waves
all at once i'm far away
you are locking lips
with someone else
i turn around and run away
assumptions whirl around
blurry scenes in my mind
you whisper lines from a Shakespeare play
then embrace her tight and kiss her nape
the bitter feeling in my throat
a green eyed monster locked away
the place in your heart i abdicate
now my crown rest on someone else
i'll mourn for all that we were
for the vows we might have whispered
at the end of an aisle that could have been our own
oh my love we have lost it all
our wasted potential now a
phantom , it haunts my soul .
Sep 9, 2025
Sep 9, 2025 at 10:24 PM UTC
Under trees we closed eyes
Wished forever on a stone cairn
convinced ourselves that it'll last
Look at where we are now
Can't even bear to look each other in the eye .
Did fate make a deal with the wind
just to knock us down
make us realize it was never meant to last
thought it was the universe
that got us strung in a red thread
just for it to be a fleeting love .
cloud castle and a fake paradise
built it thinking it'll hold ground
there it is now laying around
just stones on a cold ground .
Jun 25, 2025
Jun 25, 2025 at 6:19 AM UTC
ALL THE THOUGHTS I KEPT CLOSE TO MY HEART
AND THE WORDS LEFT UNSAID FEELING SHY
WRITTEN IN INK ADDRESSED TO YOUR NAME
TO BE READ AT A LATTER DATE
BUT NOW HEAVY ON MY SHOULDER
SO I LET THEM GET DAMPED BY THIS ****** RAIN
THE SKY MIRRORING WHAT I FELT WHEN YOU LEFT
YEARS WILL GO BY AND BY AND I'LL WAIT
FOR THE GRAND GOODBYE THAT NEVER CAME
Jun 20, 2025
Jun 20, 2025 at 5:16 AM UTC
begging someone to love you,
begging someone to look at you
someone who did all this just a while ago,
but stopped.
now, when they look at you,
they only see through you .
how can that happen?
how can that be?
to all the people who loved you,
then stopped
ask them if you ever rained on their parade.
can’t they see
the tears streaming down your face,
the tremor in your voice
as you beg them to stay?
maybe they do
just act like they don’t.
once upon a time,
they would have been the ones
soothing you,
holding you tight
yet now,
they are the ones
throwing around sharpened knives.
May 29, 2025
May 29, 2025 at 6:46 AM UTC
Staring at an old picture of you,
before i made you lose your spark,
wondering how i let you drown in the name of love,
I have the same dream every night
walking around Ely lane holding hands
i kiss your lips that December night
in front of my friends and the crowd goes wild
but i wake up every day and remember
that's not how it happened
no, that's not how it went
i let your hand go and left you in the cold
didn't love you properly and made you think it was your fault
( so you hated yourself )
wondering about what ifs now knowing it won't change the ending
but that doesn't stop me from dreaming of a different ending
couldn't be a better man for you so now I watch
as they put you in a white dress and lower you to the ground
and I promise to hate myself forever in this moment
for all the things i did to you but mostly for the things i didn't.
May 5, 2025
May 5, 2025 at 7:02 AM UTC
COME KISS YOUR LITTLE TRAGEDY ONE LAST TIME,
BURY ME IN A WHITE DRESS AND TELL THEM IT WAS LOVE,
THINK I'D LIKE THE SOUND OF MY BONES BREAKING WHILE THE SKIES WATCH,
YOUR NAME IN MY MOUTH AS I HIT THE GROUND,
AND I DRAW AIR FOR THE LAST TIME ,
BECAUSE YOU DON'T DESERVE TO STAND THERE DRY
WHEN I DROWNED FOR YOU,
SO I'M MAKING YOU SHOUT MY NAME ONE LAST TIME
AS YOU WATCH MY LIFE FLY OUT ,
BUT NO, I WON'T OPEN MY EYES THIS TIME AROUND,
BLOOD ON THE CONCRETE,
YOUR HANDS SHAKING OVER ME,
AND MAYBE THEN YOU'D FINALLY CRY
May 5, 2025
May 5, 2025 at 6:25 AM UTC
Invented languages in crowded rooms,
through secret glances.
My flushed cheeks made your mouth curve up
secret meetings hidden from the world.
Now that I look back, it got me thinking:
you didn’t break the promise of forever.
Because sometimes, forever is only a moment.
Your touch —was my apricity in a Russian winter.
Glowing cheeks, bright eyes
you, who made me love the girl in the mirror,
yet cannot show up anywhere
blurry eyed with people in sight,
as we were each other’s greatest secret.
Apr 16, 2025
Apr 16, 2025 at 12:14 PM UTC
The ring that you gave
made my finger blue
it was suffocated it was bruised
tried to rip it off most nights
but it didn't come off yeah it never budged
and one day it did and the next i missed it
the bruise started to heal it went purple then yellow
but there stayed a line an indentation of what we went through
in the finger with the vein to my heart
some nights when the world gets to me
i look at it - the mark that you left
then suddenly I'm craving you
like air underwater
and it makes me want to swim back to you
we both know i won't survive the tides
yet the love vein's pulling me back to you .
Mar 5, 2025
Mar 5, 2025 at 11:52 PM UTC