Leave me alone.
I don't want comfort.
I don't want such holy water
Over these wounds I caused to myself.
I won't want your uplift
When this weight on my shoulder keeps sinking me down.
Why do you want to play with me?
Why are you still here?
Leave me alone.
What else do I do? Lie to myself that I'm useful?
Sweetness stays for awhile before everything returns to bitterness.
Your comfort can only sweeten so much of the bitterness of my uselessness.
Leave me alone.
Please.
Jul 4, 2019
Jul 4, 2019 at 9:13 AM UTC
ax^2 + bx + c
A formula taking me nowhere
All these numbers, these units and deltas.
I'm not understanding.
2H2 + O2 to 2H2O
A formula helping none at all.
All elements I'd even have in my life.
I'm not understanding.
e=mc^2, p=mv
All the calculus that I cannot see.
I only want to find my own emotions and sanity.
And those I'm not understanding.
All this sine, cosine, tangent.
All this math, physics and chemistry.
Even the feelings of mine that are tangling.
I'm not understanding.
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 10:20 AM UTC
Sleepless
Tired
Exhausted.
Want more sleep.
Want more rest.
Want more relaxation.
Still work to do
Still jobs to do
Still things to do.
Still breathing and living
And yes, still having fun.
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 10:15 AM UTC
Note of a piano
Noises from an instrument
Noises that I know
Unfamiliar to my brain.
A line of music
Noises from a song
Noises that I picked
Never remember anything long.
A piece of poetry
Words from literature.
Words that I wrote
And I'm not even sure.
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 10:14 AM UTC
A world slowly darkening.
A dimension gradually breaking.
The sky looks as if it's crashing.
All I did was standing still.
Still, as time was moving.
Still, as life was worsening.
Still, and slowly as I'm dying.
And my poetry remains.
Unenlightened.
Unacceptable.
Uncontrollable.
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 10:12 AM UTC
A taste of defeat.
An entry to success.
Failure is a treat
For all your process.
You may fail exercise
So you can finish the test.
You must be precise
On your experiments and stress.
There's nothing in this world
That is impossible.
You just need to try harder
And make your failure admirable.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 3:33 PM UTC
I have been seeking for you.
Love is the only reason.
You are the only truth.
I was pathetic and alone.
Still as pathetic now, but less.
Do you know how much I was affected on?
Even though I am careless.
In just a moment, you are already there.
Death can't compare to when you are in unhappiness.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 3:33 PM UTC
There's nothing but jinxes.
Lots of whiners and stress.
There's nothing more than despair.
That comes to me, fair and square.
I don't see any reason in this realism
From literature for you to be so enthusiasm.
And so goes to sweetness and music.
All of these make me sick.
All people around see me as a joke.
I'm broke, broke and again, broke.
I don't see why we are bound
To keep our limits on the ground.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 3:31 PM UTC
Left out in the cold,
Frozen to death.
So shabby, yet so bold.
The sound of sword sheath.
Cutting through the atmosphere.
Cutting through my shed.
And they found me there.
Frozen and pathetic.
They brought me here.
So I can stop being sick.
And become a part
Of the new society's gimmick.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 3:30 PM UTC
I just want someone to laugh with
Not laugh at
I just want someone to pat me.
I just want someone to chit and chat.
Someone to be with.
But who will it be?
Who will come to me
When all has left?
Who will make me happy
When all treats me like a pet?
Will anyone ever find me?
In this cold and lonely shed
Of fluff and filler?
So that I can be happy
Forever after...?
Nov 21, 2017
Nov 21, 2017 at 2:03 PM UTC