I don't know how to deal with this feeling of
Staring at ceiling .
Trying to piece together how I feel.
I don't hate you,
I just hate that I keep hoping you'll come back,
And we'll be together again.
I don't hate you,
I hate my fargile heart,
That somehow keeps waiting for you.
I don't hate you,
I hate myself for believing,
That we could be great together.
I don't hate you,
I hate the moment where I said yes to you
And ruined the beautiful friendship we had.
I don't hate you,
I just hate that I still want us to be something.
I don't hate you,
But I guess I'm starting to.
Jun 19, 2024
Jun 19, 2024 at 1:10 PM UTC
He had wonderful eyes.
Not the type which makes you feel lost,
But the ones which makes you feel those butterflies.
The ones which look cold,
But are warm and dreamy.
They were quiet,
But beneath those eyes,
Were thousands of emotions,
Some fears,some tears.
Something that was meant to be mine.
I found something to hold on,
In those empty eyes of yours.
He had wonderful eyes.
The eyes that made me realise,
That what I see in them is just an illusion.
Jun 16, 2024
Jun 16, 2024 at 2:32 PM UTC
As I look at you,
I loose all my words
You are like a dream,
I die everyday in desire of living it.
I see you with her,the girl of your dreams,
I wish you could be with me with all of my fantasies.
You are the ocean,
So cruel so cold,
I drown everyday,
And you just don't care.
I hate to see you with her,
The girl of your dream,
But the idea of you in my head,
Never let's me sleep.
So I'll write this poem for you,
So you read and know.
But I know,
You'll never know,
Because till internity
You'll never be mine.
May 14, 2023
May 14, 2023 at 8:53 AM UTC
I love my scars,
Because they are the symbol of my success,
They show that I survived,
I fought,
They are the symbol,
That time hasn't changed anything,
But thought me go through the pain.
They reflect that,
I'm better than ever.
They are the symbol that my,
Hardwrok was not vain.
My scars define me.
May 19, 2022
May 19, 2022 at 12:29 PM UTC
Pain is all I have.
There's no one to listen,
No one to care,
No one to see,
The pain I have within me.
Thousands sleepless nights,
There's nothing left that is right,
No hope,
No way left to cope.
I'm here all alone,
I know I've messed up,
But I'll make it right,
Allright .
Apr 19, 2022
Apr 19, 2022 at 2:45 PM UTC
I'm better off all by myself,
You took my pride away,
Leaving me with anxiety,
But I'll find another way,
You trying taking my life,
You target my weakness,
Burning my strength away,
But I'm not quite there yet,
You ain't seen the rest of me,
And I'm not giving in .
Apr 17, 2022
Apr 17, 2022 at 3:47 PM UTC
I'm loosing my sleep,
I walk in a line between confidence and suicide .
I lost some people long a way,
Oh what a shame.
Demons torture my mind,
And I'm losing my mind.
I'm riding on broken dreams,
It's getting harder to see,
Slit my wrist ****** fist ,
Questioning why I exist.
Apr 11, 2022
Apr 11, 2022 at 11:11 AM UTC
I want to spend my entire life looking at you,
There's no one else like you,
You improve everything,
And I'm greatful to god a million times for bringing you In my life.
Just looking at you it feels like spring,
What else is there to say about love,
I would give up everything when it comes to you,
My pen starts at you and ends at you,
Every dot In my book describes the love I have for you,
I want to spend my entire life looking at you.
Apr 8, 2022
Apr 8, 2022 at 3:13 PM UTC
I stay inside my room,
The world doesn't miss me.
Didn't go out,
Had no one to go with me.
I didn't ask out,
Cause I had no one to think of me.
Always left alone,
No love to find,
You are the one that acts kind.
Something is happening,
I wish you could see,
The way you make me smile.
And the rest is all a lie.
Most of the time I see you replying to people.
While I try writing getting ****** off.
I don't really care what the world will say,
But I'm already tired of living alone all day.
Let's meet again,
You with your smile and flirty pick up lines,
With love in my heart and hope in my eyes,
I'll hear you, admire you, write about you,
Till we meet again under the same sky.
Apr 7, 2022
Apr 7, 2022 at 4:35 PM UTC
Walking in the line between,
Panic and losing my mind,
Loving the madness.
The devils whisper in my ears,
Reminding me all my fears .
I live in a nightmare,
There are no angels no Hero's,
Out here,
It's me and the demons laying here,
Dancing in the dark space,
Loving this madness.
Apr 7, 2022
Apr 7, 2022 at 11:58 AM UTC