gravity
its certainty is puzzling
the way it attracts something
towards its center
it holds me down
until i drown
in worlds where words
can't lift me up no longer
gravity is certain
but i'm a skeptic
so i stand here
where my feet don't adhere
to the ledge of the 25th floor
[i want to test it]
Sep 12, 2015
Sep 12, 2015 at 11:11 AM UTC
i took seven sleeping pills last night
which is six more than what the label says but
four more than what i usually take
and i have come to a realization
that i used to sleep
not because of the pills
but because the space beside me
used to be occupied
by you
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 9:32 AM UTC
time and time again
i will always love more than
i am loved by you
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 12:50 PM UTC
you deserve someone
one who will let you feel free
you don't deserve me
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 9:53 AM UTC
i look at the sky
tiny dots amongst
nothing
blank space
outer space
the tiny dots appear to flicker
they exist as
only source of light
if the night bears no moon
i see distant heavenly bodies
burning hotter than a thousand campfires
a million matches
they burn blue
red
white
across the void of the galaxy
light traveling billions of miles away
in some predestined way to reach my retinas
i try to process the idea of exactly how much space
space needs to take
i can't comprehend the simple complexity of this universe
nor fathom the vastness of it
working like a preprogrammed machine
it bares little creatures in a water-filled planet
they have their own little worlds
their own little stories
separate from the narration
that keeps together the force of gravity
do not forget
that you were made by the same Being
who made the stars
the same One
Who crafted each gaseous heavenly body
each He knows by name
don't you realise that the fire inside of you
burns hotter than a thousand suns
a billion supernovas
you burn not only red, white, and blue
hues can't quite describe
the brilliance of your mind
i try to process
how much space
it would take for me not to feel your warmth
i can't comprehend your simple complexity
the constallations in your eyes
change every night
because each day
you're a new mystery
for me to fathom
do not forget
that you were made by the same Being
who made the stars
why wouldn't He make someone
just like them
someone who shines brightly
to cut through the darkness
why wouldn't He?
but ah
He already has
don't you ever forget
that He already has
Feb 11, 2015
Feb 11, 2015 at 10:22 AM UTC
they say people forget things
not because they wanted to
but because what they were supposed to remember
wasn't important to them in the first place
i guess this holds true
because it's not like you want
to forget something you have to remember
maybe one day i'll be unimportant too
just like the little things you were supposed to do for me
but forgot
because i suppose you had
more important things to attend to
i don't blame you
at first you will remember
then you will at the last moment
then you will strive hard to remember
after that, you won't even try at all
and then the next thing you know
you'll forget why you loved me
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 11:59 PM UTC
tight spaces
make me dizzy
tight spaces
with many people
will make me die
trains are okay
trains with lots of people
give me panic attacks more times than not
the fact
that i'm trapped
in a moving vehecle
with no means of getting down
until the next stop
which probably isn't my stop anyway
just *****
tight spaces
make me dizzy
but when you hug me tight
it's quite the opposite
it's like i want to live
in the small space between your hands and your chest
in a train full of people
i don't mind feeling the heat your body emits
amongts a hundred other people's which i don't particularly care for
you make the me dizzy
but the kind of dizzy
that makes me feel good
and safe
i don't like tight spaces
but i don't mind being in your room
about two of your wingspans in length
as long as you're right next to me
you make the panic attacks go away
please don't go away
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 11:38 PM UTC
thursdays are special
not because of some superstition or tradition
but because it's that one day of the week
our schedules allow us to meet
not in between classes like the rest of the other days
it's a day we have, more or less, to ourselves
on thursdays we go out to the restaurant
where strange things have happened
we watch a movie
may it be in theaters
or through the glass of your laptop screen
sometimes we just lie on your bed
until our heartbeats sing the other to sleep
i like thursdays
but i know you haven't been your best lately
like the whole world is swallowing you whole
and everything leads you to jump off the 25th floor
but please don't go
we still have adventures to go on
giants to conquer
movies to watch
strange moments to experience
we still have more thursdays together
Jan 17, 2015
Jan 17, 2015 at 5:49 AM UTC
if seeing you naked
means seeing the scars you hide beneath your clothing
then i will kiss them
before i even lay my lips yours
Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 1:38 PM UTC