My brain sits in the gutter.
Tethered with a lil red string,
To my littlest, smallest finger.
I want to be smart!!
I want to be a genius!!
It’s right there, just take it,
But OH WAIT!!
In the gutter, the sharks lie.
Critics bigger than newspapers,
Text blacker than midnight,
Where my genius flies best.
Wearing wings of paper
And holding a heart of flame
My brain blazes toward home.
Towards me!!
Towards my pen, poised!!
But never reaches in time,
Only enough to reach out,
A gust from brushing together.
An ink drops on the paper,
No meaning to be found.
Anywhere?
Nowhere in my mind, at least.
Dec 30, 2024
Dec 30, 2024 at 11:36 AM UTC
The ribbons of your heart
Are entwined with mine.
Blood-red trailing on ebony
Softest silk draped over stone
You seek to love me
But I cannot.
I can’t risk you and I
Becoming entangled -
I fear we may never be free.
Dec 15, 2024
Dec 15, 2024 at 11:27 PM UTC
Black scales among white feathers.
White fangs between black beaks.
A snake, among the swans.
Both creatures of grace,
But one more deadly.
The snake has venom
But the swan has none.
The snake is sleek
But the swan can fly.
White feathers in the black dirt.
Black scales in the white lilies.
A swan swims away,
And the snake lies dead.
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Dec 5, 2024
Dec 5, 2024 at 8:38 AM UTC
You’ve wounded me.
Shattered my heart,
No hope of healing.
How could you?
Why did you
Twist my soul in two?
Your shards of glass
Have rent my eyes
Blood, like a tear, drips.
Dec 4, 2024
Dec 4, 2024 at 4:47 PM UTC
You sing and call so sweetly,
Summoning me closer,
Into the folds of your arms.
The shadows of your bent head,
Tucked down close to mine,
Reflecting a comfort and safety
That I’ve never felt before.
The voice of the night is soft,
Welcoming, in a way
That you could never be.
And I love her, deeply,
But she could never be the night.
She is not you.
Dec 2, 2024
Dec 2, 2024 at 1:02 PM UTC
Why are you here?
Hiding in the stolen moments,
The glances of left and right,
Just behind my eye’s corner
Your love is still felt
Brushed against my fingers
When I reach for anything
Like feathers on silk
You haunt me,
A ghost of memories,
Of our little time together.
How are you still alive?
Nov 30, 2024
Nov 30, 2024 at 3:50 PM UTC
Hiding in my own gaze,
Dreading to meet yours.
Wondering what hurts more,
Hiding, or being Found?
Nov 28, 2024
Nov 28, 2024 at 10:46 PM UTC
Do you see me?
On the outskirts of the crowd
Looking in at the talking
Always looking in
If my mouth ever opens
To contribute a word
I am cut off
The populars owning the chatter
I simply close my mouth
Nod and smile to the others’ looks
And you forget I am here
Do you see me?
In the very centre of the crowd
Looking out at the chatter
Never looking in
Every word from my lips
Is funny, ingenious
The best thing you’ve heard today
I am expected to have words
For every occasion
Just once
I want to close my mouth
Nod and smile to the others’ words
And you forget I am here
Nov 26, 2024
Nov 26, 2024 at 10:45 PM UTC
I’m dying
Missing you,
The ghost at my fingertips.
Whispering to me
Like a shadow of a scent.
I’m dying missing you,
Someone who was never there,
Never meant to be.
My mind imagines the strangest things sometimes.
Like a person who was there and gone,
Like a shadow,
A scent,
Never to be mine.
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 10:32 PM UTC
This chair is oh so familiar,
Propping my arm up,
The same as it always does.
The nurse arrives, needle in hand,
And removes a unit of love,
Filling that same plastic bag.
I know where my love goes.
I see it arrive, every time.
That nurse, needle in hand,
Sends my love along your veins,
To your heart.
The transfusion never takes.
At least, not from you.
Your cold body never warms.
My love will never work
Because your heart is dead.
And mine cannot pump for two.
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 10:44 AM UTC